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Sosa Smith Honestly , I am trying to stay focused. You must think I'm joking when when I say, "wait for it"... I have been celibate for three full years. I don't think I can wait any longer. I caress my soft ,silky ,milky black skin. I squint my Chinese hazel eyes as i look at myself on a full mirror at the corner of my room. I sway my hips ,shaped like continent Africa and walk to the bathroom to take a warm shower. I let it rain on my skin. While at it, i can hear my phone ring from the bedroom. I ignore it and continue caressing my skin. My imagination runs wild to Tony ,an ex that ghosted me when he relocated to Germany three years ago. We were happy for a while in our relationship until he was offered a deal he couldn't refuse in Germany. I thought he was my soulmate but hey....as soon as he was out of the country I wasn't good enough for him. my phone's buzz quickly reminds me of my breakfast date with Iggy. He will surely kill me. It's almost lunch. I hurry and lotion, get dressed. Untangle my huge afro that reaches my shoulders. No make up today, lazy day but I cannot go anywhere without a liquid eyeliner and brown matte lipstick . When I'm satisfied with my look. I drive off to Pigalle in Sandton. I walk inside and spot Iggy. He's so unbothered. On his phone. "Iggy Iggs baby!"... I say, taking a seat. He rolls his eyes and holds his hand in the air. "Breakfast not lunch Sosa, If i didn't miss you ,I would have left." Liar. I know he's just as hungry as I am. I apologise ,blame it on traffic. We order food and indulge ,while at it ,a bottle of my favourite dry red merlot wine. "The glow Barbie, don't tell me you've getting laid, last time i checked ,you were in too deep in celibacy." He inspects me and gawks his eyes. "How I wish... remember Brittney the twenty five old year virgin , Nicole's friend?"..... "well I'm so her". We both laugh and sip on our wine. "Well Barb'".... He clicks his tongue and leans on the table. '' out with it already!''... I yell at him impatiently. He does this dance we always do when we are excited. Tongues out, mini rabbit twerk ,we do it while sitting down. "So there's this guy i met yesterday when i went out with Nicole. Girl, he outdid himself yesterday ,I want more of where all that sugar came from." I squeal into a laughter. The wine must be finding it's way around my body. "Oh , guess who i bumped into yesterday!?" I don't reply ,he's going to tell me regardless. "Tony ,your ex. Looking so dapper and hot. Apparently his football career in Germany didn't go as he planned. And he wanted your numbers." I purr and gulp the remaining wine left in my glass and pour more. "Oh come on. The same Tony who ghosted me two weeks he settled in Germany. I hope he goes to hell, oh how i wish to be there when the devil tosses his ass on flames." Iggy's phone rings. He answers on a third ring. And then all of a sudden he get' s up from his seat,takes his purse and keys. " See you later Barbie, I'll tell you all about this stunt later. Let's go out.You ,me , Nicole and Sam ,later?" I nod my head , he storms out. Okay. I drink what's left in the bottle. Settle the bill and walk out to my car. Oh oh... where did i park my car. My hand is on a Maserati. the alarm goes on... What the f***!?... "Excuse me Miss...What do you think you are doing?" I turn to a hoarse voice and oh gosh he's tall.... i finally reach his face. "Hallelujah"... I can hear angels singing in my stupid head. I shake it off, he's so gorge. I open my mouth to say something but instead i let out a loud moan. I feel fireworks all over my body, my toes twirl. "I'm waiting...." He says while gawking his eyes at me. I compose myself and finally say... "Sorry, thought i parked my car here. Not that i drive a Maserati but.... " I turn to walk away ,he grabs my arm and eyes me. I shyly look away , this man is so flames. The color of his eyes is out of this world. I have never seen amber eyes. "Next time,you will end behind bars for doing something this stupid" what a jerk!... He lets go of my arm and gets inside his car. I turn to look at him one last time before going to search for my car. He's not even looking at me. Oh gosh so Saucy Sosa lost her spice. I finally find my car and drive off. Great! Just great!...My tyre punches just when it starts to rain. Do i even have a spare wheel?... Can i even change a tyre?. A car pulls over next to mine. As i inspect the tyre, I get up, Oh gosh It's him again. "Hey, I can drive you home and have someone change your tyre and drive it to your place." I can't help but look at this sexy god standing in front of me. His eyes...oh gosh... his lips....I get intoxicated by just the sight of him. "Okay..." I get my purse and cellphone before getting in his car. He asks where i reside,i tell him then he increases the volume. My eardrums almost explode. I steal a glance at him, Yeah yeah I might just forgive you for looking so dapper. He catches me looking at him and I quickly look away. He smirks and continues focussing on the road. I sing along to the