I am currently walking down into the woods to clear out my mind. I was never been bothered so much before, not until when my 18th birthday came and changed my world.
That night was the most awaited day of my life. I turned into an adult and the time where I can finally transform into my wolf form.
But it never happened. I did not turned into one, not even a sign. I tried to force myself to turn, but it was useless. It felt like it was all wasted.
In this town, the news spreads fast and I was known as a she-wolf who cannot transform. I was branded as low because of my disability. A werewolf who can't transform is the most terrifying thing for a she-wolf. It can be compared as a rock that has no value and useless.
I started asking myself, if I am really a she-wolf. Without the ability, I am no far from being a human. But it's impossible to think that I am a human, when I am biologically born to this world with werewolf parents.
I got tired on thinking about it not until I saw the crystal clear stream inside the woods of the town of Blair. This place is hidden and not discovered yet. I just discovered this wonderful place few days ago when I ran away, crying because I can't transform and accidentally crashed in this area.
The place is heaven in crystal clear water with water lilies and lotus floating on the water. The chirps of the birds makes it even better in my ears.
I closed my eyes and inhaled the air, trying to expand my lungs until I cannot take it and release the air with a loud huff. It felt refreshing and somehow, the heavy feeling I had earlier was gone.
"Why did I not born as a tree instead if I cannot turn into a wolf? What's the purpose of me living?" I asked out of nowhere. I know no one would answer that's why I asked. Only the birds and the trees can hear my sentiments, but I doubt if they can hear me.
If only I have choice again and knowing my situation, I rather be a bird or a tree. People will see me as a laughing stock. I am already a freak in their eyes, and being unable to transform made me more of a freak.
I just hope I won't encounter Elvira's troupe. They are my die hard bully since grade school until I graduated high school. I know they won't miss this chance not to bully me. Now, I am taking up my college degree as a veterinarian.
My mom wants it. She said it's the most high paid job since most of the veterinarians will work in the main city to treat the wounded border patrollers. Even in this huge nation, we still encounter accidents and even intentional sabotage from rogues.
They are considered as enemy but situational. Sometimes, Riverdale also keeps and adopt rogues and make them into a pack member. Because not all rogues are bad, there are some who decided to transfer or migrate from different nation which is Riverdale and they have to severe the tie from their previous pack and that will make them into temporary rogues.
With permits along with them, they will not be executed but let them enter the country instead and let them live in Riverdale.
I have no class today since it's a three day holiday. Friday to Sunday is the annual Elite wolves hunting, where the super elite group of wolves including the Alpha will hunt down the rouges in plain sight. All high society wolves will gather in the main city to witness the glorious Alpha who's elusive and can only be seen in television.
We all admire and respect the Alpha. He's powerful and just his name will make your knees jerk in no time. He's known to be dominant and his cold facade that women loves the most.
To be honest, I can't stand cold people. I mean, they are boring and they do not talk a lot. They always frown and easily irritated. I know that because of Hilary's brother Nix who's as cold as ice and always scolding us for being noisy.
He's just a stuck up prick in our throat everytime he glare at us telling us not to do this and that. He always treat us like a child, though he's 2 years older than us.
We are just having fun. Hilary and I are like two peas in a pod. We talk a lot, we cry together and we even team up to beat Elvira. I remembered that we were tangled in a catfight and Nix is so mad at us and ended up being grounded for a month.
I look down into the ground and I saw white pebble stones so I pick one and throw it into the lake. It created a plopping sound and silence again.
Ring ring ring
I immediately fished out my phone from my pocket when I heard it ringing. I saw on the caller ID it's Hilary calling me. I am sure she's looking for me.
"He—"
"WHERE ARE YOU? I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR YOU SINCE AGES! YOU ABANDONED ME!" She screamed from the other line. I know, she sounded over reaction but she's always like that. She's making small things into big.
"Seriously? I'm just cooling my head off. You know that I don't want to be seen by the mob right now. I am pretty sure they will make me into a laughing stock again." I answered while rolling my eyes. She knows already why I am not around these past few days, but she reacts like she doesn't know.
"AND YOU ARE RIGHT. I WANT TO PULL ELVIRA'S HAIR OUT BECAUSE SHE'S SPREADING THE NEWS LIKE SHE OWNS A NEWS CASTING SHOW! SHE CAN ALREADY REPLACE TINA COWELL AS A NEWSCASTER!" She exclaimed and I almost put the phone away from my ears. She's literally screaming from the other line. If the sound waves will go through the phone, I am pretty sure my ear drums are already bleeding.
I sighed. I Already foresee this coming. Knowing Elvira, she will do everything just to make my life miserable. And to make my life more miserable, she's our neighbor that's why she found out that I cannot transform because she's a peeping cat.
