sweetened desires

chapter 6

Chapter 6

Adam’s POV

I hated myself for the way I ended things with Amber I couldn’t believe I let my emotions get the best of me, earlier that day when I heard her cry from her bedroom I wanted to go to her but I let my pride get the best of me and I knew I royally f****d up big time and I hated myself for it.

It’s been a little more then a month since I last saw or heard from her and the fight we had still lingers on in my memory daily, it’s gotten to the point I haven’t been able to sleep I’ve been walking around like a zombie the guilt is to much to handle, how could I treat someone so pure so wrong.

To be honest I don’t know why I brought the other girl back that night I didn’t even get the girl’s name I guess I just wanted to hurt Amber the way she hurt me when she left the way she did, was what I did a d**k move for sure, would I spend the rest of my time here making it up to her absolutely, I just hope she doesn’t hate me forever.

Flashback to that night 4 weeks ago

“FUCK.” I screamed to myself in the mirror of the women’s bathroom in the club, I fixed myself quickly as I could running my hands throughout my messy hair that was now sticking up in all directions from where her hands ran through my hair,

I yanked the door open with so much force it hit the wall of the bathroom loudly, people near by had heard the commotion and were giving me “ what the f**k” look’s probably assuming I was a creepy pervert coming out of a women’s bathroom.

Hey it had been a first for even me okay, I’ve done it in some pretty public places but I had never hooked up in a bathroom of a club before to be honest I was pretty shocked myself when she suggested it but who was I to say no besides it was hot when a woman knew what she wanted and went after it.

I caught a glimpse of Amber’s back rushing through the crowd so I started pushing people aside to get to her “ Amber wait.” I called but she didn’t hear me or she ignored me, by the time I finally reached the exit of the building she was entering a cab I had just missed her.

“ f**k how could I be so dang stupid.” I yelled banging my fist against the brick wall of the club out of frustration, on lookers just stared at me giving me evil looks and shaking their head’s at me in disgust.

I stomped my way back inside towards the bar determined to get drunk and not really giving a rat’s arse what people thought I just wanted to drink my night away and avoid all human contact all together.

“I’ll grab a whiskey thanks hold the ice mate.” I said to the young bartender, his arm’s were covered in tattoos and he looked like the type of guy you definitely did not want to mess with.

“ Rough night?” he asked as he passed me my drink and I gave him the money.

“you could say that.” I say back swirling the contents of my drink in my cup with my hand as I looked into the bottom of the glass.

“ Let me guess, you’ve got women trouble.” He say’s c*****g his eyebrows at me.

“ pretty much, I screwed up big time.” I say raising my glass to my lips and take a big swig from the glass, I shudder as I feel the burning liquid run down the back of my throat, I place my glass back on the bar and lick my lips of the remaining contents that was left behind.

Not waiting for him to respond I say “ I hooked up with my roommate and she practically couldn’t get away quick enough, it was only supposed to be a one off no strings attached kind of thing but afterwards I felt like it could of been more, man I’m so f****d right now.”

He nodded his head thoughtfully as he listened to my sob story “man it sounds like you either need to go after her and tell her how you really feel before you regret it or find some pretty little thing to bury yourself into and forget about it for tonight at least.” He said pouring me another drink “ this one is on the house.” He patted me on the back and left me to serve another customer and like the fool I am I choose option number 2.

End flashback

I received a text message from Amber earlier informing me she would be home today and that we needed to talk, their was something important we needed to discuss.

I’ve been running around frantic for the last couple of hours trying to get everything back in order before she arrived, I was pretty sure I already knew what she was going to say, she was going to say she couldn’t live with me anymore after what we or more I had done and that I’d have to find somewhere else to live.

“ fuck.” I mumbled I royally f****d up this time, I ran my fingers through my hair roughly “ their is nothing I can do I’ll just have to bite the bullet and swallow my pride and hope she gives me another chance.” I thought to myself.

Once I finished cleaning I started on dinner and hopped in the shower while I awaited my fate, I just hope she would have mercy on me.

Amber’s POV

It had been a month since I was last at home and talked to Adam.

I had decided to buy the hotel in Malibu it was to good a deal to pass up so I’ve been here for a little over a month trying to work out the Logistics of it all but along with that I’ve had a frightening revelation.

With everything going on I hadn’t noticed I was 2 week’s late for my period, at first I thought it could have been stress but then I couldn’t stand the smell of my morning coffee or meat cooking so now I’m sitting in a doctor’s office waiting for Dr Smith to come back with my blood test results.

My nerves were out of control I couldn’t stop my leg from shaking and I had to keep wiping my hand’s on my tight black pencil skirt because they were sweating so much it seemed to get worse the more I waited minutes felt like hour’s.

Dr Smith had informed me that the results wouldn’t take no more than 30 minutes but it’s already been a hour and my arse was going numb from sitting down for so long.

I was about to get up and go find someone to ask what the hold up was but then the door opened and Dr Smith came back in. “ thank God.” I thought.

“ Miss Summer’s I’m sorry to have taken so long, we had a bit of an emergency.” He walked in and sat down at his desk , Dr Smith was a middle aged man with thick glasses, a bald head and a white over coat that looked like it was miles to big for him.

I started playing with my nail cubicles it was a nervous habit that I had developed, I some how knew what he was going to say before he said it and once he did I was hoping he would tell me it was all a joke but I had a feeling the joke would be on me.