song playing, not too loud but for myself to hear. Shakka- when you pull up ♪♪ His phone rings , he ignores it. The person doesn't give up. He answers after Five rings. "Jesse Brown......Oh....No....I left him in France.... okay. Dinner?....I'll call you later Jen." Wow!... What did you expect Sosa?...Ofcourse he has a woman in his life. I hate this Jen already. He turns the car around ,I look at him but before i even say anything he says... "Can i take care of something real quick?...and no it cannot wait." What a Jerk!...Does he really have to be this cold. I nod my head. So he turns the car around for this Jen, oh she must be riding him like a porny. ''So "Barbie" right?".... Oh gosh how did he know that nickname, only my friends and family call me that. '' How did you....." I don't even finish when he disturbs me. "Next time you are in a public place, tell your friend not to say it out loud." He says ,still looking at the road but with a smirk on his face. " Real name?" "Sosa Smith." I say looking out the window. "Jesse Brown".... he says. oh I got your name when you were talking with Jen. Did i say that out loud? Oh gosh... almost embarrassed myself one more time. "I prefer Barbie"... He says as he pulls over. I cannot help but blush, I look away when he catches me. He chuckles and when he gets out of the car ,he looks at me and says... "Barbie,I'll be your ken." I can't help but laugh out loud like a teenage little naive girl . I quickly dial Iggy.....He answers with an annoyed tone. B***h probably with his toy boy. "What's up Barb' ?" I squeal a loud scream. "Iggs , I think I finally found my ken!"... I look around before saying that. I wouldn't risk him Overhearing me now. '' What!?... don't tell me you are so over your celibacy. Whose the lucky bastard worth you breaking your celibacy Oath? I laugh and the thought of Jesse Brown in between my legs and with me calling his name out as he takes all of me........I place my left leg on top of my right one to press my twitching core. "Barb' Whoever the guy is, Condoms! Condoms!...." Oh s**t Jesse gets inside the car with Iggy screaming condoms. I quickly cut the call. He chuckles and drives. "If it's not my best friend, who i suspect is on drugs..." I say that and look at him. He side smiles and asks... "Who is the lucky bastard ?" I turn to look at him again ,he's dead serious. "Lucky bastard?".... "Yes....The one you are buying condoms for?" Oh gosh, somebody please burry me twelve feet under crust. "Uuuum there's no lucky bastard?... I am single." Oh Mamamia there goes my loud mouth. Think before you talk Sosa!... He eyes me and chuckles. Okay.....I was about to ask about Jen but I controlled my loud mouth. We arrive at my place. I contemplate asking him to come in for coffee but my loud mouth beats me to it. "Thank you....You can come in for coffee or wine..." Great! Just great! Sosa Smith!...now the guy must obviously see you throwing yourself at him. "I have to be in Cape Town in a three hours. Next time." Serves you right! Next time, think!!!.... I nod and get out of his car...I count down as i walk away....for him to follow me or at least ask for my number. 10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3.... Oh it's not happening....2.......................okay I give up. "Hey Barbie!" Oh gosh!...I quickly turn around to see him approaching me. "Come with me to Cape Town. You can say No. I can still see you when i come back, that's going to be in months. After dinner with the family tonight, I'm going back to France ." I cringe when he holds my hand. I look up into his eyes, a part of me wants to say yes but I can't....we just met and.... "Yes... I'll come with you"... There goes my pecky loud mouth betraying me. "Are you sure?...I can see you when I come back. " I nod my head yes while looking into his beautiful amber eyes. There's something about this man that's luring me to him. "Aren't going inside to pack? Necessities, we'll buy other things in Cape Town." We walk to my apartment. I tell him to make himself home and he goes to the balcony and stands there. I take a quick shower, my panties are so sticky. The thought of Jesse inside me is enough for me to ooze juices. When I'm done I pack and dress into a long tight dress that hugs my body so well. showing my hourglass figure and my curves. I sway left and right to the lounge. He comes back as he notices me. we leave to his Penthouse in a skyscraper building. Oh Gosh It's so beautiful. He takes a shower and when he's done , we drive off to his private Jet. There's already a man that looks like him. They have so much resemblance ,probably his brother. "look who decided to show face after years of being a prodigal son..." They fist bump, i can tell the guy wanted to hug but Jesse didn't. "Marcus, what do you want here?..." Jesse says annoyed and we sit down. "Ouch that hurts man, not happy to see your big brother after what?....seven years....You never cease to amaze me!." Marcus gulps a glass of whiskey all at once and looks at me. "Can we do this some other time...please." Jesse says as he calls the hostess by raising his hand . What a jerk!... I can tell his brother is really hurt. "So whose the pretty lady?...." Jesse eyes him and drinks his whiskey. He sighs out loud before saying my name. "nice to meet you Sosa, Marcus Brown."