Coldhearted (COMPLETED)

Phoemela "I don't know what it is that you've done to me... but it's caused me to act in such a crazy way. Whatever it is that you do when you do what you're doing... it's a feeling that I want to stay. Cause my heart starts beating triple time, with thoughts of loving you on my mind. I can't figure out just what to do, when the cause and cure is you...I get so weak..." Ako na! Ako na ang addict sa music, at ako na! Ako na ang addict kay Jeremy Jung! I love him so much! I love him to the depth of my soul! I love him to the man he wants to be, and the man he almost is! I love him! I la-la-la-love him! Kaya naman nang mabasa ko ang invitation ng engagement party ni Jeremy sa aming bahay kaninang umaga, I cried so much! Hindi puwedeng makasal si Jeremy na wala akong ginagawang paraan! Hindi siya puwedeng makasal sa iba dahil mahal ko siya! "And this..." hinawakan ko ang bouquet of flowers na ibinigay ng manliligaw ni Rainbow sa kanya, at itinapat ko sa aking dibdib. Iniligay ko din and belo na costume namin sa play kanina sa theater arts class sa aking ulo, habang nakatingin kay Jeremy Jung na nasa kabilang kubo lang. "This... iszzzz my calling! To be the wife of Jeremy Jung! Yes, I, Phoemela Sahara Park, half Korean- half Filipino, do solemnly swear that I will love you, Jeremy Jung, forever, and ever, so help me God! Aja! Fighting!" Binatukan ako ng pagkalakas lakas ni Rainbow habang naka-upo kami sa isa sa mga kubo sa school. Nahulog tuloy ang belo sa ulo ko, at pumunta sa thick glasses ko ang mga petals ng bulaklak dahil muntik na ako mapasubsob sa bouquet na hawak ko, habang pinapausukan ako ni Rainbow ng kanayang yosi na Strawberry DJ Mix. "Aray!" Reklamo ko at napahawak sa aking ulo. "Ang lakas non huh!" "Gaga ka talaga, Pinkie! Pinagtitinginan ka ng mga tao, o! Krung krung ka talaga! Hindi ka na nahiya! Hindi mo ba nakita na pinagtatawanan ka na ng grupo nila Jeremy dun sa kabilang kubo? Tigilan mo na nga yan' kahibangan mo! Engaged na si Jeremy, diba? Baliw ka talaga!" Sabi ni Rainbow. Hindi ako smoker, pero pag magyoyosi si Rainbow, a.k.a. Rain, the car racer in our barkada, ay sinasamahan ko siya dahil dito rin tumatambay sa isa sa mga kubo na malapit sa parking lot si Jeremy Jung at ang mga barkada nito. At isa pa, magkakilala din si Rain at Jeremy dahil pumupunta sila sa far, far, far view ng Fairview, Quezon City para mag-car racing tuwing hating gabi. At katulad ng mga napapanood ko sa Fast and Furius, bawal ang car racing kaya naman kapag may 'parak' ay kanya kanya sila ng lipad para matakasan ang mga pulis. How risky, but exciting! Just like my Papa Jeremy! He's so risky, but he's soooo exciting! I met Jeremy Jung when I was first year high school. He is also halfKorean- half Filipino. We see each other most often in the Korean community that my Dad belongs to. In one of the events of the Korean community ay nalaman ko na he is already engaged to Min Jee who is pure Korean whose family migrated to Philippines. They are scheduled to be married after college graduation. Sa 6 years kong pagkahumaling kay Jeremy, wala pa rin akong nagagawang move para mapansin ako ni Jeremy. Kapag nakasal na siya, wala na talaga akong pag-asa para mapunta pa siya sa'ken. Sa totoo lang, nakaka-pressure. Pero alam ko na ang susi lamang upang mapansin ako ni Jeremy at magkaroon ng chance na ma-in love siya sa'ken ay ako na ang gumawa ng move. Ang kaso, wala ni isa man sa mga kaibigan ko ang gusto sumuporta sa'ken. Sabi ng mga best of friends ko na sina Rain, Tanya, Rori, Jackie, at Shayla, sa iba ko na lang daw ibaling ang pagmamahal ko dahil Jeremy and I don't have anything in common. He's a bad guy, and I'm a good girl, so I deserve daw a good guy. Hindi ko daw deserve si Jeremy? Palibhasa hindi nila nakikita kay Jeremy ang nakikita ko. (무엇보다도) Una, he is half Korean- half Filipino like me. Ayiii!!! Kilig! ♥ (더욱이) Moreover, mabait at masunurin siya sa magulang. Kyaaah! Kilig! ♥ (게다가) In addition, he is handsome, intelligent, sweet, mabait, at magaling sa mixed martial arts! Kayang kaya niya akong ipagtanggol sa mandurukot, rapist, and even monsters! 1000% kilig megawatts! Nangingisay ngisay pa ako niyan! Hihihi! ♥ I'm very convinced I have to make a move dahil wala ng oras! Kaya kahit nangingisay ngisay pa ako sa kilig ay nag-internet na ako sa mobile phone ko.  