Book of songs

Song 13 Sometimes I wonder if we’re friends or enemies because of how we argue. I know it’ll be ok because we make up, hug, and apologize. So we know that it’s alright, but then when you leave it pains me to say goodbye. So I stay in my room until you leave and I start to cry. Thinking why I didn’t stop you. So I’ll be hurting for awhile until I see you again. Even though you’re gone, you’re still in my heart. It’s like you never left me at all, but that’s because you left a scar on my heart. For now I think just talking on the phone is enough for me to do. Soon we’ll eventually have to meet in person. A few weeks later I saw you, but you were with someone new. Then I walked up to you and you said this is my girlfriend. After we spent hours talking I got up and left. I hung my head low until I got to my car. I got in my car and I drove home. I went to my room and cried. I cried so hard that I couldn’t cry anymore and my heart was broken. It was beyond repair. Song 14 My loneliness is killing me now. I don’t know why I fake a smile and fake a laugh. The more I do that the more it hurts me, but I do that to keep them from worrying about me. I also do that so I won’t bother them with my problems. I already know what they’re going to say to me. While they talk to me they try to comfort me every time they do that it doesn’t work. The way I feel it’s not going to go away. It won’t go away unless I get someone to help me through it. Who’ll understand how I feel because I don’t want to keep getting hurt from time to time like I did in the past. So will someone please help me through this pain. If I don’t it’ll haunt me for the rest of my life. So that’s why I’m reaching out and asking for help from you. Not only that, but I want you back with me. Song 15 I know that life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass. It’s about learning how to dance in the rain. To me that means letting go. Letting go of the most painful things. Letting go of the most sad things. Letting go of the past. Letting go of the bad things. Moving on to the future. Moving on from the past. Moving on with our lives. Forgetting all the bad things. Being bathed in god’s love. Living a happy life. Never thinking negative. Always thinking positive. Being comforted and loved by god. Letting go of everything. Living life like we should be. Leaving our past behind us. Walking to our future. Never looking back. Always look forward, but I only wish that I said goodbye. I’m still trying to look forward, but it’s not hard for me. You’re gone and I don’t know if I’ll ever see you again. I’ll hug you and say don’t ever leave me again. “Never let go of me” ~16 I talked to my friend last night. She told me that it was time for her to move. I told her not to cry. She told me she couldn’t help it. I told her NLGOM. She asked what that meant. I told her it meant never let go of me. She asked me again what it meant. I told her she’ll find out soon enough. She didn’t call me after that. So I called my other friend. He asked me for my advice about whether or not to let go of the past. I told him that he should but I also told him never let go of me. He said that he couldn’t make any promises.. I told him ok and that I had to go. That I’ll talk to him soon. He said ok. I went to my mom. I told her everything. As she held me in her arms. She told me that as long as I knew what never let go of me meant I’ll be ok. I left the house to go clear my mind. That’s when I got a text message from my boyfriend. It said that he wanted to breakup. I replied as I cried. I must’ve cried for hours because when I got home I went to the bathroom, looked in the mirror and I saw that my eyes were red. So I washed my face went to eat dinner. Took my pills, had something to drink, went back to the bathroom. Washed my hair and brushed my teeth. I went to my room, laid down on my bed face down on my side of the bed and cried. I cried til I went to sleep. I woke up the next day. Got a phone call from the hospital. They were telling me that my friend wanted to talk to me. So after that I said I’ll be right there. So I got dressed went to the hospital. Went to his hospital room. He told me that he only had a day left. I told him to never let go of me. He said ok. I left. The next morning he died.