... "nice to meet you too..." I sip champagne. It's so awkward in here. "Barbie, You can go take a nap if you want." I shake my head ,he nods and looks out the window. Marcus squeals into a loud laugh that he almost chokes on his whiskey. "Sorry.....I can't help it!..... Barbie!....I never thought i would see the day. A whole Jesse Brown Whipped!.... Franco has to hear of this." He continues laughing . "That's it!...Let's go." I hold his hand and we go to a room. He takes off his shoes and lays on his back on the bed. I hover over him, drink from the bottle. Great Sosa let's show him you are a boy. A mischievous boy. He pulls me in a kiss. That becomes heated up I can't help but moan. He breaks out of it and makes me sit on top of him as he sits up. With my head on his chest. I burry my head and hold onto him. He places his head on my hair and inhales my shampoo. "Jesse...." "Huh?..." "What made you stay away from home ,for seven years?" Oh gosh here we go again.... He removes his head from my hair and look at the clouds. I also look at the view of the fluffy clouds. " Sosa, you have to promise me something." I look at him, he's not even looking at me. '' Okay...." He sighs.... "Promise, you will not fall for me. If you do, I'll wreck your heart. I'm not the type man you fall for." How can I promise not to fall for him. When I am already falling..... He gives me a death stare. He's serious. I don't know why I'm so hurt by this. Why am I even here? " Jesse...." He interrupts.... " Don't make this harder than it already is...." I get up from him and take the bottle of champagne on the floor. "I am going to sit with Marcus that side...." I walk out ,leaving him lay in bed. "My brother giving you ninety nine problems"... I shake my head no and sit down. I look at the clouds. I drink like a fish with his brother and I having conversation. Laughing and before I know it ,we land in the mother city. Jesse tells Marcus he will see him later at the Brown's mansion. We drive off in a Bugatti. I must have fallen asleep on our way. I wake up to a pounding headache and in a his shirt. Oh gosh did we?.... The door to the in suite bathroom opens. There he is....His lower body covered in a towel. He's so sexy. I drool over his body, his tattoos...his abs.... He comes to sit next to me. ''No we didn't have s****l intercourse.... You vomited and i cleaned you out, hence the shirt." I look away shy. "I'm sorry...." That's all I can say. He smirks.... "And about Jen...She's my sister." Oh Gosh! did I ask about Jen? "Now ,go take a shower, we are going to be late." I stand up, he pulls me close and perks my lips. Before he let's go he stares into my eyes and let's go of my hand. I take a long shower. When I'm done i wrap a towel around my body and go to the bedroom. He's already dressed, looking like he's about to do a photoshoot for a Forbes magazine. The sight of him makes my legs vibrate, my core twitches. The towel around my body drops, not that I did that on purpose but my hands are trembling. I quickly pick it up and run back inside the bathroom. Oh Sosa Smith!!!!....how can you be so clumsy.... "Barbie..." Oh gosh he's at the other side of the door. What do i do? Think stupid!.... Think.......... I finally open the door to find him leaning on the door frame with a smirk on his gorge face. I look down to his feet, play with my fingers ,he lifts my face up with his soft fingers and initiates a kiss ,i kiss him back. He picks me up and wraps my legs around his waist. He unbuckles his belt and I unbutton his shirt and throw it on the floor. "Open your eyes Barbie...." I open them, he stares into my eyes as he penetrates. He's so... Huge. Oh gosh i feel my vaginal walls expand to his size. I feel pain and pleasure. I want all of him inside me. He slowly thrusts inside. '' Jesse... how can i not fall for you? " I feel tears tremble down my cheeks. He wipes them with his fingers He increases his pace, I roam my hands on his back while he's burying his head on my neck, nibbling it. He carries me to the bed and and bends me over. I hold on to the sheets as he takes me from behind. He groans out loud like an animal and both reach our climax. He carries me to the shower. I burry my head in his chest with his head on my hair,inhaling my shampoo. He lets out a loud sigh before he turns off the water. Leaving me dry myself. When I'm done I go back to the bedroom. Okay he's not here.... I see a dress, D&G heels, matching cutch , diamond choker and earrings . Oh there's a note too... "Jen will come fetch you. Had business to take care of . See when I come back." My heart sinks in a pond for a minute. So he left me a note, why didn't he tell it straight to my face. I'm not going anywhere with Jen. He was right I shouldn't fall for him. He's a Jerk. A self oriented Jerk. my phone rings and it's Nicole. I answer straight