A Place in His Heart

Chapter 4

Alexia(Alex, Male Day)

“No, No, No,NOOOOO WHERE IS IT!? I KNOW I f*****g PACKED IT WHERE IS IT!?” Alex screams as he digs through the clothing bag for his binder. He was wearing a pair of boxers and a loose shirt as he digs through everything he brought looking for the damn thing.

“What’s wrong?” Blake asks, poking his head in the room.

“I cant find my f*****g binder anywhere I know I packed it but its not in here” Alex says looking like hes about to cry.

“Shhhhh Alex, its okay, none of us care if you’re binding or not, we still accept you for you. If you want I can get you one of my compression shirts though they’re to small for me since I started working out and it’ll do more then nothing” Blake says walking over to hug him. “Guy day or neither day?” he adds not wanting to get it wrong.

“Guy day” he mumbles, melting into his brother's arms.

“Okay, I’ll be right back, we'll get this taken care of, then we can order you a few more so you don't have to worry about it.” Blake says kissing his forehead before going to grab the compression shirt.

Alex sits on the bed as he waits his fingers running through his hair as the stress of the last day really hits him. He pulls out his phone and texts his boss ‘Not gonna be in for a while just found out my parents were killed, had to drive my little brother back home’ as he hit sends he realizes he doesn’t HAVE to go back to work he doesn't have to go back to that shitty little apartment. His phone chimes and he looks down at the response ‘Take your time A, if you want we can get you set up working from home so you can stay with your family a while and still get paid.’. He smiles at the text and replies ‘That would be great, I’m not sure when/if I’ll be back at this point. My siblings are accepting while my parents weren’t. They want me to stay.’.

He looks up when the door opens and Blake comes back with a compression shirt that looks the same size as his binder “Thanks” he says before stepping into the bathroom to put it on feeling much better after seeing his flat chest.

When he came back into the room Blake was gone he shrugged it off and went to the kitchen where Jace, Drake, Mariah and Arissa were cooking and the others were patiently waiting at the table.

"Morning" Alex says before peaking into the fridge and pulling out the cream and grabbing a cup for coffee.

"Little or big?" Drake asks Alex before he can pour his own coffee.

"Big, for now" he replies, pouring the coffee into his cup once Drake moves his hand from the coffee pot.

Jace chuckles "already playing safeguard with him I see" he says poking Drake in the side, "he does the same with me, you get used to it after a while" he adds.

Alex grins "it's nice to have someone who's looking out for the littles even if it's not their little. My ex didn't even make sure I was big before I got my coffee....ended in a few ER trips with 1st, 2nd and 3rd degree burns" he says before taking a sip of his piping hot coffee. "f**k I've missed the good stuff, couldn't afford this at home" he says looking like he's having a full on coffeegasm.

"There's a reason Drake took burn care courses, me spilling coffee in littlespace ended really badly too" Jace says with a chuckle as he carries a heaping plate of pancakes over to the table. "Meggy sweetheart can you get the table set for Daddy?" He asks the little girl who nods jumping up and getting the plates while Alissa jumps in to help with getting the forks and spoons. "Don't touch the knives Alissa, I'll get the pizza cutter for the pancakes" Drake says before she can get the knives.

"Otay daddy" Alissa pipes up as she places the forks and spoons in everyone's spot.

“Afer beakfas can we goes to da paygound?” Leo asks excitedly.

“Of course we can Lele, After we make a picnic lunch that is” Drake says with a chuckle “Arissa got everyone’s favorite sandwich stuff and chips so we can take Alex to the park today” he adds.

“YAY! Tanku sissa!” Leo grins as he bounces in his seat.

“I even got capri suns and sunny D and if everyone is good we can get ice cream from the ice cream stand” Arissa says grinning at all the littles who are now bouncing excitedly.

“There’s gonna be water bottles right? I try to limit my sugary juices because they make me a little too crazy and no one wants to deal with that” Alex says not sure how he’d react to sugar now.

“We can handle sugar crazy hun, if it was your ex telling you, you're too crazy on sugar he can have his d**k cut off and his eyes scooped out with a rusty spoon” Drake says causing Alex to blush.

“I----you haven't even seen me on a sugar rush how would you know you can handle it?” he asks.

“Try being the only big at a birthday party with 20 littles in the room.” Drake says with a chuckle, making Alex’s eyes widen.

“Oh god----I can barely handle two little on a sugar rush let alone 20!” Alex says

“There's a reason he was dubbed super daddy after that party. I was supposed to be a caregiver that party and I dropped REALLY hard. He had to carry me on his hip all day” Jace says with a mischievous grin.

“So you’re a little and a daddy? How does that work if you drop and there's not a caregiver present?” Alex asks.

“I can't drop farther than 15 if I’m the only big present, just how my brain works with littlespace. The caregiver in me won't let myself drop hard enough to leave the others unsafe.” Jace explains.

“That makes sense. Kinda like my best friend before she died in a car accident. Her little was a devilish little thing and while they were both switches she wouldn’t drop younger then 17 when her little man was in littlespace” Alex says smiling despite the death. “She played a caregiver for me alot when we had playdates. It's hard not having her but all the good memories I have are worth the pain of losing her because I know she wouldn't want me to be upset.”

“I’m sorry about your friend Alex, I know not being sad over someone you’re close with is hard” Jace says with a frown.

Alex shrugs “She chose a 3 yearold’s life over her own when he ran into the street. She swerved to keep the car in the other lane behind her from hitting him even if it meant that the car she hit would kill her. The other driver and her little were fine and the little boy is now 6 years old. He wouldn't be alive without her sacrificing herself for his life.” She explains “I would have done the same damn thing” he adds.

“You always did have a soft spot for kids” Arissa says with a smile “Seem’s your friend did too. I’m glad you’re able to handle her death well knowing the reasoning behind it” she says before setting the rest of the food on the table. “Who’s hungry” she says, getting a round of Me’s from everyone around the table.