Harmony Of Bullets

Bullet 10

ERNALINE'S POV:

"I composed the song so I think you are not familiar with it." nahihiyang wika ko.

Napatango naman sila sa sinabi ko at binigyan ako ng daan papunta sa gitna ng entablado. Pakiramdam ko para akong nahihilo nang makita ang nakangiting mukha ng mga tao na nag-aabang sa audition ko. Nakita ko pa si Saviel na sumenyas sa akin at sinabing 'fighting'.

Napalingon naman ako sa gawi ni Kuya Senri kaya naman lumapit ito sa akin habang nasa katawan pa rin nito ang gitara.

"You can do this Ashleigh. Think as if you are inside your room, alone." bulong nito sa akin.

Pumikit ako at bumilang ng tatlong beses bago humugot ng malalim na hininga at saka pinakawalan.

Pumihit ako paharap sa crowd at hinawakan ang mikroponong nasa harap ko at nagsalita.

"Hello everyone. My name is Ernaline Montenegro and today I will sing one of the songs I wrote so I hope you'll like it." Muli akong lumingon kay Kuya Senri at bumulong dito.

"I think you can follow the rythm of my song using this." pinarinig ko kay Kuya Senri ang tono ng kanta ko at tinuro sa kanya kung paano ang hand gestures niya sa gitara. Na-curios yong tatlo na agad pinakinggan ang tono nang kantang ipi-perform ko.

"It sounds nice." puri ni Kaizen at saka naupo sa drum set nito maging si Jasper at Kyle pinag-aralan ang notes na tinuro ko.

Nang makuha nila, agad na lumagapak ang drum stick ni Kaizen bilang paghahanda sa intro ng kanta ko. The crown fall in silence as the music filled the hall.

Verse 1:

As I sit still in complete silence,

trying to make sense of my thoughts,

I find myself lost in contemplation.

My mind races as I try to comprehend the reasons

behind the failure of my dreams.

All of my aspirations seem to have passed me by,

leaving me in a state of confusion.

As I reflect on my past, I cannot help but notice all of the blunders I have committed,

and all of my flaws become more apparent to me.

I am forced to confront the harsh reality that I might not be deserving of any applause,

leaving me feeling disheartened and dejected.

Chorus:

As I sit here, contemplating my life,

I can't help but wonder if I'm meant to be alone.

Is it possible for me to find someone who truly understands me

and loves me for who I am, despite my flaws?

In search of the answer, I delve deep within myself,

seeking strength and hope. But despite my efforts,

I still find myself questioning whether

I'll ever find a way to cope with the loneliness that seems to engulf me.

Verse 2:

In my pursuit of happiness,

I have caused pain to those I loved along the way.

I was so focused on getting what I wanted that

I pushed them aside without listening or taking the time to understand their needs.

Now, regret fills my soul, and it seems like it's the only thing I have left.

Chorus:

As I struggle with my mistakes,

I wonder if I deserve to be alone forever or

if it's still possible to find someone to share my life with.

I keep searching within myself for the strength and hope to move on,

but I can't help but wonder

if I'll ever find a way to cope with the guilt and shame of my past.

Bridge:

Despite all my flaws and shortcomings,

I know that there's more to me than the mistakes

I've made and the history I carry.

I'm determined to build a new path for myself

and fight my way through the obstacles to find the peace

and love that I truly deserve every day.

I believe that I can learn from my mistakes,

and I'll use that knowledge to become a better person.

Chorus:

As I continue to search for love and acceptance, I realize that it's up to me to change my life for the better. I look within for the strength and hope to keep going, even when it seems like there's no way out. I still wonder if I'll ever find someone who will accept me for who I am, flaws and all.

Outro:

Despite the pain and heartache I've caused, I won't give up on finding the love I need to make a new start. With every beat of my heart, I'll keep searching for someone who will accept me and help me move on from my past. I won't let my mistakes define me or dictate who I am. I'm determined to find my way and love again, no matter how long it takes.

Nabalik ako sa huwisyo nang magsigawan ang tao matapos kong kumanta ng sarili kong gawang musika.

Nahihiyang nag-bow ako sa kanila bago tumalikod at ang nakangiting mukha ng apat ang sumalubong sa akin.

"That was amazing. Did you really write that song?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Kaizen.

"Yes po." nahihiyang sagot ko.

"If you pass this audition, I think we can work as one." Saad naman ni Jasper.

"Thank you po." nagpaalam ako sa kanila at bumalik sa kinauupuan namin ni Saviel. Gusto ko na lang pumasok sa kaha mg gitara ko sa sobrang hiya na nararamdaman ko.

"Grabe, tagos sa puso yong kanta mo girl! Anong title nun?" usisa niya sa akin.

"Do I deserve to be alone." mabilis na sagot ko.

"Ay hindi mo deserve yon. Anyway, ano nga title nun para maadd ko agad sa music list ko if rver mai-release siya." aniya.

Napairap ako. "'Yon nga ang title nun, Do I deserve to be alone. I wrote it when I was in high school pa."

"Ay sad girl?" banat pa nito.

"Ewan ko sayo!?"

Hindi ko na pinansin pa si Sav at oinsgpatuloy ang pakikinig sa mga nag-audition hanggang sa ang iba sa kanila ay hindi na tumuloy pa kaya naman natapos kami ng maaga.

Kasalukuyan nang nakatayo ang apat sa gitna ng entablado kasama si Kuya Calvin na nawala bigla kanina.

"Here comes the result as we talk earlier during break about the audition." panimula ni Kaizen. "Karamihan sa inyo ay potential talaga na taglay at yong iba ay kailangan pa ng praktis. We decided for a one person to be part as our main vocalist."

"We choose Miss Ernaline Montenegro because of her power to create such a masterpiece. Hindi namin pakakawalan ang tulad niya since this band is made for dedicated person like her. May we call Miss Ernaline Montenegro if you are still here?" tawag pa ni Kaizen sa pangalan at iginala ang paningin nito sa crowd hanggang sa makita niya kaming dalawa ni Saviel sa gilid na tinutulak ako papuntang stage.

"Aray ko Saviel!" angal ko dito.

"Umakyat ka na kasi!" singhal pa nito sa akin.

Inirapan ko sya bago ko ibinigay sa kanya ang gitara ko para hawakan niya. Iniwan ko si Saviel sa gilid at naglakad palapit sa entablado kung saan naroon ang BlackHand.

"So, what will you say that you passed the audition and you will be one of us in the next future?" bungad sa akin ni Kaizen nang makaakyat ako sa entablado at tumayo sa gitna nila.

"Looking forward to work with you po since si Kuya Senri lang ang kilala ko."

"Saklap 'non pre, ni-kuya ka bigla?" pang-aasar naman ni Jasper.

"Shut up, Lee!" tinatamad na saway ni Kuya Senri kay Kuya Jasper.

I will call them Kuya since mapapasailalim ako sa pangangalaga nila.

"Let me do the honour to introduce myself. My name is Kaizen Cruz, the drummer."

"Kyle Lee Yoo, lead guitarist."

"Timothy Jasper Lee, keyboard."

Isa-isa nilang pakilala bago binalingan si Kuya Senri na agad inagaw ang mikropono kay Kuya Kaizen.

"Senri Daeyl Kuruzaki, bass guitarist and also the main leader of BlackHand band since our vocalist and supposed to be the leader deserted us."

Napa-oh' si Kuya Kaizen bago nito inagaw ang mikropono mula sa kamay ni Kuya Senri.

"Welcome to the band Ernaline Montenegro, welcome to BlackHand band."

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