Flowering Dreams

Miscommunication

Classes went by way to quickly. Hours flew by like minutes and suddenly I was in my dorm getting ready for a date I shouldn't be having. I wanted to look nice, but not over do it. My mind was made up, I was ending things before it got any further.

Kate came in as I was doing my makeup in the mirror. Instantlyshe got excited. "Yes! For once I didn't have to beg you to go out! Party? The club? Do you even have fakes to get in!? I am so excited!" She practically ran to the closet to sift through her dresses.

"Neither actually.. I'm going on a date." I told her reluctantly. She stopped dead in her tracks, and slowly turned to face me. Pure shock was the only expression evident, and I rolled my eyes at it. "It's not like the world has stopped spinning. It's just a date."

"This isn't just a date, Millie. This is YOU on a date. This must be 'the one' right!? Oh my gosh I am so excited for you! What's his name? Ooo what does he look like!? I bet he is tall. Is he tall?"

"Slow down!" I chuckled at her. "It's not really a date. I mean I guess it is.. but isn't. Let's just say it's complicated. He is definitely not 'the one' though." I looked down as she seemed confused by my words. "I met him yesterday, there is just a weird connection between us. It's hard to explain exactly what it is.. but I can't seem to keep a clear head around him."

"Ohhh, I get it." A devilish grin spread across her face. She winked and made some provocative displays at me. I threw one of my pillows at her and we both laughed. "I think it's good that you are exploring a little. When you finally meet 'the one' you will have some experience. I just want you to answer one question."

"Sure, one question." I rolled my eyes, knowing what kind of question it was going to be.

"Is he hot!?" Her voice was bubbling with excitement. I couldn't contain my giggles.

"Very." I said.

"Oh, Mills I am so happy! Do I get to meet him? What time are you leaving?" She bouncing on her toes, too excited to contain it.

"He is picking me up at 9. You can say hello but that is all! I don't plan on going out with him again after tonight. Before you say anything, I've made up my mind already." Her face quickly turned to a frown. Before she could respond there was a knock on our door.

My heart fluttered. He was 20 minutes early, but that was fine with me. I wanted to get tonight over with. "I'll get it!" Kate said as she sprinted to the door. When she flung it open, she turned back to me and said "Well you could have just told me your date was Jordan!"

My breathing stopped at her words and I walked towards the door to see Jordan standing in the entry confused. "Date?" He c****d his head to the side looking at me. I hadn't planned to tell him, but I guess that was out of the question now.

"It's not him." I told Kate. Looking back to Jordan, I said "What are you doing here?" I didn't mean to sound rude, I just didn't want him and Dillan here at the same time. The other day at the coffee shop was awkward enough, but now I've kissed both of them, and am going on a date with one. Things were a bit more complicated now.

"I was going to ask if you wanted to grab some food with me. I feel like we need to talk and work through things better.. but I guess tonight doesn't work for you." I could hear the hurt in his voice. He was trying to hide it, but some slipped through.

"Jordan.." Before I could say anything else, Dillan came into the entry. My stomach did a flip, and the tension in the air was thick enough to cut. They both looked at each other like mortal enemies, then turned to face me. Gulp. Kate came to stand beside me, suddenly aware of my dilemma.

"Why don't we go get some food instead? There's this fun little gaming joint downtown." she leaned over to whisper in my ear "You are totally explaining when you get home. You owe me." She winked at me, and put her arm around Jordan's. He looked back at me as she pulled him out the door. I mouthed 'I'm sorry' before he was out of view.

It was just me and Dillan now. Alone. In my room. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as we stood staring at each other for a moment. The air turned static with electricity, and his lips pulled up on one side. He leaned down and brushed my cheek with his lips.

Turning to face the door, he held his arm out for me. "Ready?"

"Yes." I couldn't help but smile back at him.

*****

Dillan took me to a small Italian restaurant, and we were sitting across the table talking. Roughly 2 hours passed as we laughed and told each other more about our lives as we ate. Both of us continued to gravitate towards one another.

Food was a good distraction. I couldn't smell his intoxicating scent, only pasta. I realized about halfway through my food that I was on my first date. It always seemed pointless in high school because none of the boys had ever interested me. Dillan was very interesting, though.

I wanted to know what it was that made me so uncontrollably attracted too him. I was more nervous after we left the restaurant. Without the distraction of food, and a table between us it was hard to resist the magnetic pull. Back at my dorm I invited him in to hangout a little longer, but when I opened the door Kate wasn't home yet.

Alone with him in my room, I was suddenly very aware of the tingling throughout my body. My face began to get hot as he sat on my bed. I imagined pushing him over and crawling on top of him.. Damn it Millie! This whole night was supposed to be about setting boundaries and figuring out how to stop giving in to this attraction. Instead, he was in my bed.

He gestured with one finger for me to come closer. Gulping, I obeyed his request. I moved to sit beside him but he pulled me onto his lap instead. Straddling him, I couldn't control myself. I pushed him over just as I had imagined and began kissing him vigorously. His hands gripped the back of my thighs and slowly moved up my dress.

Low moans escaped my mouth at the pleasure of his hands rubbing me through my underwear. I felt his pants tighten against me. Then, he rolled me onto my back. His mouth moved away from mine, and down my neck as he began lifting my dress. I wanted more.

I yanked his shirt over his head and began unbuttoning his pants. Gracefully, he pulled them off with one motion. His mouth moved down my chest, stomach, then just below my belly button. His hands began slowly pulling down my underwear.. then the door opened.