JUST A MAID....?

Sometimes it feels like I don't belong here. I'm just a disgrace to this family, to Daeryn. I'm not worthy of being princess of this kingdom. Maybe mother is right, that I AM a curse. Wherever I go everytime there something bad, unholy things happen. In fact when I was born my grandma died after seeing my face. Although the reason was sudden heart attack but they say that the reason was me. At the annual festival when I visited a fireworks stall, after my departure from there those fireworks caught fire, although the sound and lightning showed that they were of good quality but it was supposed to happen in the open ground not in the three way closed stall. Afterwards we came to know that the fault was of one of the workers who had lit his cigar but forgot to stamp out it after using which resulted in the beautiful fireworks in the land. But they said the reason was me. Who are they? Simple, it's everyone. Citizens, maids, workers, lords, Dukes and Duchesses, courtiers, my sisters, my mother. Everyone. Maybe maids are right that I'm not as beautiful as Diana. Maybe courtiers are right that I'm not as intelligent as Delilah. Maybe Duchesses are right that I'm not as mannered as Danielle. Maybe lords are right that I'm not as perfect as my sisters are for them to marry me. After all I'm not what they wanted me to be. Maybe that's the reason why they are shipping me off to an unfamiliar kingdom. Or to the kingdom of our enemy. Am I that ill-fated? That they want me to get killed without a hiss of a sound? Not to mention that that kingdom has called its dibs on a small island where we want to build a small castle for our favourite princess Diana and her soon-to-be husband Prince Alexandre of Alemany. Our neighbor kingdom. As a gift of our privilege to tie knots with them. Alemany has very good resources and a huge population. Which is why my father wants to make good relationships with them as to make successful trades. It's a great kingdom to trade with. Although I don't think she is interested in him because of her short attraction span towards any male. Anyway she is just a reward for anyone who is willing to trade goods with us and fight from our side in any war without an objection. And from now on maybe I'm too. Our kingdom is strong enough to protect itself and its people along with fight with the opposing troops. But there's one, which is as strong as us and has largest number of troops and trade markets for arms suppliers in the whole land of earth. Kingdom Casiro-èn. Where I'm supposed to be shipped for my whole life. Do I want to? Maybe and maybe not. Maybe I want to go away from here. Somewhere where they don't know who and what I am. A place where I can live like a normal citizen and live a normal life. Trust me I can trade my life with you if you want this imperious lifestyle. But I don't want to go to THAT kingdom where they obviously think of us, Daeryn princesses, as some spoiled brats. They had met my other sisters. At their annual ball last year, they've invited us their. But as my mother thought that it will be good to not take me with them as I don't have etiquette to behave in front of them. And what they did? Fixed my marriage with their prince last month whom I haven't even see the portrait of.  Although I've heard from my sisters that he and his brother are 'sexy as hell' - their words not mine- I couldn't help but think, is it really my destiny? To get married to someone I don't even know a bit about? Someone who had an short time affair with my sister? No, I don't have any grudge against Diana but it's just my curiosity. If he has an affair with her, sure he'd get attracted towards her. Then why he accepted my father's proposal? Why didn't he tell them that he like Diana. Is he interested to marry me just to get two at a time? Because as much I know about Diana, she won't get upset by this. Ugh! That's it! If they want me to marry him then I will (who knows where they dig my grave if I say no). But with a cost. Which my father will pay. I will marry Prince Callum Gèrard. After I will know what his inner self is made up of, what are his intentions behind this marriage treaty. And how will I get to know this? It's not simple, but it's worth the risk. Become his personal maid. I know it's stupid to think. But what are the other options, and moreover I don't have any options. I mean where you let your guards down and reveal your inner self ? No pun intended but obviously your room right. And in this case his study, his personal bed room..... I can't ask for help from my mother or anyone, and don't even ask Diana, Delilah or Danielle. They'll chop MY brains from interrogating me about why I am asking THEM to help ME. My brain will not be available after to let them know for what I'm asking their help for. So now my only option is to help myself  by asking my father permission to execute this plan. But is he going to understand me? Or think of it just as a childish fantasy of mine? No, I have to make him understand my true intentions. I don't want a silly affair with him before our marriage or any kind of romance. I just want to know if he is what he show to others and people of his kingdom. Or is it just a two sided mask he wears all the time. After all my future depends on it. Not only him but I need to know about my in-laws too. I want to know is my mother and sisters are right about Queen Charlotte Gèrard.  Or there's more? I want to know is King Christopher is that much icy by heart or not. That is he really cold blooded unlike us? My father told me that once. And I couldn't stop myself from laughing hard at our family dinner. Maybe that's the reason why my mother doesn't want to take me the Casiro-èn's annual ball. I would've asked King Christopher about his metabolic activities myself. And that too at the dinner. Although that would be a sight to see. Me getting dragged down by guards while I'm laughing like a lunatic. Any normal person who will see that thinks of me as an insane person. Don't worry, sometimes getting off topic helps me uplift my sulking mood. I usually do it when anyone say something mean to me. But this time it's not helping. My life's taking a 180 degree turn is not going to unease the stress it's causing. What have I done to live a life like this? I asked the god. But he didn't answer. He never has. _________________________________________ Author's note: it's a pure work of fiction.  Every name, place, everything is my imagination. If you like it so far then don't forget to vote. And if possible please comment. There'll be grammatical mistakes. It's just an story about a fantasy land budding inside my brain and begging me to get out........ So yeah...... the result is in front of you! Thank you for your time to read this! Love Saph~