*Heidi POV*
When I first found out I was pregnant, Derrick was still at odds with his wife. I still had hopes that he would leave her, but eventually, that hope went away. Something inside me knew he wouldn't.
I had tried to keep it a secret, and up until the day I got the first ultrasound, I had planned on terminating the pregnancy. What he didn't know wouldn't hurt him, right? I was very wrong.
I had been trying to stay clean and sober, but I knew I couldn't stop both the wine and the pills at the same time. I couldn't handle both morning sickness and dope sickness. I would rather be dead. So, I kept the wine, and cut back on the pills slowly.
I hadn't touched a single Xanax in weeks until I saw him in the jail. He was so cold and uncaring, and it set me off. I needed to drink awa
