Alpha Cross and His Luna book 4 of the luna fighter

How did you heal me 20

chapter 20

Susan pov

Its been a few weeks since i been in this pack, Ive watched and i have trained with the warriors, i have also learned and taught, i'm starting to like it here, but i know Cross has been waiting for me to mate with him, i know we have marked each other, but not have mated, i'm not ready for that, every time we get close to mating, flash backs start to come back to me and i freak out a little, he understands, i wish i could tell him, i wish i had the guts to show him my scars, but i'm just not ready for that, when i was done training, i went inside and walked by his office, i looked inside and saw him talking on the phone, so i waved and pointed to upstairs, he nodded, he knew i was going to go shower and rest a bit, so when i got into the bedroom, i stripped down to get the dirty clothes off of me, took the hairtie out of my hair, and than got in the shower, once i was clean, i turned the water off than i got out, dried off, i didn't think nothing about it, when i only put a towel around me, i walked out of the bathroom and headed to my dresser, i took out my bra and panties out, droppig the towel off of me, i was about to start getting dressed when i heard a loud growl and than the bedroom door slammed shut, f**k i did not want him to find out like this, what made him come up here, f**k, s**t, s**t f**k, my body is a mess, he’s going to reject me, now, sighing, i just pulled out a long shirt and a pair of sweat pants out of the dresser, i needed to cover my ugly body, i turned when i was done, than looked at him, i simply said,

“You can reject me if you want, its okay, i understand, i'll be okay, i know my body is ugly, and now you know,” he looked at me with so much love in his eyes, but they turned to shock and disbelief, than anger, he had so many emotions going through him so fast, i didn't know what to think, he took a step toward me, i stepped back every time he took a step toward me, i stepped back until my back hit the wall, s**t, alright. find,let's get this over with,

“Will you please stop being dramatic, We are an Ivy for crying out loud, if he tries to hurt us, we will just rip his nuts off of him, so calm the f**k down, you don't know what he is wanting to say or do,” watching his hand rise up, he laid it to the side of my face gently, than he said,

“Susan, i'm not rejecting you, so forget about that, i was pissed when i saw those scars on your back, what the f**k happened to you, what the f**k did he do to you, s**t, well i might as well tell him now,

‘Well if you really want to know, we need to sit down for this,”

walking over to the bed, i sat at the head of the bed, pulling my knees up to my chest, he sat beside me, i told him everything, the years of the good parts, when he said he loved me and would never hurt me, but then the years went by, that's when he started cheating on me with the woman he truly loved, pushing me down the stairs making me lose the only thing that i loved, the day i killed his mate, the day he beat the h3ll out of me, and all those other times when he cut me with silver knives, so i wouldn't be able to heal, the time i was done, i was in tears, he held me rocking me until i stopped crying,

“I want you to do me a favor, i want you to take your shirt off, and then lay on your stomach, You can trust me okay, i won't do anything you do not want me to do. The only thing i ask of you, is take your shirt off and lay on your stomach, you don't even have to take your sweat pants off,” i didn't know why he wanted me to do this, but Queen told me to trust him if he tries anything sneaky, she will break his fingers,” sighing, i took my shirt off showing my upper glory my breast, i done what he asked me to do, i laid on my stomach, I watched as he got up on his knees on the bed, he rubbed. His hands together than laid them on my back, what the h3ll is this man doing, i felt heat coming from his hands, the heat raised making me feel like i was burning, after a few minutes of that, i felt his hands turn to cold to cool my back off, than he lifted his hands from my back, he did the same with my shoulders, after he was done, he told me to sit up, he got off the bed took my hand and led me to the bathroom so i could look at my back, once in there, i was looking at one mirror, the other mirror was behind me, oh my goddess, what did he do, how did he do it,

“How,...How did you do that? Why did you do that,” smiling at me with those kind eyes that he has,

“Susan, i did that because i love you, i would do anything for you my baby, you are my whole world, How i did it, from the heat from my hands, im a healer honey, The scars can be on your body all your life, and i can make them go away, now the scars that's inside your mind, i can't heal. you will have to heal that on your own honey, i wish i could heal that for you, but i just can't.” Wait, what? did he just say he loved me, i think ill pretend i didn't hear him say that to me, i just was not ready to tell him the L word, i'm not even sure if i am capable of love, taking another look of my back, happy tears came down my eyes, without even thinking, my arms went around his neck,

“Thank you, Cross, thank you so much, this means the world to me, i softly kissed him,”

“But i do have a question, Since you are an Ivy or your wolf is an Ivy, how come you didn't kill him when he first started doing this,” I knew that question would come up, and i knew why, if you kill an alpha in their own pack, the sentence is death, so i had to run, so thats what i told him,

“Well, first off, i didn't get queen until I ran, second, and you should know this rule, If you kill an alpha in his own pack, you are sentence to death, so i did the next best thing, i killed his lover, he beat me so badly that i was unable to do anything, i couldn't even get up off the floor,. he left me there and left for a few weeks for a meeting, he thought i would still be there once he got back, but once i figured out he left, i packed what i needed and ran, I won't let queen kill him unless he finds me, i have a plan, and if it plays out right, ill have his head in my hands, Queen wants his head so badly, the only reason why she came to me than is because i started making my own decisions, she wants revenage, and she will get it, and i will let her. as long as he is not in his pack when he comes for me, i can do whatever i want with him.”

“And I will help you with that, come on. Let's get your shirt on,