Jia Xia
Its been about two days since I last spoke to the boys...
They haven't been so good about the whole thing and honestly I don't blame them.
I guess I would have acted the same way.
I had a slight panic attack, but after about 10 minutes I was fine, luckily the boys didn't notice anything so on tjat part I am clear.
"Hayaan Zain... Please come down... I want to talk to you guys.."
I have been debating whether or not to go and see my family's Graves, and finally after much deliberation with Alexis and mr Alcohol I decided it was time.
The boys came down and sat oppisite me.
Zain seems to be calm while Hayaan is busy with his phone.
The look on their faces makes me a bit nervous.
But here goes nothing.
"So... I know you are still mad at me, and honestly I am mad at myself,
