My Fairy Tale with the Alpha

Chapter 2 Ian's POV

My whole life has been planned for me since before I was even born. I am the only son of the Alpha of the Horizon Moon pack, and that has caused a lot of expectations of me. I was mated to my childhood best friend Alana, and we have been excited for our bond to activate since we were young. Were now seniors in high school, and will be married the summer after graduation. We will go to college together for business, and when we graduate, we will ascend to Alpha and Luna of the pack. We are expected to produce aires after marriage, but I'm losing faith that our bond will ever give us the burning desire to do so. My best friend can not keep his paws off his mate. They are literally inseparable. I hear that's what the mate bond should feel like, but I've never experienced it.

As an Alpha, I would never question the Goddesses' words, so I believe it will happen. Some say maybe I should make love to my mate to connect our wolves, but for some reason, in my heart, that just doesn't feel right.

Alana is everything you could want in a mate, but I can not help but feel like something is missing. My heart does not beat only for her, I can not feel her through the mate bond. I know she feels this, but we both leave these things left unspoken. She is head chearleader, and I'm captain of the football team, so we both stay busy.

I can not imagine the pressure she must be under planning a wedding while still in high school, and all I have to do is show up. She consults me on things like color schemes and food, but I don't have much of an opinion on any of it. The rest of our friends will wait until after college to marry their mates. This allows them to prepare if they have to leave the pack. I envy them, although they would marry tomorrow, at least they have a choice as to when. The only uncertainty in their lives is what rank they will be when I ascend to Alpha.

My best friend Nate will likely be my beta as he is the one I trust the most. My other ranks will be split up among the pack members. It is not all about being best friends but also about strengths and loyalty. My father advises me a lot on how to recognize strengths and weaknesses. I wish I could openly speak to him without judgment and ask him why I feel this way about my mate. That would only make him think me weak and unfit, orworse, disloyal to the goddess herself.