away. "Barbie!... Where the hell are you? Me and Sam are out here waiting for you and Iggs." How do i tell my friends that I'm out of Johannesburg with a man I hardly know. Who left me alone in his beach house. "I'm in Cape Town, I have a Job interview on Monday so I want to prepare the whole weekend." I lie, I'm not proud of myself.... "She says she's in Cape town ...." She must be telling Samantha. "I have to go I will call you tomorrow." I cut the call before she says anything. I feel bad already. I get dressed in his Shirt and really short denim shorts with his size eleven Dior slides. I find something to eat in the kitchen and a bottle of wine. I drink from the bottle and watch television. The door opens, Oh it's not him...a woman walks in . She's pretty. Maybe one of his escorts like me. "Hey , I'm Jennifer , Jesse's little sister." Oh girl!...How do i tell you that I was jealous of you before we even met. "Hey, I'm Sosa"... "Okay ,Sosa let's get you dressed." Girl !... all i need is to be in your brother's hands. "I can't ,I feel sleepy..." I fake a yawn. She drags me to the bedroom. Okay, she does my makeup and I get dressed. Me and her are already acting like best friends. Like we knew each other for decades. Iggy is going to be so jealous. A chauffer drives us to the Brown's mansion. The house is beautiful yet cold like a horror setting. The big walls inside are consuming. Jen introduces me to Mrs Brown as her friend from abroad but born here in the country. Half Afrikaans and Xhosa. You can tell that she's a hard nut to crack .Mr Brown gives me shivers down my spine, i swear if i look at him again , I'll be paralysed. Oh i spot Marcus around the huge table. Soon the chairs are filled with Uncles, Cousins and nieces. But no sign of Jesse. "Oh my dearest Lala".... Mrs Brown says to a real tall woman that walks in. Whoa!...Wait.... Jesse is behind her. What!?...the...f....I almost choke on the glass of wine i gulped at once. He sits across me but he feels like he's miles away. Maybe It's this huge wide table. The woman sits next to him. Okay... I look at my trembling hands. The sight of them seated together nauseates me. "Lala, when did you arrive?" Mrs Brown asks as she eats her food. "Oh I just arrived...JB was a sweetheart and fetched me in Durban." I almost choke on my food but I compose myself. "Oh If it's not your darling Fiance'...Where's Jojo?"... Wait!...What!?...Fiance'? Lala replies after she takes a sip of wine. "He's in Durban. He's growing up so fast...taller than other ten year olds. You should see him, he has JB 's eyes. That's It I'm not going to sit at this table and pretend as If I'm not hurt. I whisper Into Jen's ear. "Where can i find the bathroom?" She eyes me with concern first before we both walk out. "Hey Sosa..." She stops herself from saying anything and points the bathroom . I get inside ,close the door and press my body against the door. Put both my hands on my mouth as I don't want Jen to hear me cry. I get up after a while, pull myself together. All I know is I'm not going back there. Okay...You are Sosa Smith, You are not about to become a weakling. Not today ,not tomorrow. I over hear Jen talking to someone. "She's inside...." That cannot be Jesse ,he's the last person I want to see. "You can go Jen" Soon I hear heels clicking on the floor until the sound disappears. I stand by the door for a while, fighting the urge to turn the door knob. "Are you going to come out or not?" The nerve, the audacity. How dare he speaks to me like that. After finding out he's engaged and has a ten year son whose a spitting image of him. That's it..... I open the door and walk past him. I take out my phone, I'm calling a cab in fact I should book a flight out of here. He follows me outside , he's not saying anything. I walk past his car to the gate. "Get in the car." I ignore him. That's all he can say, really?... I should have never came here.... I regret coming with him. He was right he's a Jerk. The gate is open so i walk out. I have no idea where I am going right now but If It's away from him then yes. I take off my heels and cry as I walk up the street. I look back, he's not even following me. Tears gush out , I take out my phone. Who do i call?... All my friends are in Johannesburg. A car pulls over in front of me. "Get in the car." More like he's commanding me. He should be begging. I stand in the middle of the road defeated. He stares at me with a blank face. I look at him and fold my hands. Pout my lips like a little girl. "I don't have all night , just get in the f****** car." What!?... Did he just.... "No!... Leave me the f*** alone." I respond with my voice shaking. He eyes me as he clenches his knuckles. I pass his car and walk further down the street. He gets out of the car and follows me. "Why are you even mad?" Why am i even mad? Wow!... I ignore him and keep walking. "Sosa...This is so childish." I turn to look at him. I cannot believe him. "Childish!?... wow!...Let me be childish then. Go to your fiance' and your son." He chuckles and grabs my arm. I fight his grip, he turns me