Chapter one
I used to think survival was just… routine.
Wake up. Work. Pretend you’re fine. Sleep. Repeat.
Simple system. Very stable. Mild emotional damage.
Then life said, “cute theory,” and deleted it.
I woke up late.
Not “soft alarm didn’t ring” late.
No.
This was “your alarm rang, you negotiated with it, and lost the argument” late.
“Okay—okay—I’m up,” I groaned at my ceiling like it had personally offended me.
It said nothing.
Rude.
I rolled out of bed, grabbed clothes without thinking, and started dressing while walking like my life depended on multitasking alone.
Which… it kind of did.
“Elena!” my landlord’s voice called from the other side of the apartment. “About the rent—”
I froze for half a second.
Then continued dressing faster.
“I hear you!” I called back. “I’m thinking about it aggressively!”
Translation: I had no idea what I was going to do.
But I said it with confidence.
That’s what matters.
Outside, New York was already doing the most.
Honking. Yelling. Someone arguing on speakerphone like it was a live performance.
I stepped onto the sidewalk and immediately felt attacked by the city.
“Subway,” I muttered. “Please don’t ruin my life today.”
It ruined my life.
Of course it did.
Delayed train.
Packed platform.
Someone stepped on my shoe.
“Ah!” I turned. “Wow. First act of violence this morning, nice.”
No apology.
Expected.
A stranger bumped my shoulder.
I nodded.
“Very on brand of you,” I muttered.
By the time I reached my workplace building, I was already negotiating with fate.
I rushed inside, swiped my access card, and prayed nobody noticed I was speed-running life itself.
Inside, everything was too clean.
Too quiet.
Too expensive.
The kind of place where even the air feels like it has a salary.
I sat down, opened my laptop, and immediately felt it.
Something was wrong.
Three emails.
All from my manager.
No greeting.
Just:
“Fix this.”
“Redo this.”
“Explain this.”
I blinked.
“Good morning to you too, emotional damage,” I muttered.
I opened the files.
And I worked.
And worked.
And double-checked everything like my life depended on it.
Because it did.
By the end, my eyes burned.
But it was done.
Perfect.
Probably.
That’s what I thought.
“Come in.”
His voice wasn’t angry.
Which was worse.
Angry is noise. Calm is danger.
I stood up and walked in.
My manager didn’t even look at me properly. Just pointed at a document like it had personally insulted him.
“Do you see this?” he asked.
“Yes,” I said. “Unfortunately.”
He frowned. “It’s still wrong.”
I blinked.
“That’s interesting,” I said slowly. “Because I fixed it. With effort. And emotional suffering.”
No reaction.
Of course.
I tried again.
“I stayed late for this.”
He leaned back. “Staying late doesn’t fix repeated mistakes.”
That word.
Repeated.
Something in me shifted.
“I didn’t make the mistake,” I said.
Silence.
The room changed immediately.
Even the air felt like it was holding its breath.
He looked at me.
“Excuse me?”
I should’ve stopped.
But apparently my survival instincts were on lunch break.
“I said I didn’t make the mistake,” I repeated calmly. “Unless my laptop developed personality and started editing files on its own, then we have bigger problems.”
A pause.
Somewhere outside the office, someone coughed like they were trying not to laugh.
Wrong timing.
Respectful attempt.
My manager stood up.
“Maybe you should take the rest of the day off.”
Ah.
Corporate for you are no longer welcome here.
“We’ll discuss your position later.”
Later.
That word never means later.
It means never again in this building.
I nodded.
“Got it,” I said. Then added, because my mouth has no fear:
“Should I also take my dignity with me or leave it here?”
No response.
Expected.
I turned and walked out.
Before my brain could schedule regret.
Outside, New York was still moving like nothing had just happened to me.
People were laughing.
Selling things.
Living like they didn’t just witness a small personal disaster.
I stood there for a moment.
Then sighed.
“Well,” I muttered, “that went beautifully. Ten out of ten. Would not recommend.”
My phone buzzed.
I ignored it.
Bills don’t care about character development.
I sat on a nearby bench, staring at the street.
Not crying.
Just recalibrating.
“Okay Elena,” I said under my breath. “We survive. Again. Unfortunately.”
And for now…
That was enough.