My Undoing

ALL INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY OF THIS STORY AS WELL AS ANY STORY THAT WAS CREATED BY ME, KIMBERLY DE LA CRUZ BELONGS TO ME AND UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES IS TO PRODUCED OR USED WITHOUT MY PERMISSION OR USED UNDER A DIFFERENT NAME OR TITLE.THIS PROPERTY DOES NOT AND CAN NOT BE OWNED,SOLD OR PROMOTED AS SOMEONE(S) ELSES PROMISSION OR UNDER THEIR PROPERTY.THEREFOR CAN NOT BE CHANGED OR EDITED FOR ANY REASON Olivia Olivia unlocked the door to her small, cramped apartment, dropping her bag and keys on the table she took a deep breath. "What the hell is wrong with me" .She chewed her bottom lip as she tried not to replay that night's events, but couldn't help it. They were playing over and over in her head, she could still tastes him on her lips, smell him in her hair. she needed to wash him away, try to get him out of her head and off her body.She made her way to the bathroom dragging her feet because a part of her didn't want to forget.. ..."I've tried to stop myself everytime, but when it comes to Leo... I can't help myself. No matter how far he pushed me over my edge, or hurt me... I always go back to him for more.... What is wrong with me," She took a good look at herself, she was disheveled, her brown curls were tangled, her eyes were rimmed with smeared eyeliner and her lip....her lips, he made sure to leave his mark there;were raw and swollen......."Why did I let him do the things he did to my body, my heart, my mind and allow him access to every inch of my body, only for him to do the unspeakable and break me... and still come back for more..." She turned the shower on and started to undress when she noticed the bruise on the small of her back. Olivia looked in the mirror with utter disbelief and disgust as the steam filled the bathroom, she knew exactly why... because she loved him dispite everything. But also who could love someone like her? She was just a fat, plain nobody, his dirty secret his shame, why else would he treat her like she was less than...... She couldn't stand to look at herself anymore and stepped into the tub, the water was scolding hot but she felt like she need to punish herself a little. She tried to scrub as hard as she could to get Leo... her lion off of her. When her skin was raw and she couldn't take anymore, she stepped out and look herself over. Her dark green eyes looked empty and her normally tan skin was pale..... "I can't be weak again, I just... can't..." She took a deep breath and put on her oversized tee and a pair of sweats and decided to burry herself in blankets. " I just need to shut everything out... " she repeated to herself over and over again. Then she noticed her phone vibrating...." Don't look at it ... don't I know it's him".... Text- Leo: Hey had a great time, next time, don't come through the front what if someone saw u... and don't wear any underwear...;). Olivia reread the message a few times before chucking it on the floor..."Why did I sleep with him again, I need to stay away, but i can't..." She thought a long while before finally passing out.....She knew she had to face him tomorrow and couldn't afford to stay home and miss work. She hated her job but needed the money. She knew tomorrow would be no different no matter how hard she fought it.... but he was her undoing....