My Guardian Angel

Chapter 13

‘Who told you?’ I asked. How could I have been so stupid? If anyone knows something about my destiny it is Julian, my guardian angel.  

‘Sorry, I shouldn’t have said anything.’

‘You know something. What are you not telling me?’ I demanded. I hate being kept in the dark. I know he just saved my life. I am grateful, but I need to know what that man was talking about and if someone was after me I needed to figure out who and why and I needed to do it fast before it ended in a tragedy - me losing my life.

He stood up, unfolded his wings and flew up into the sky.

‘Wait!’ I called after him.

He stood still in midair, tilting his head and grinning down at me.

‘I didn’t get a chance to properly thank you for saving my life.’ I explained.

‘Is that so? And how are you planning on thanking me?’ he held out his hand and without thinking about it I took it.

He flew up so quickly into the air I didn’t have time to react. Before I knew it we were high up in the sky floating along the clouds.

‘I am still waiting for an explanation.’ I demanded.

‘I don’t think you are in a position to upset me, because this time I will drop you.’ He said playfully with a huge grin on his lips.

He was teasing me. I cleared my throat and decided to try a different approach.

‘Thank you for saving my life twice now. You seem to always show up when I need you the most. Since we are on that discussion, from what exactly are you saving me from?’ I waited for him to shut the subject down or tell me to drop it, but he never did. He just stared at me with a huge grin on his face and then I knew that this was not going to end well at all.

‘Tssk, tssk.’ He said and he let me fall; only this time I wasn’t so fond of the idea at all.

‘Julian! I am sorry!’ I yelled at him. He was really keeping his word. He was going to let me die after saving my life twice. He is not a very good guardian angel if he lets his me die on his watch!

I screamed my lungs out, but apparently no one can hear you so high up in the sky. I tried to stay upright, but it was difficult while falling out of the sky.

Before I knew it he scooped me up and he was laughing. Laughing! I hit him in the chest, but he didn’t even finch.

‘What is wrong with you? I could have died! Do you think this is some kind of a joke?’ I demanded from him while relaxing in his arms. He is such a piece of work. 

‘I think we are good.’ He simply said. ‘About what?’ I asked.

‘Oh you know, the whole saving your life part. I think we have gotten that out of our system.’ He smirked and I just completely lost it, again. ‘What the hell is wrong with you? Do you think this is funny? I could still die of a heart attack you moron. Ugh, you are such a pain.’ I yelled at him while still dangling in midair. He was holding onto me so tightly, not that I was paying any attention. I was furious! He cannot just drop me whenever he feels like it.

‘Please just put me down. You are giving me a headache!’ I screamed. I would never fly with him again. I would rather burn to death than be in his arms again. 

‘Your wish is my command.’ He dived back to the ground. I was holding so tightly onto him. He was my lifeline that I was holding onto. I heard him laugh at my reaction.

‘This is not funny Julian. You are going to kill me!’ I gasped as the wind blew in my face.

I closed my eyes and waited for my feet to touch the ground.

After a few minutes the wind stopped blowing on my face, but my feet still wasn’t on the ground. I peeked and saw that he was holding me in his arms, smiling at me and we were safely on the ground.

‘Thanks I guess.’ I said and I stared into his eyes. It is just like I remember them, those blue eyes drawing me closer to him and daring me to look deeper into them.

Before I could change my mind I leaned forward and kissed him. It felt unreal. He reacted to my kiss and it grew deeper. He tasted incredible, a mixture of honey and spices. I felt the fire again, he set my soul alight. He was an amazing kisser. I pulled him closer to me to deepen the kiss but he broke free.

‘Wait, this is wrong.’ He put me down and took a few steps back trying to compose himself. He rubbed his hand through his hair and watched me.

‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that.’ I said embarrassed. My first kiss is not supposed to end like this. I really thought he felt the fire too.

‘There is nothing to be sorry about Ava. I feel the need to kiss you too.’ He said. I stared at him in disbelieve. He came closer and took my hand. He put my hand on his heart and I waited for him to say something, anything.

‘Do you feel that?’ he asked. I closed my eyes and tried to listen to his heartbeat through my hand.

His heart was beating so fast and loudly. It had a rhythm to it. I opened my eyes and saw that he was studying my face. I couldn’t speak so I just nodded at him.

‘That is for you Ava. My heart has belonged to you since I saw you in the hospital.’

I sucked in a breath. This was not the reply I anticipated after kissing him.

‘I don’t know what to say.’