By hook or by crook, I have to get Jeremy to fall in love with me, para magbago ang isip niya sa pagpapakasal! First step, itanong sa Yipee answers how to get the man of your dreams to like you. I typed my background. "Hi! I'm so in love with this guy from our Korean community, but he can't seem to notice me. We are just in one community so we practically grew up together, but we never became friends. But I could feel that he is the right one for me. It's just that we are not given the chance to talk and to get to know each other better. I feel that he is trying not to look my way, because he is already in an arranged marriage. I could feel he doesn't want the marriage arrangement but due to tradition, and because he is an obedient son, he will get married, even without love. We're in our last semester in Third Year College, and we are both in the same school, same course, same class, and we hang out in the same community outside of our Korean community. It just seems like the stars are doing something to make us close, but we are just both shy to make a step. I don't mean to be a stalker at school, but there are times I would catch his 'fiancée' flirting or kissing another guy behind his back. If I were his girl, I would never ever do that to him. I feel I've got to try to do something to let him know how I feel. This is my last chance to make him mine, since he will be getting married right after graduation. What steps or effort should I make to try? Thanks.- Korean Lovelorn." "Pinkie, I don't think you should rely on the internet to get advice. Syempre hindi ka naman nila kilala the way we do. Dapat sa'min ka makinig." Si Rain iyon na nakiki-usisa sa sinusulat ko. "Best friend, pagbigyan mo na ako." Lambing ko sa kanya. "Kapag wala naman akong nakitang sagot, titigilan ko na ang ilusyon ko. Pramis!" Sabi ko pa. Napabuntong hininga na lang sa'ken si Rain at nag-mumble. "Ewan ko sa'yo. Isumbong na kita kela Tanya niyan eh!" She said while referring to the leader of our barkada na si Tanya. "Ops, ops, ops!" Sabi ko na nakangiti sa best friend kong aburido. "Sige ka, if you tell them tungkol sa kalokohan ko, I will tell them too about your car racing activities sa far-far Farview. Alam mo naman, ayaw nilang nagka-car racing ka kasi baka mapahamak ka. At sinasama mo pa ako. Hehe!" "Aba! May ganun? Nagbabanta ka na ngayon ha, Phoemela!" Nanlaki ang mga mata ni Rain at huminga ng malalim sa inis. "Kainis ka din paminsan! Ikaw kaya ang sumasama sa'ken dahil gusto mong makita si Jeremy! Loka loka ka talaga!" Asar niyang sabi at humila na naman ng isa pang stick ng sigarilyo. "O, pang-anim mo na yan for the day. Sabi ni Shayla, ang ating aspiring vet doctor and beauty queen na huwag ka raw lalagpas sa 4 sticks a day." Paalala ko pa habang nagba-browse sa internet. "Ewan ko sa'yong krung krung ka!" Sabi niya at saka pinatay ang yosi. "Sayan yun, o!" Panghihinayang ni Rain. Hihirit pa sana ako pero napansin ko ang signal sa Yipee account ko. Nagulat ako nang mag-signal ang Yahoo account ko na merun daw sumagot sa question ko sa Yipee answers. Binasa ko ang sabi ng isang anonymous adviser. I hope this helps. I clicked the link and it directed me to Cosmopolitan UK. According to Cosmopolitan, there are 12 steps in making your man attracted to you. It says that the first step is to give him an eyeful. At dahil mabagal ang internet, hindi ko na nabasa ang ibig sabihin sa step one, pero dahil eager ako to know what it means, I checked the meaning of eyeful from my electronic dictionary. It says it is a Noun. It is pronounced as 'I,fûl. It means a strikingly beautiful woman. Strikingly beautiful woman? Napakunot noo ako at napaisip. Ano nga ba ang strikingly beautiful para kay Jeremy? Napakagat labi ako sa naalala ko. I remember there was a time Jeremy had a crush on one of my best friends na si Rori. Chinita beauty kasi si Rori, lady-like, prim and proper, polished, parating naka-make up at sexy manamit. If that is his definition of a strikingly beautiful woman, eh di gagawin ko din yon, para mapansin din ako ni Jeremy. Bukas ko na lang ichecheck ang next step. Gagawin ko muna ang first step. Be an eyeful! Napatingin ako kay Jeremy habang excited na nakangiti.   I whispered. "Huwag kang mag-alala, makukuha din kita, Jeremy! Aja! Fighting!" I whispered at tumayo na sa kahoy na upuan ng kubo. "Tara na Rain! Pupuntahan natin si Rori."