I hadn't left my room for the last two days.
Phoenix was furious with me, Chad was furious with everyone. There is a horrible atmosphere here now. It was full of hate and disdain.
I couldn't bring myself to look at Amber, Ethan or Jeremy. They were nice to me, but I knew how they felt about Chad and me.
I could feel them judging me.
Judging me for being with Chad, and not Phoenix.
I knew what they meant. I thought my first time would be with Phoenix too, and that's because of the tension we shared.
We were always so close to being together, but never actually got there.
I didn't even think about Phoenix when I was with Chad and that broke me.
Why hadn't I?
When I was with Phoenix at the cabin, all I could think about was Chad.
Why?
I was the worst mate ever.
And now the