‘You must understand Ava. Being a guardian angel has rules.’ He looked down and let my hand fall from his chest. He turned around and stared up into the sky. I wondered what he was thinking about? 

‘What does that mean?’ I asked. 

‘We can never be together. If the angels suspect that there is something between us I could be pulled back to heaven. I would have to face the consequences.’

‘Oh.’ was all I said. I didn’t know what to say. It felt like someone just ripped my heart out. The connection he feels toward me is the same one that I have felt since the day I met him. I don’t know how, but I know that he has always been there. He has been the love that I have been waiting for.

‘This doesn’t make sense. Why can’t we be together?’ I was desperate for answers. Anything to tell me that there is a chance that we can be together.

‘Angels and humans are not allowed to be together. It is a sacred rule. We are not supposed to have feelings. You woke all my emotions up when I laid my eyes on you. You were so beautiful and I couldn’t stop thinking about you. I was so possessive. I wanted to take you away just so that I could have you all to myself. I have learned how to control these emotions, but it never truly goes away. I have to meet with the archangels every week and I have to keep my emotions intact. If anyone discovers how I feel about you, I may never see you again. I would rather love you from a distance than never get to see you again. You are my light Ava.’ I saw a tear running down his cheek. I was crying for the love that I would never have with him. We were doomed from the start.

‘Is there nothing we can do?’ I begged him. He is everything I want. If he wanted to take me away I would go in a heartbeat. 

‘No Ava. This is the laws of heaven.’ He gave me one last kiss and flew away. I started sobbing for the love that I would never know.

I walked home and arrived just as my dad was pulling into the driveway. He gave one glance at me and knew something was wrong. That’s what I love about my dad. He knows everything without me having to tell him anything. He jumped out of his car and walked over to me. I started to run towards him and I ran straight into his arms. ‘Dad’ was all I said. He hugged me and rubbed my back.

‘My baby girl everything is going to be alright. I love you so much, you know that right?’

I just nodded and cried. He is such a good listener without having to talk to him. He pushed me away, held my shoulders in his hands and stared into my eyes.

‘There is something that I have to give you.’ He kissed my forehead and headed into the garage. I waited for him to return. He came back with an old book in his hands. 

‘This is for you’ he said and handed it over to me. ‘What is it?’

‘Remember no matter what I will always be here for you.’ He walked away without saying another word.

I turned the book over. It was an old brown leather book. I have never seen anything like it. There was a pair of wings engraved on the cover of the book. You can only feel the wings when you trace it over with your fingers.

I clutched onto the book and headed upstairs to my bedroom.

I sat on my bed and opened up the book. The pages were torn and wrinkly. It is an off brown colour and yet the book was beautiful in its own way. The pages were empty; the only page that were written on was the first page of the book.

Into this life a child will come,

To stop a war that can’t be won.

A miracle she’ll be indeed,

For countless deaths she will defeat.

With a heart so true and soul so pure,

She will be this world’s only cure.

Alone on this journey she will be,

Until all mankind is set free.

A sacrifice she’ll have to make,

An evil curse there is to break.

Deep inside she’ll know what to do,

For one mistake will kill her to.

This is the prophecy that man was talking about. How did dad get his hands on this book? Why do they think the child in the prophecy is me? I have so many questions and I have nowhere to get my answers.

Reading about the prophecy has awoken something in my soul. Deep down I know what I must do, but I don’t know how to unlock the answers.I fell asleep thinking about the prophecy that is my new destiny.

The next morning I was woken up by my alarm clock. Today I am going back to school.  It has been so long since I was last in school. 

I can’t wait to see Sam. We haven’t spoken since I was at her house. I guess she is pretty pissed at me for bailing. I haven’t told anyone that Julian abducted me or that he even exists.

Julian hasn’t come back to visit me either.

 I guess the whole world is mad at me.

I got dressed in a red t-shirt with denim shorts and sandals. I went downstairs, said goodbye to mom and left the house. I wasn’t hungry and I was dying to leave the house.

 The drive to school was upsetting. I have never felt so alone. I don’t know what else to do, I was all alone and Julian was definitely going to stay away from me. If only I could explain to him the bond that I feel, the pull to be near him, and yet again what is there to explain? My life has turned upside down since my sixteenth birthday. I just wish I could turn back the clock and do it all over again. I wish life was simple and easy to fix, but I know life is hard. It feels even worse for me.

Instead of going to school as I planned on doing, I decided to ditch. What’s the worst that can happen right?

Education was the last thing on my mind. I headed for the library instead eager to learn more about the prophecy. I know it is a long shot, but what do I have to lose?