To End The World

I was swinging back and forth feeling the gentle breeze pass by me. I looked up to his side and met a pair of ash grey eyes smiling at me. His eyes were shining bright and you can see the affection he feels to the person he's looking at. I saw my reflection in those eyes, I too, was smiling. I looked up to the sky and saw white fluffy clouds. "It's funny isn't it? Beneath those happy clouds lives a world full of cruelty and suffering." I chuckled. "I don't think we can survive this." I mumbled and looked down. I continued swinging but stopped when he spoke. "We'll survive. I know we can." He stopped for a moment to find the right words to say. "There's still hope, Aria. You're my hope." I looked at him again, he was still smiling but his smile won't reach his eyes. I knew he was hurting inside. "I want to die." The words slipped out of my mouth. I spoke too soon. I knew those words would hurt him but it was how I really felt. I really wanted to die. I couldn't bear the pain anymore. His smile faltered. His face went blank. "You can't die." He said and forced a smile. "You won't die. I'll die first before you do. We're a team right? In this team I'm the rock who supports all of you. I won't die so you'll never die. I'll always be protecting you, Aria. Remember that." I looked up at the sky again. The clouds looked so happy above. I wonder, when can we ever be happy? Is it when we die and be in the heavens above? Would heaven even accept me even after all the sins I have done? "I love you, Aria. So please..." I looked at him, his eyes were teary. Tears were threatening to fall but I know he's trying his best to keep them. "Don't die. I don't know what I'd do without you." I couldn't look at him so I stared at the ground. I knew he was crying now. I can hear his gentle sobs. I don't want to see him crying, I feel like crying too. I felt something wet drop on my hands. I thought it was raining, I thought that finally the clouds felt sad looking at this world below them. I thought that they finally realized how cruel this world can be and the suffering it gives. But no, they weren't. They were my tears.