At his will

You're mine

WARNING!! This chapter has foul language.

Alicia POV:

As soon as we walk into the suite he pulls me back by the arm, I bump into the wall that is his chest and he grabs my waist to hold me steady; his grip tightens painfully and he rips the buttons off the front of my shirt with one steady movement of his right hand, "what the hell Ray!" I scream; trying desperately to hold the fabric together. In an instant I'm forced against the wall and my left arm is pinned down on the wall. His attack on my shirt continues as he starts pulling at the shirt to get it off.

In a moment his lips are on mine and I'm confused as to how we ended up in this situation "Come" he speaks into my mouth, releases me and walks into the room. I'm catching my breath and cursing at my ripped shirt, while thinking of ways to get revenge. I remove my boots and walk into the bedroom, "you owe me a shirt" I say frowning as I walk into the room. I shoot my fiercest glare at him and I see he's already undressed down to his boxers.

"I'll owe you a pants too if you don't take those off before me, bet on that" he grumbles. Although it has erupted something hot in my core, I hold my resolve as he and I aren't on that level yet.

"What has gotten into you?" I question annoyed. He walks over and unbuttons my jeans, zips it down and dips his finger into the sides of my jeans. I don't move but i don't assist. He pulls them down and nudges for me to step out of them; I reluctantly obey.

He runs his broad hands up my legs as he slowly stands, electricity follows his every trace and I'm very turned on by him at the moment..... I want him?!

He lifts me in one smooth motion as if I weigh nothing and I instinctively wrap my legs around him, I feel his large erected member pressing firmly against my private and I'm scared, excited, curious and nervous all at once. His lips are on mine again, devouring me as if my kiss is his air as he walks over to the bed and lays me down, slowly he leans over and his 'soldier' is dragging on my thigh as he's between me now.

I close my eyes and enjoy his soft kisses all over my body. Softly he sucks on the side of my chin and down to my neck; he stops and gives his undivided attention to my n*****s, sucking on the left breast and pinching the n****e of the right. That combined with his slow, circular grinding makes my body aches for him. My excitement is quickly overriding my fears even if I'm feeling his way to large to fit in me member dragging on my stomach and my thigh at the same time how is that possible; I don't know.

He goes down and puts his lips on me and gently licks and sucks my labîa. "Ooohhh s**t" I groan and he starts to finger me, he massages me with a finger and interchanges with his mouth; I'm in heaven and I really want to know what actual s*x feels like. Not m**********n and not what I imagine happening to me when I watch põrn, the real thing! Actual sęx!

He's now face to face with me "I hope you're ready for this" he states and I simply nod.

"You're getting thick, I like it" and he devours me; sucking all over my upper body and fingering me. I respond by gyrating my hips in response to his touch. I lean in and kiss him and I feel his dícķ at the entrance of my puśşy; I close my eyes and brace for the impact. I feel a tension and pain, not bad pain just unusual pain. He stops and waits and the pain is easing, I dip my head into his neck and he slowly pulls out then comes in again, I grimace and squeeze his shoulder and back simultaneously and he deep kisses me, he takes two more strokes in and out of me and I feel like crying. “can we stop for a moment please?” I plead, feeling uneasy and weird.

“It’ll get better soon, try to relax”

“It hurts too much, I need a few minutes please” I’m actually crying now and he still doesn’t stop; more strokes come and I’m feeling overwhelmed, I need him to stop. I try to push at him but I feel tense and weak, I can’t move my hand as I want to. “Ray please”

He stops and puts his head between my legs and performs Cunnïļingus, I don’t care for it now as much as I did just now I just lay there and count the seconds as the pain eases. He climbs back up to me and he’s entering me again, I know I’m not ready for it but I stay quiet and hope it passes quickly.

He’s on top of me for about fifteen more minutes and I feel numb throughout it and just stare at the alarm clock on the night stand. He kisses me before he raises up and wipes the tears away from my face, “I’m gonna go get something to wash you up” and he urns and leaves.

I turn on my side and groan, between my legs feels like it’s on fire and has numerous fresh cuts. I find a bearable position and I soon drift off to sleep.

When I awake he’s hugging me and asleep also, and the pain is back.

I ease from under him and head to the bathroom. The water burns it, my hand burns it, soap definitely burns it; if this is how it will be all the time I need a break.

When Raymond gets up its morning and I have breakfast waiting, “morning baby” he grins and kisses m forehead, “How do you feel?”

“Tender” I answer with just that because I don’t know how else to describe it.

“It’ll get better soon; at least by tomorrow you’ll be back to normal, what’s for breakfast?”

“Eggs, bacon, hash browns, coco and orange juice, should I set a plate for you?”

“It’s ok you go lie down, I’m going to work soon; I’ll be back a bit early today, you want to do anything today, it is our honeymoon you know?”

“I don’ know, I’ll let you know when you get back”

“Ok sweetie” and I leave and go lie down for the rest of the morning.

A call from Rachael wakes me and I tell her about last night, she’s over excited that I finally lost my v-card but is also suspicious about our encounter at the spa. i knew i wasn't paranoid we chat for a while longer and I note how much I miss her and my old life. When we finally end our call I see that I have an unread text, the preview of the text is Tyson saying that he is still waiting and I throw my phone on the bed and I don’t check the rest of the message. I need to get Tyson out of my life because he will cause more trouble in my marriage than I need.

After an hour of peeping at my phone and looking away I decide that I’m being foolish and I check the message it says; ‘I’m still waiting on you to realize that you don’ love the man you married, maybe you don’t even love me and I’m just an escape route, but I’m willing to accept anything you categorize me as in order to be in your life, I’m not just saying this but I do love you Alicia, I barely know you and I can’t get you out of my mind, I want a life with you, just making you happy every day, if you don’t love me although I believe you do, I want to hear it, tell me exactly what you want and I will obey, please think about it, talk soon’.

Why does he pull at my heart so much? Do I really love him?

I spend the rest of the day in my thoughts, I finally decide that I will devote my life to my husband and just come clean on what has been happening with Tyson, he deserves that much!

When Ray gets home I tell him that I need to talk to him and we should stay in he’s curious but I assure him that everything’s fine.

I fumble around for the words and he holds my hand he assures me that he’s there for me and I can tell him anything.

I begin, “Ray I hope you understand that, I do have immense feelings for you, I know that I can grow to love you and I see a very happy life in our future” he’s now looking at me with a worried expression. “I have met someone…” he looks shocked. “No! it’s nothing like that I just met someone… and… he made me feel good… happy even, argh this is coming out wrong!” I placed my hand on my head in frustration. He looks at me blankly but doesn’t respond. “I have NEVER had sĕx with him, just so you know, I just feel like our friendship is wrong and I don’t want to start our union with lies and secrets”

“Wow!” he responds after a short period, “Since you haven’t been fuçkïng this man, what have you too been doing?”

“We have kisśed, I’m so sorry Raymond”

“You’re a fućkïng slűt Alicia!” he says with scorn, and gets up to walk away, “wait Ray” I shout behind him, he turns around and grabs hold on my robe and shakes me vigorously “Wait on what?” and with that he throws me to the floor.

“Oww” I yell and hold my ankles from the pain. He comes back and leans over me with his finger held out to me and says; “You wanna be a fűçking slût all over the place, I’ll show you what a slűt deserves!”.

“Ray, unhand me!” I shout at him in anger.

“I can do what the fûck ever I want, YOU’RE MINE!”