around to look at him. "Don't touch me....with hands that have been touching her." Yes I mean that but I shouldn't have said it out loud. He smirks and cups my face. "Touching who?" "I'm not stupid Jesse' , your fiance' that you went to fetch in Durban." That almost came as a cry...I fight tears in my eyes as he's looking straight into them. "Why did you even bring me here?..." He doesn't respond, he kisses my lips. At first i don't kiss him back but my body yet again deceives me. We are brought back to reality by someone clearing their voice. "Oh ,you found her?" So Jen was also looking for me, I move away from Jesse and look down to my feet. Oh wow so i walked barefooted all along. "I'll see you at home then" She drives off. "come here ,let's go." He pulls my hand, I follow him to his car... "Jesse...." " Yes, I have a son with Lala but we are not engaged anymore. My mom hasn't even found out yet. We ended things five years ago. I was planning on telling them tonight. As you can see ,I arrived today from France." "But Jesse' ,lala is....." He holds my hand while driving with the other one. "Lala means nothing to me. She's only my son's mother. And very close to the family." I can tell he's finding it hard explaining to me. I let him be. "Can we go to your house , I don't want to go back to the mansion." He kisses the back of my hand. "We can't, we have a family board meeting. I came all the way from France for it. We are still waiting for my grandfather who is in Eastern Cape." "Eastern Cape?... " "Yes , My clan is originally from Eastern cape. We just never went back home. We are globe trotters. " I can't explain this feeling, It's like he's warming up to me. "Baby, what kind of family has family board meeting. At this time even. He takes a deep sigh..... "The Browns."... Who are The Browns?... He parks his car inside and we are back here again. "I'll wait for you here in the car. " He perks my lips before shaking his head. "The meeting might take a couple of hours and it's almost 2am so I'll ask Jen to take care of you." "I thought you said, "Family board meeting"?" He stretches his back and lays on his back on the car seat. And stares at me for a while. I lean close and lay my head on his chest. I snuggle my head all over his chest and kiss his bare chest. He holds my waist and pulls me close. "Jesse...." I whisper to him as his finger brushes my spine. " Next time, just don't pull on a show. You won't have an audience. " He says pulling me away from him. "what do you mean? I was not pulling a show, I was...." Hurt, bastard. He takes his coat from the back seat. "Am i missing something here?..." He opens the door and gets out. I don't move an inch. He comes around to open for me. I'm not going inside until he tells what's going on. "Sosa, I don't have all the time in the world right now just... get out of the car." I stare at him, my heart is tilting in thousand pieces. One minute he's warm and the next he's cold as ice. I get out of the car and stand still next to him. He puts his coat on my shoulders, If it wasn't cold out here i would've shrugged it off. He walks away, i follow him . I can't believe he deceived me to come back here. He waits for me by the door and holds my hand. I don't feel any affection. His hand is cold as snow. It's quiet inside, not even a fly buzzing. He takes me to the lounge , oh gosh his mom and lala are here including the aunts and nieces. He looks around and we turn to the stairs leading upstairs. He takes out his phone to make a phone call. "Where are you?...Jen i'm already late.....Okay I'll take her to your room. What should i do? Lock her inside?....Jen just hurry back home." He cuts the call. Wait what?... Lock who inside Jen's room? "You are not going to lock me inside Jen's room? are you?... He ignores me and opens a room. I tighten my grip around his hand. He drags me inside and lets go of my hand. "Jesse please don't...." I feel tears tremble down my cheeks. He paces around the room. "Can you please tell me what's going on, you are scaring me." He sits down on the edge of the bed. While i stand in the middle of the room looking at him. "Jen will come and be with you while I go sort something out. I'll still be inside the house. Promise me you will lock yourself inside this room until Jen comes." Why should i lock myself in? "Jesse , what's going on?...Why should i be locked in here?...What's going on?..." He gets up and comes to hold both my hands. "Barbie ,please... listen to me. You just shouldn't have pulled that stunt you pulled on earlier. Now they know you are here with me and not Jen......" I don't let him finish. "Jesse I was not pulling on a show, I just couldn't sit there and listen to your mom and that woman....I was hurt okay." He pulls me close and kisses my forehead before making me look at him. "Please just trust me,Okay..." I nod my head. "I have to go now, I'm not sure what time I will be back but Jen will come in any minute from now. " He checks time on his watch and perks my lips. "Jesse....." "Please...I have to go, lock the door after me okay." ``Okay..."