"Just let her, Hilary. The news will just eventually die if we will not show our interest. It's not like I am the only one who can't transform. Just like Lucy Payne. She's just like me." I reasoned. I just wanted her to stop thinking about it. Eventually this hot news of mine will just die out after a few days.
"Man, she's a famous person. It doesn't matter if she can't transform because people loves her. But you're different—"
"There is no difference, Hilary. Just let it be. We will look pathetic if we will bit into their traps." I cut her off. This time, no matter how I defend myself, I will still appear as a sour loser.
"Okay fine! I will not talk to them. But I cannot promise not to have a fight with Elvira. You know that she gets into my nerves as much as I hate wolfsbane." She agreed and I can already imagine her sighing but pouting.
"Alright, I'll hangup now, I still need to do some things." I bid goodbye to her and we disconnected the call.
I made a once last glance into the lake before I started to walk, going out from the woods. I avoided people as much as I can. But still, I was still able to see some mocking glances or pitying me. I know some of the people pities my situation, but their pity could not help my situation at all.
I went to our house since my mom and dad is probably on their way from work. I still need to cook food for dinner. I am the cook for tonight. We do have assignments of who would be the cook. We always do that so we will not miss our cooking.
I rummage the kitchen and pulled out from the freezer the whole chicken. To be honest, chicken is the most favorite of our kind. I don't know but it really tasty and soft. We don't eat boar, but goats. Maybe it is really a nature of a wolf who loves to hunt with deers and chickens.
I cleaned the chicken and put some lemon grass and ginger inside the chicken's stomach. I put some pepper, paprika and rosemary. I put lemon essence, soy sauce and a white soda and put a little bit of salt to make the taste balanced.
I covered it and place it over the stove burner. I have to slow cook the chicken for 2 hours. I sat an alarm so I don't have to wait in front of it. I still need to fold the dried clothes in the hamper.
It's already waving at me and asking for my attention. I turned on the television first, before folding the clothes. It's news and currently it's talking about the holiday event—Elite Hunting.
There are a lot of girls who are excited for the upcoming event. I am too and Hilary is bugging me to go with them this coming Sunday. But I feel lazy going there.
We will just be watching with over-crowded place and I can't even appreciate it because I don't have sharp eyes like them. I don't have a high sensitivity and sharp hearing. I am no far from an ordinary human being.
Without noticing, I spent more than an hour folding the mountain of clothes.
"Remind me tomorrow to buy some groceries honey. It's terrible that I forgot things. I am literally getting old." I heard mom suddenly complained as they are entering the main door. "Honey, were home!"
"I'm in the living room mom!" I answered back and stood up leaving the folded clothes on the coffee table.
I immediately ran towards them and saw them carrying their office bags and some plastic bags that I guess, it was from their office mate who went to the main city for a vacation and bought some souvenirs.
"Is that souvenirs mom? Hello dad!" I greeted and kiss them on their cheek.
"Hello my beautiful daughter." My dad responded and he placed his brown trench coat at the rack.
"Yes, Maddie brought this from her trip. These are dried mangoes, sweet almonds and salted eggs. She said they are from the human community." Mom answered so I immediately grab the plastic bag and curiously looked inside.
It has a lot of packets and a box that I guess it's the salted eggs. I have tried eating human food before and it's not far delicious from our food.
"Can I taste mom?" I asked excitedly. How can I not?If I can smell already the sweet tangy taste of the dried mango.
"Yes, but after we have dinner. It's not good for you to eat it with empty stomach." She responded.
I pouted. "But mom, that's why I have to eat it so that I can put something in my empty stomach." I reasoned. Mom is always like this. Very historical and her beliefs sounds like from ancient time. Unlike with other parents, it's kinda modern—but still I love her more than anything in this world.
She shook her head. "Nope. I said, you'll eat it after we have dinner."
"Okay mom." I sighed in defeat. They still treat me like a kid, but somehow I like it. Because it's difficult if they will treat me like an adult already. Being an adult has a lot of responsibility and pressures. I just can't imagine them pushing me to marry someone and have pups. The thought gives me shivers every time I think about it.
I went back to the living room to continue folding the clothes. My parents did their usual routine after their work. Ironing clothes, doing the laundry and checking the kitchen stocks. There is a time I did the laundry but I ended up flooding our whole laundry room and since then, mom forbid me from touching the machine.
I am just lucky that I did not accidentally broke the washing machine, or else mom will surely gonna kill me.
I jumped from my seat when I heard the alarm beeping from the kitchen. So I ran and put the fire off. I don't want the food to be soiled. So I put the chicken in a large platter and our dinner already started.