The Obsession Beneath

Life didn’t end when the earth swallowed up my most important treasures but as the saying goes, life goes on, My life may not be the type you see in movies, may not even look like a happy ending but I know it will be. mira, mira, mira, a loud scream close to my ear woke me half way in my sleep, hmm I mummured, still dancing in my dreams, mira, mira, i heard my name, louder this time and it definitely wasn’t in my sleep. Yessss, I whispered, as I slowly turned towards the scream trying to summon strength to open my eyes, after a second, I rolled on the bed, I opened my eyes a tiny bit, the room was dark, I closed it back immediately, i hated dark places, it was just not my thing besides. Rain was still falling outside heavily, with thunder like the rain was cleaning the world, luckily Amira remembered to lock the windows. Mira, i heard my name again, i opened my eyes this time around, it was a whisper, amira i called out but there was no response, am i now hallucinating, i thought. Wow, i felt my tummy grawl, I'm hungry i thought, even though i didn't feel like eating last night, i muttered strength to stand up from the bed, i touched amira who was sleeping right beside me, unlike me, Amira isn't a deep sleeper, smally, i called out, no response, Amira I called out again, it's unlike her, I thought, as I called out again, Amira, no response, like today she decided to be a deep sleeper. I slowly reached in and she was barely breathing. Immediately I pushed her a bit and I could only hear weak breaths. my heart stopped for a second, of course i just woke up, I just stared at Amira's body in the dark room, in shock, like I had blacked out of the room, I couldn't process what I was feeling and thinking, immediately reality sank in. Amira, Amira I moved towards her again, breathe , breathe I said, as I struggled to see, I touched and touched the bed looking for my phone, Yes, I found it immediately I turned on my torch, looking for Amira’s inhaler, shined it at Amira who was barely breathing, immediately i stood up looking for her inhaler Immediately she took it in, she regained consciousness, Amira I screamed as I hugged her tight, don't scare me like that again I said, as I gave her a tighter hug. I called out to you, Amira whispered, really? I asked, trying to retrace my steps. Oh, my thoughts reminded me, I heard it but I wasn't sure if I was just hallucinating or if it was my reality, You know I hate darkness, I added, Amira giggled, as she whispered asking did you think they came for you ? Amira asked, I can see you're okay, it's 11pm princess and you have school tomorrow. Let's try to sleep again, I said, alright Amira responded, Come I said as I laid down and pulled Amira in for a hug, I gazed carefully over her hair as I sang a lullaby, of course she's a grown ass twenty four year old, Then again she's the last born and the only one I have left and it's just been us since the earth swallowed up our parents. In a matter of two minutes, Amira slept off like a baby. At that moment I heard only silences and deep breathing in the room. I was only glad we didn’t wake more people in the orphanage at that time of the night, I thought . I looked up and just stared at the white ceiling of our dorm in the orphanage, I need to find something doing that pays, i whispered, we need to move out of here soon and I need to restock Amira's medication, Amira's been suffering from reoccurring ulcer, we've been managing it for years now, and her medications are not cheap, at least its affordable I thought, buzzzz. my phone buzzed, immediately I reached for the phone, i silenced it, of course I don’t want the ringing to wake Amira up again, I picked it up again slowly, after successfully muting it, hmm I smiled as I looked into my screen, the love of my life was calling, but it's late I thought, I'd text… heyyy love, my princess he responded, I saw ur'e call and didn’t want to wake Amira up fine he texted back, I couldn’t sleep and my mind said to text and ask hope you're not over thinking life again, I'm not I texted smiling,like he was physically there, this man knows me like the back of my hands, he's been my bestfriend, and boyfriend since forever, not your regular type of friend though he has a two star to his label of my friend, buzz another message landed, well I would like us to go somewhere tomorrow to ease off your stress, ouu i thought as i read on, you'd say you're not overthinking but it's only your thoughts that'd keep you up at this time of the night. hmm I smiled in awe of how he'd just loving and caring, well see you tomorrow sir, I texted smiling, I sent the message and immediately switched off my phone It's time for bed, I thought. I dropped my phone, smiled and slept very close to Amira, monitoring her breath, not taking any chances… What are you doing this early in the morning ? Amira asked disrupting my attention from my system where i sat in our room, applying for remote jobs I responded, Good morning, I said, you scared me yesterday I added, hauuuun, she yawned as she stretched on the bed. I'm sorry and I feel better, how's the application going ? Amira asked , well it's just to have faith and wait i responded, you look happy amira added , why ? I asked her, you're smiling and blushing out of the ordinary, Amira responded. well he wants to take me out today, who? amira asked, him of course, our first love, well I've said this since day one if you all don’t get married I'd be disappointed, you’ve disturbed we the singles with your healthy love, hmm I said as I let out a tiny smile, he's the one I said as I heard my phone beep, I peeped in and it was my one lousy alarm clock, whoosh I said as I looked at the time as I stood up from the chair, what's it? Amira asked looking frightened, noo don’t be alarmed I said laughing at her frightened face, I'm running late for work, that your scary alarm tone, Amira said lying back down on the bed, I know right I responded , anyways I know I'm asking for the seventhth time in a row but why do you have to go where you don’t like working ? Amira asked me. well I have to save for us to move out of here soon little sissy, i said theres your final year fees, our feeding, our gurlies accessories, the list goes on I said as I pulled off my clothes reaching for my towel, my only peace is you'd be done with school soon and I hope this remote job clicks. the fact I work in a club people see me as a stripper, I said mtcheew , Amira responded feeling pity for me, quit then, amira added, really have you forgotten I stopped schooling to work, true, so we're helpless, amira responded looking sad, no company would accept me without a certificate, that’s why you're in school I said as I gave her a warm, hug don't over think it, it gets better I said as I smiled and walked into the bathroom, life didn’t end when someone tried to assault me in that club and no one did anything, I thought, hmm I thought as I poured water on my body, I couldn't help but cry, looking back in time, years ago we were the definition of that rich and influential family. we schooled in the ivy league before the ill hands of death swept my parents will all of their properties held by unknown forces, hmm I thought oh well, it gets better i guess.