Her Broken Rainbow

Unwritten

“I break tradition 

Sometimes my tries are outside the lines 

We’ve been conditioned to not make mistakes 

But I can’t live that way” 

~Unwritten 

Natasha Bedingfield 

I take a deep breath and start unloading my emotional baggage. “Oh, where to begin. Like I said earlier, I’m completely terrified. I feel like the breath is sucked right out of me and everything is crashing down around. I don’t know how to be calm but at the same time I’m stunned into blank silence.” 

“I wish I could say I understand what you're going through but that would be a lie. I understand the loss but not this crazy stress.” He admits. His hand gently ran up and down my arm, fingertips lightly grazing my skin. “What are your thoughts on his release?” 

“I knew it was coming but I was hoping for more time to come to some sort of acceptance. Guess it’s sink or swim right?” I try to sound humorous. 

“Don’t say it like that. It makes it sound more brutal.” He half chuckled, half sounded serious. “When we get back, we can set up a game plan on how to keep you protected at all times. Sort of like trading off babysitting you. But not in the overbearing and protective way. Just in the let’s not leave you alone for a while, way.” He gingerly offers. 

“Well, that doesn’t sound like anything that we will be doing. I’ve talked to Alaria about her parent’s offering a bodyguard. Being blindsided like this has me agreeing, only so that I can get back into self defense classes.” I told him. He hums in response and we sit in comfortable silence, listening to the city around us. The movement of his hand has me realizing I’m totally exhausted and I’m ready for sleep. He must have noticed because he suddenly stands up with me still in his arms. I don’t lift my head as I feel him carry me through the hotel room to my bed. I feel the cold soft sheets of the bed and his arms re-tracks from my body. I quickly grab his hand and stop him from leaving. “Stay with me, I don’t have nightmares when you’re next to me.” I plead. He nods and gets into bed next to me. I turn away from him, letting him spoon me from behind, his left arm wrapped securely around my waist and his left arm under my head like a giant pillow. I feel the beat of his heart on my back and it slowly lulls me to sleep. Before the calm darkness took me, I heard his voice, deep and sexy, low in my ear. “I will protect you with my last breath Rae.” a warm fuzzy feeling follows me into dreamland with the man who stole my heart snuggled close. 

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I feel a hand slowly creep up my stomach under my shirt, stopping just under my breast threatening to continue. Hot wet lips slide along the nape of my neck and I feel something hard press against my ass. A moan slips out of my mouth and unconsciously I push my ass into his hard on. The hand under my tit tightens a little and he grinds back on me, letting out a sultry moan from deep inside him. I reach up and grab his hand, squeezing it then pushing it down to my hip, giving the sign to slow down. Leaning back into him, I laced my fingers in his, “Good morning handsome. Something got you excited.” I said. 

He chuckles low and kisses my neck lightly. “I woke up next to the most beautiful creature on earth. I couldn’t help but be excited at the chance to touch you. I tried not to go too far, I’m sorry if I pushed you.” He rushed out quickly at the end. I laughed and rolled over to face him. I’ve woken up with him a few times so my shyness is slightly wearing off. “I’m not complaining, when I was ready to stop, you did. That gives you extra brownie points. And you may have already scored many just from waking me up in such a deliciously sexy way.” 

The look in his eye tells me he is catching on to my subtle hint of s****l flirtation. I lean up and kiss his cheek before climbing over him to go to the bathroom. I walk out and into the common room, the smell of breakfast waifs up my nose. I sit down next to Shay and Zoe and fill a cup with coffee. With cream and sugar added I take a big gulp, slightly burning my throat but in the best way. Coffee is my life line. Nick slides over a plate of bacon, eggs and hash browns cooked to perfection. We eat breakfast and get ready for the day. I dress in a black tight tank swim top and a pair of booty short swim bottoms, with a pair of jean shorts on top and my favorite black fuzzy slipper flip flops to match. The girls dress in their bikinis with shorts and we head out to meet the boys. We all trek to the pool area and set up at a table covered with a large beach umbrella. The boys decide to get in the pool while us girls lounge and tan in the chairs poolside. 

