Teenage Trash

In everyones life there is some story that they never told anyone.They keep it secret untill their death and some share it with their friends.But in my story i never told anyone about it.I don’t feel comfortable to tell anyone about my private life.I want to keep it private untill my death.Sometimes i wonder if i died then the story will ne permanently gone without evidence because no one knows about my teenage love life. Only he and i knows the truth.But i want to keep the manuscript of our love life in these private notes.I can't tell anyone about it but my noteapp deserves to know this.I write all my favourite depressed thing on these.So i asked myself then why i can't write about my love life about it. 2021, I was little bit bored so i scroll down my facebook.For me if you are bored about something then read f*******: comments box,,it will make you laugh so hard.In f*******: comment box people's are so stupid they argues about something that doesnt belongs to them. Like others i found someone named Insan Gazi on a sss comment section.My first impression about him is he is stupid. He thinks he is so cool but the way he talk shits about Bts(my fav boy band) I totally hate him for this. But who knows one day i will fall in love with this stupid boy and can't never found the way back to unlove him. We chatted We argued I thought,,,,, for some reasons we hate each others,, but i was wrong about it.. He falls for me it wasn’t a good feeling. Because there's no future about us. I also feared about the person i doesn't know clearly and It's online how can we go an relationship. People in onlines are so fake,, some are fraud so i can't accept him. We know each other for 1 days how can he propose me when he know nothing about me.. What i like i hate i love i fear i do i done......so for me It's so unexpected and unbelievable. But i don’t know what's wrong with me. I know nothing about this black dp weird guy and we chatted for 1days. but i'm interested on him somehow so i aceept him. I make him my f*****g boyfriend He is mine i don’t know how to react about it cause it’s my first time to date a guy. I never date before it. I was kinda nervous about him. People makes some weird mistakes... I also made some If i ever know this guy will made me cry so hard i will truly fall for him then I will never accept him as a bf but human natures are so complicated they knows it’s dangerous for them but they will never stop make mistakes ? there's a quotes says "Never fall in love in your Teenage time it will mentally destroy u". in 2021 i never understand the value of this quote but now in 2023 it’s hurt so good. to be continued