“ Miss Summer’s your blood test results have come back.” He said looking at his computer for clarification then back at me, I felt like shaking him and saying “ out with it then.” But I didn’t, my composure remained and I stayed silent.

“ Miss Summer’s it would appear that congratulations are in order, your pregnant.” He smiled widely at me and I burst into tear’s.

I never understood why Doctor’s felt the need to congratulate someone what if the person was to young to have a baby or she had been raped, no I don’t like the term at all.

“ I’m pregnant?” he nodded seemingly to become more and more uncomfortable he pushed over the box of tissues that was on his desk and i grabbed a couple drying my tear's.

“ you will need to go on prenatal vitamins if you plan on keeping the baby, it will be good for the baby’s growth and your health as well .” he said sympathetically.

After that I didn’t hear much else he had to say I was in complete shock, he booked for a ultrasound scan for when I got back to Austin Texas and sent me on my way.

I was in my town car sitting in the backseat on my way back to the hotel to pick up Timothy and my bags and then we would be off to the airport where I had now decided to at least tell Adam about the baby.

I sent Adam a text message.

Amber – hey Adam, it’s Amber I’ll be back later tonight their is something we need to discuss, I should be home around 7 p.m.

I put my phone on my lap and wiped the tears away from my eyes I didn’t realise until then I was crying, I watched the peak hour traffic zoom past the window.

I couldn’t quite help but think about what he might say to me, would he call me a liar and deny the baby being his or maybe he will leave all altogether, it’s not like he owes me anything we aren’t even together, it was just one night of bliss Adulterated fun that has been on repeat in my mind for the last month.

I picked up my phone and decided I needed a distraction so I called the best “Amy”.

I dialled her number and she picked up after a couple of ring’s, from the noise in the back ground I could tell she was at work.

“Hey girl, how's Cali? I’m so jelly right now.” She squealed excitedly through the phone and I had to pull it away from my ear so she didn’t make me deaf.

“Hey yeah it’s great” I tried to pretend like everything was okay but the flood gate’s opened and before I knew it I was crying again, it was the most I had cried in a long time.

“ obviously your not or you wouldn’t be crying, so tell me what the hell is going on so I know who’s arse to kick.” She said half jokingly and half serious.

“ I’m....P-p- pregnant.” I stuttered out, I was so worried about telling her and her judging me I became a stuttering mess.

“ Your WHAT?” she yelled through the phone. “but how? Have you been seeing someone you haven’t told me about?”

“ Do you remember the night we all went out with the boy’s and I left early?”

“ Yeah what about it?” she said worriedly trying to soothe me with her voice trying not to make me panic again.

“Adam and I may have hooked up.” The words kind of just fell from my mouth. “ in the club bathroom.”

“ oh my god you hooked up with him ? Why didn’t you tell me?” she squealed.

“ because I wanted to forget it happened.” I said pointedly.

“ oh my god! Why? was it bad? Did he have a tiny p***s” I couldn’t help but laugh at my friend.

“ No nothing like that, he was amazing in every way but it was a mistake we shouldn’t never of done it.”

“so he was big, huh?”

“ very.” Her questions just kept on coming I was glad to see the hotel coming into view, I told Amy I had to go and she reluctantly said goodbye but not before making me promise to explain everything later.

I asked the driver to stop outside the hotel I sent Timothy a message, 5 minutes later he comes out with our bags and we head straight to the airport where sat inside a café while we waited to board our plan back home.

2 hour’s later and countless bottles of water we were finally on our way back where I awaited my fate.

The plane had finally touched down in Austin around 6.40pm and by the time 7.20pm came around I was standing out the front of my apartment door trying to talk myself into going inside.

I was determined to tell him, I had decided I could handle if he didn’t want to be apart of his child’s life after all their was so many strong single parents out there able to and I would love my baby no matter what, even if I’m having this baby a lot sooner in my life then I originally planned.

I just hoped I would be half as good at raising my child as what my parents and Shirley did for me, I wondered whether or not they would be disappointed in me for not being in a relationship before falling pregnant but then I remembered the type of person my parents would want me to be, happy maybe I will be someday after all life is full of the unknown.

“ come on you can do this your a strong independent woman.” I said talking to my self trying to build up enough courage to go inside. “ here goes nothing.”

I put my hand on my stomach protectively and unlocked the front door walking inside with my bags a comforting smell over took my senses from the oven and I noticed Adam had been busy.

The apartment was clean and he had set the table with candle’s I sat down on the sofa and called out to Adam. “hello Adam are you here I’m back.”

He came inside from the balcony that was connected to the lounge and smelt of smoke and a earthy woodies smell.

He had a black V-neck sweater that made his muscles pop out of his shirt and grey loose joggers on, he walked over and sat down across from me. “ how was your trip?” he said politely.

“ Yeah it was ok , but their is something I need to tell you.” I said nervously.

“what’s up?” he said looking at me concerned.

“ Adam I don’t know how to tell you this.” I began slowly trying to make the right words come out of my mouth but instead my head went and ripped off the band aid and I mentally face palmed myself “ I’m pregnant and it’s yours.”

I placed my hand on my stomach protectively, I knew I wouldn’t be showing for another 2 – 3 months but I couldn’t help but think about the growing life we had made that was inside me.

“are you sure?” he said looking at me expecting me to say I was joking but I wasn’t.

“ Yeah I went to the doctor today before I came home.”

“ okay I just need a minute” he said getting off the sofa and he walked away, tears sprang to my eye’s and before I knew it darkness had taken over me and I fell asleep.