Hope, Pain And Love

Someone once said hope is going to sleep at night without knowing if we would be alive the next day but we set the alarm anyway. Hope is getting out of bed everyday even though its hard to breath but you fight anyway we hope anyway. The day my world came crashing down I felt this way I struggled to breath but I got up any way I got out of bed washed my face anyway because I hoped for a better day. Even though I knew it wouldnt have came today or tomorrow but slowly you believe in that hope will bring you an easier day that its not so hard to breath. Everyone has life changing moments that make it hard to breath and make you not want to wake up some happen sooner than later some are harder than other but you keep believing in hope you know why because in hope everything is possible and hope never dies. People say you don't have anything if we don't have hope. You have to hope for a better day even thought its hard to see the hope and the light in the darkness still hope any way still hope for that better day because if you don't you will lose your self in this crazy world. When you start to believe in hope every day gets better because you kept fighting you kept believe in hope you kept taking one step at a time you kept breathing one breathe at a time. So keep getting out of bed keep taking those long showers keep hoping for the sun to rise again because soon the pain will slowly back off even if it never goes away but it becomes a dull pain. Someone once said let it hurt, let it bring it to your knees. You have to feel the pain before you can heal and grow into a different person. Its hard someday the pain keeps you from getting out of bed the pain has you crying when your laughing, the pain makes you feel alone even when your surrounded by people who love you the most. When your in the days where the pain is to much to bear feel it, let it break you let the tears roll because you are human and the pain shows your human. So just because your heart is full of pain don't mean you can't hope. Just breathe and take the day on the pain will turn into a dull pain and it becomes easier for you to breathe so take a deep breathe get out of bed and get in the shower wash away the bad day even if it doesnt wash the pain away you will feel better. They say pain is a sign of weakness, but I believe they are wrong i believe pain helps a person grow. I believe everyone has some kind of pain that they have buried down deep. Somedays the pain is so unbearable that it hurst to breath that you struggle to even take a deep breathe because you know if you do you the pain will consume you and your left in the dark thats what pain makes you feel like like your alone and no one knows how you feel. There is all types of pain. There is pain from grief which is hard because that pain stays with you sure you learn how to tuck that pain away but something happens a song or a smell and it brings all that pain you worked so hard to lock away with a key in a box in the back of your mind. This pain gets passed down to the next person and the next person. There is pain from feeling so alone even when your surrounded by the people who love you the most yeah they are looking at you and listening to you but you feel like they are looking right passed you and everything you tell them just goes through one ear and out the other. See that pain is hard to because no matter how hard you want to be seen or heard it's like your a ghost and your talking to a brick wall. There is pain from wanting someone to be so proud of you and wanting them to tell you I'm proud of you but as much as you do and do you feel like it or your isn't good enough but you are good enough what you do in life is good enough as long as your proud of your self that's all that matters. Someone once said you find three great loves in your life. Your first love you are young and foolish and believe it's going to last forever and with that love you find that love never last forever. that is your first heartbreak. with your first heartbreak you believe you will never love again that you don't want to let another person in to see who you are under all the layers. Then you move on and someone else comes and they sweep you off your feet and you let them in but that love is your toxic love the one that teaches you a bunch of lessons that you didn't know you needed to learn that love is your hardest heartbreak because you have to unlearn all the toxic behaviors you have learned to hide behind with that love you keep going back because after a while you believe that is what you deserve in love. then your third love comes when you least expect it to when your closed off and don't want to love again because your peace is so much more important than having someone break you again. Then they come along and save you from your self and your so consumed in them that you completely open up and for the first time you finally know what real love it.