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i decide to sit down on the floor infront of everyone. why am i doing this again. does it matter what she thinks. all 4 of them turn to face me and sit in silence waiting for me to start talking. were do i start yestday morning the day it started i start to over think when jasmin saw " its okay you dont have to tell us anything your not ready too." i abit taken aback by what she said. i couldnt belive someone said i didnt have todo anything i didnt want to i sat their stunned for a good few seconds.
i decided i would start from when granddad died. start with the worst i suppose at least that way the triplets would see im no good to be their mate i mean who in their right mind would choose me anyway. i start talking knowing ive never said half of what im about to say out loud because that meant it was real and i couldnt pretend it was a story i heard once . i take a deep breath and start my very long horrible life story
" i dont really remember alot growing up especially before i was 7. when i was 8 my mom and had split like i said my mom had an affair my dad found out he went mad and my mom left and moved with in the other bloke. me and my sister stayed with my dad to start with. my dad hat to start working longer hours to deal with everything. so he got his old army mates son to baby sit us after school. my older sister and little sister would go out and play with the friend before i even got changed. one day while i was getting changed sam was watching me from the door that's the baby sitter sam, anyway he came in my room and told me if i didnt do what he told me he would tell my dad some sh*t about me that my dad would believe and he would send me away, and me being 8 believed every word. so i just nodded my head. He told me to go down stairs and lock the door and to close the curtains" the 3 alphas start growling and so did jaz i smiled weekly but carried on " before u get to angry their is a silver linin not that you would see one but i do and he told me to pull down my undies and to lie on the couch so i did. he came down staires shortly after. he knelt down and took his d**k out and lined up with my parting i just stared at the ceiling praying this would be over fast he asked me if it was in and just nodded my head, i was 8 like i knew what was happening i would later find out sam was not a bright man and he never penetrated me thankfully. this happened more or less every day for about year. i tryed to tell my dad but all he said i shouldnt tell such disgusting lies. at some point sam stopped coming round so i thought the nightmare ended but no i went to my dads moms one after noon as my dad asked to take something round so i did. i knocked on the door and my uncle answered the door i dont know exactly how it happened but i was laid on the kitchen floor with his head between my legs and him telling me i would never let him do this when i get bigger. i never said a word. all i kept thinking is how do i keep getting myself into these situations how am i so dump not to realize that putting myself in these situations is a bad thing" jaz was crying at this point with her hands over her her mouth. felix was raw red with anger alex was slowly getting up to sit next to me and micheal was allready behind me holding me i quess i started crying at some stage but i hat to carry on " Anyway we moved in with my mom and thats were the fun starts. i started doing martial art after the hole sam thing ya know thinking if something like that ever happened again i could protect myself but obviously it didnt help. here comes the demon and she devil them selves. a step sister that would beat me daily and a step dad that would do the same my older sister joined in my little sister never said a word if she did they would hurt her to. i wasn't going to let them hurt my sweet little sister i would do anything for her to stay happy and innocent." i just sat their crying for ages being held buy all 3 brothers now being told it was okay, that it was never going to happen again
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