The Memory of You

AUTHOR Some say the ocean brings peace... do you agree with this? From the shore, the view was beautiful the waves splashed in some kind of heavy calm silence ... maybe it could bring peace to people at times but to Keesha maybe this was her moment, her feet touched the warm water below her, her body was slowly responding to an invisible pull that kept on repeating the same words in her head onward She took slow steps further into the water, her eyes seemed lost, fixed far at the horizon like she was waiting for someone, someone who could take her, blind her from the rage and pain stirring in her heart her steps never faltered, not once did she stop walking, not until the waves and it's current were helping with the motion and even her mind was still trapped in her own thoughts as her head went into a flashback ................... "What did I ever do to deserve such a brat " she heard her yell then the harsh voice was followed by the sound of glass shattering on the floor around her "Well maybe you shouldn't have given birth to me in the first place " she shouted too her arms going up in motion of frustration "You could have a damn abortion..you.." A slapped echoed in the room , she was cut short of her words when her mother hit her across her face , she didn't hold her cheek but the pain was obvious ... and maybe it was not only from the slap something in her chest hurt a lot, maybe it was the thought that her mother raised her hand at her "Yes" she spoke her voice regaining a calm tone much calmer than normal or even expected "That is the one regret I'm still holding on to today" she spoke her tone turning icy slowly "Keeping you alive " ................. A tear ran down her cheek as small pitiful sobs came through her lips "At least death seems so easy rather than living next to you mother" Her voice came out hoarse as she spoke to herself , she had stopped walking for a moment , From a viewer's point of view she hadn't really gotten that far off the shore ... she wasn't in danger .... yet But then at that being said she started walking slow easy steps like as if she had reversed this peaceful walk towards eternal slumber but then something made her halt ... someone actually " Giornata difficile" a male voice was heard from beside her her head automatically turned, not too much but enough that she could make out the guy's facial, then suddenly fear downed her, she was standing in the ocean waves, with a A man who looked like he could do what he pleased to her if he wanted to Her eyes skimmed over his pitch black hair slowly down to his thick-ish brows straight nose, perfectly angled jaw line and somehow thin lips and of course he had to have green eyes it was almost as if heaven favoured the man. Keesha turned her eyes away from the dashing scene beside her. Despite this man not minding his business, she still had not forgotten all that had brought her to this moment and then as on cue, her tears silently fell, and the man beside her almost faded into the background on her mind "If I died ... today... right now, she wouldn't care, " she whispered to herself merely The man beside her stood in silence. He stared at her, his eyes, though he didn't carry the emotion that would have been the most obvious pity... sympathy No, they just seemed hollow, distant, and disturbingly calm Keesha started forward again, but then he spoke, his voice carrying a deep tone that sounded unreal for a moment " Portebbe non essere una scelta intelligente" Keesha turned her golden brown eyes locked with his She understood him , and he told her it might not be a wise choice because it was clear what thoughts rode on her head ' suicide ' her conscious repeated as though she wasn't aware of it The man started advancing towards her slowly the end of his trousers soaking in the ocean waves He raised his hand and held her palm, as though they were familiar with each other..... and suddenly the air between them changed it got a lot warmer, Keesha's head tilted back slightly, and her eyes turned white. There was no other colour visible, just white orbs in sight, as though she was blind Then he let her hand go ............. KEESHA I rubbed my eyes slowly, the sound of waves splashing hit me instantly. i lowered my gaze down at the soft waves that hit me I may not know if I'm having a moment or that I quite don't seem to remember how I got here "This is so weird." I spoke to myself, looking down at my half-drained body The waves were getting stronger as nightfall fell, and if I kept standing there, the waves would push me further into the ocean, and I would drown , I turned and made my way back, away from harm As the sun was setting, I closed my eyes, relaxing to the cool breeze that hit my face and bare shoulders. My hair moved in its direction, 'Why does this moment seem so .... peaceful' The thought lingered But then it downed me, fear slowly crept in me... I glanced at the night sky again "I'm late .... s**t" I turned and ran back, down a familiar route that just might lead me home ...... * slap* "You know how much this event means to me and dare to be late!" The male voice boomed and bounced off the walls of the room, but I didn't flinch. It hurt ... of course it did. It always did, but I had gotten used to it It wasn't the first time, nor was it the last My parent were the perfect definition of strict, and along with that I had to be one of those unlucky kids who grew up watching my parents fight on a day-to-day basis then they would pour that anger on me I got used to it sometime, I had mastered how to not display emotional breakdown in front of them, and now was that time "Get ready and be down in no less than five minutes" his back faced me as he turned and even it seemed to knock me, my mom gave me one look, it wasn't sorry or pity that would have gone with the mood no It was a look of pure irritation and annoyance, like she had been hoping this night would go well, and I just ruined it I made my way to my bedroom, the door sealed shut behind me, my eyes hovered around the room like it was something foreign, it's been long since I was here I try to avoid my parents at all costs on normal days, but this week, the company has been tight, and I had to be here right now