Twin Wolves

Chapter 9: Grieving and Reunion

I wake up in the hide out. It's been almost a day. I change my clothes and go and take over for my gamma. Jarred has always been stubborn. So I didn't expect him to give in as quickly as he did. But he didn't go lay down.

I sigh "What is it Jarred?"

He approached me slowly and carefully. "You were bleeding in your sleep. The beta's wife's helped you. I'm sorry but the twins didn't make it. They have them in the room next to the kitchen. If you want to say goodbye to them." He says laying his hand on my shoulder. I see a tear slide down his face.

"Thank you Jarred. But they will have a funeral just like anyone else in our pack who has died." I say as a few tears escape. Jarred squeezes my shoulder and then goes lay down.

"Jazzy where are you? I really need you here right now. There's something you have to know." I mind link him as I stand there crying silently.

"I'm sorry babe we were cleaning up all of the dead rogues we didn't have any dead. We got very lucky. I'll be there soon I promise." He says feeling my emotions. "What's wrong baby?"

I let out a few sobs but try to keep quiet I don't want to wake anyone who is sleeping. "Your wrong on the no one dead in our pack. I'll tell you more when you get here." I say to him Letting out more tears.

I'm sitting at the table eating. Or more like playing with my food. I didn't even hear the cottage door open and people walk in. As I'm moving the food around on the plat arms go over my shoulders. I jump like a mile in the air. I guess I should of been paying more attention. At least it's just Jazzy. "What's going on baby? Why are you crying?" I don't answer him I just sit there crying even harder. Jazzy lifts me from my chair and sits down with me on his lap. "Please tell me what is the matter." I still don't answer him.

I get up pulling him up with me and take him into the next room where the betas wife's out the twins. I take him over to them. He practically falls to the ground pulling me down with him. We just sit there for what feels like forever just crying.

There's a quiet knock on the door. We don't say anything. We just sit there holding each other. The door starts to open and someone is slowly walking in. I can tell it's Zayran, Lyndy, Jarred, Alice, Marry, Beth, Bob, and Lewis.

"We got to get going. We need to bury our dead and put their families at ease." Zayran says coming closer then the others do. He is doing it slowly as to not set one of us off. He bends down slowly and carefully touches my shoulder. "They are beautiful why don't we go bury them too. You guys need to grieve and mourn for you loss." He says sweetly. I look up at him and he just gives me a smile telling me it would be ok.

"Ok. But no one touches them." My wolf says as she's taken over to look at her dead pups. She's still very protective over them.

"Ok. No one has to touch them. But you can't carry both of them. Why don't you let your mate help you?" Zayran says. Not trying to push my wolf as she could very well try to kill anyone at this point and time.

"Ok. They are his pups too." She says through clenched teeth. Jasper touches her shoulder to get her to calm down. She gives me back control.

"I'm sorry. She's very upset with the lose. I'll try to keep her under control. I'm sorry Zayran I should of kept her in she wanted to hurt you and everyone for coming in and interrupting us." Is all I can manage to say before I just go silent. My wolf and I blame ourselves for the lose of the twins.

"It's ok. Lyndy and I understand what you guys are going through. We still haven't buried ours yet. Hospital wanted to see if they could find out what went wrong as everything was going perfectly fine till just a few days ago." He says shedding some tears.

"That's when we stopped feeling them and hearing their heart beats." I say sadly.

We all sit in silence for a few moments then one of the betas wife's goes and gets 2 box's with latches and handles so then our wolf forms could carry the babies with out hurting them. Yes I know they are dead but we don't want to put teeth marks and holes in them.

I'm the first one to shift. I pick up Aidan's chest box and wait patiently for the others. When everyone has shifted we all make our way out the door. We make our way towards the pack house. Zayran and Lyndy heads towards their house and we all decide to follow them. They stop at their back door and pick two little boxes just like ours. I couldn't help but let out a whine. We all wait till the get back to the group before we take back off towards the pack house.

It takes us 10 minutes from Zayran's house to the pack house. Close to everyone in the pack is outside. They are all just looking at us.

I lower my head so that I can't see the looks on everyone's faces. All of a sudden there is someone petting me on my side as I walk on past them. I look up at them and they bow their head at me and tell me they are sorry for our loss. I keep my head up as I continue to walk past my pack members everyone that I pass pets my side and and says they are sorry for my loss. Believe it or not I'm glad that they all did this as it feels like the loss of my pups is being taken off and shared with everyone. In a way it's helping with the grieving process.

We decided to go straight to the cemetery to bury the 4 pups. The only ones we lost out of the whole pack were the unborn sets of twins. I'm very grateful that we didn't lose anyone else it'd make this a lot harder as we'd be saying our goodbyes to not just the unborn but to those that we knew very well. There isn't anyone in this pack that I don't know. I hate funerals but we have to say our goodbyes and let the grieving process begin and end.

I walk up to Zayran's and Lyndy's pups coffins and place a kiss onto the coffin and lay a blue rose onto the each coffin. I hug my brother and his mate and tell them that I'm sorry for their loss. I walk over to where my pups coffins are. I go to the ground and start crying. Someone comes and sits next to me and just wraps their arms around me. It's not Jasper he's over with his parents explaining the stress and attacks I have been through also all of the meds as well all could be why I lost my pups. I lean into the person holding me. That's when I get a good whiff of their sent and realize who it is. It's my younger brother Aiden who joined the Marines about 5 years ago. He is finally home and hopefully this time for good. I wrap why arms around him and this time I start crying happy tears. I have missed him so much. he wasn't even home when I found my mate nor when I became Luna and Zayran became Alpha. I have a lot of filling in to do it is my duties at Luna to keep him in the know of things happening in the pack.

It's been a few hours sense the funeral of the pups. It still hurts but not as bad as before. I'm sitting in the office waiting for Aiden to come in so then I can let him know of everything that has been happening in the pack.

There's a knock on the office door. I tell whoever it is on the other side to come in. Next thing I know is I'm being lunged at and then it all goes black.