“So, have you decided if this trip will be it? Are you going to cut the ribbon and announce your grand opening?” Shay is always vulgar. No matter what the subject is, she always had a dirty innuendo to throw into the mix. I laugh at her comments and shrug.

“I’m not sure if I want to yet or not. The call yesterday has me actually wanting to. If I die in a week, I don’t really wanna die a virgin.” I joke. Which didn’t sit well with them if the looks I’m getting is any indication. 

“b***h, shut up. Don’t be a downer.” Zoe says before squirting me with her water bottle. 

“Honestly though, I think it’s time. I mean, not gonna lie, there is a part of me that thinks of what I’m going home to and it’s a bucket list kind of feeling. Like I want to do as much as I can just out of natural fear. But there is a bigger part of me who hasn’t stopped staring at the beautiful God-like man diving into that pool. Have you seen that body?” I tip my glasses down enjoying the full view of the 100% pure man in front of me. I watch as he surfaces and some woman saunters through the shallow end towards him. 

“Oh look! It’s getting interesting ladies.” Ria says. “She’s been watching him from afar since we walked in.” 

We watch as she swims up to him and pretends to bump into him. He laughs it off and pats her shoulder saying no worries. He turns away and swims off to the boys without even a backward glance in her direction. You can see when her hope falls and her smile falters. She climbs back out of the pool and turns to look at him one more time. I watch as she walks back to a table with some other women sitting down. She says something to them and they all look at the boys. It’s funny watching women try to hit on guys. Especially being a woman and knowing what moves work and which don’t. Like guys with pick up lines, we have our own pick up actions, while they don’t always score when verbally attempting to pick a woman up, we almost never lose. I watch as the girls get up and deliberately walk past our guys, laughing a little loud to get attention. They go back to the shallow end and climb into the pool, pretending not to pay attention to their surroundings, slowly making their way in the direction of our guys. 

“Alright, I’m getting into this s**t, it was funny but they’re like cougars. Dude. we’re all barely past 18. They can f**k off.” Shay gets up and stomps over to the side the boys are on. I agree with her on this s**t, so I follow suit, no doubt the others behind me. Shay takes a running jump and lands just a few inches from Zach, splashing not only the boys but the cougars too. One by one we jump in after her, surfacing and throwing our arms all over the boys. Sky smiles at me, pulling me closer and kissing my sloppily. I peer over at the old ladies and wink at the one who had tried to get Sky’s attention. She looked disgusted at me but hey, I’m still young. I like some spicy drama even if I’ve never been involved in it before. We continued to swim around, playing a game of horse and splashing each other. After a while the idea of food hits us one by one and we agree on going to a burger joint for some food. 

The rest of the afternoon is spent lazing around the hotel room watching movies and being couch potatoes. At some point after six, Shay decides she wants to dance and declares tonight to be their clubbing night. I think it’s an ample opportunity to get Sky alone away from everyone and tell the girls I don’t feel up to it. They get my hint and throw in some added whining to get me to go, girl code. To my satisfaction Sky agrees to stay behind and watch movies with me so I’m not alone. I help the girls with their hair and make up as they get ready. Asking me if I’m sure this is it, if I’m sure I’m ready. I simply nod my head, afraid that if I speak the words that I’d chicken out. They each take a few shots before heading out. I tell Sky I’m gonna shower before we sit down for a movie. I get one of the new lingerie sets and head to the bathroom. Taking my time showering, shaving all my bits and washing my body with my favorite rose scented shower gel. Once finished I climb out and dry off. After applying lotion I gingerly dress in the pink baby doll and towel dry my hair. Leaving it down and applying some pale pink gloss to my lips, I pinch my cheeks for the added blush effect then stare at myself in the mirror. 

Alright Rae. We’re going to do this. It felt like I was having an argument with my virginity and sadly… it was winning. I walk out of the bathroom, breathing in a deep breath. It’s now or never.