Endless pain

Chapter 6

I don't know how much more I can take or how many more smiles can I fake everyday when I know I'm about to break. Waking up to the same nightmares on your mind but with the same thoughts you think everyday. This horrible f*****g feeling of tiredness and exhaustion is doing my f*****g head in. The water trickling down my back is so peaceful yet my boom box is making me go deaf but I don't mind. As my back slides down the tiled wall in my bathroom, well my body finally hits the floor. I'm always Sitting on the shower floor trying to figure things out like it's somehow going to get a little bit easier day by day. When I finally get out of the shower it's already seven am, f**k I'm gonna be late to school but that's nothing new for me. By the time i ride my bike to school and go through the drive through at Starbucks I buy one large chocolate whipped cream 3 sugars 2 shots of caffeine for my coffee to go. As I put my coffee in my basket on my aqua bike I ride slowly the rest of the way to school and as I pull up I already know that missed the first class of the day. So I walk through the door and go take my seat in the back row, give me a kill-switch to turn off my emotions for this class because it's Miss Wires I wonder what she's got in store for us today. I look at Luna and Grace as they are sitting in front of me, our teacher finally arrives then someone walks in behind her. As she starts speaking I tell myself f**k it, I shove my headphones in as I start drawing on my design page not caring about anything to do with this lesson. Halfway through the class I take a massive sip of the last bit of my coffee then I look towards Grace who gives me a look that says take out your headphones b***h so I do just that. "Sa5m what do you think about all this, do I have to repeat it more times then three" I have no idea what the f**k is happening god dam it. I take off my hoodie as I stretch out and c***k my neck "I have absolutely no clue what's happening but if I did know I still wouldn't tell you anyways Miss Wires". She gives me one of those looks then says "detention" I smile and say "awesome can't wait" then I see the person standing next to her I recognise him straight away. it's the guy from the art event but this time he's wearing a deep dark blue suit kind of matching his green aqua eyes he still looks hella good tho. After the bell rings I notice that I am definitely ditching detention for today but i have another class after this decisions, decisions. As everyone leaves the class I get up, go down the three steps then I'm behind Grace and Luna. As I go past the guy whose name I still don't know he's taking down his artwork and one of the pieces is the one I called useless. "You should just burn the artwork because that jar one still looks ugly as f**k and always will be" he turns around and stares at me as I smile and walk out the door. it's now lunchtime this means I need to ditch quickly I see my group of friends as I quickly run up to them "I'm sorry I got to love you guys and leave you, I'm skipping detention, text you guys later bye". I run to my bike and decided instead of going straight home I'll go to the park instead because why not. As soon as I get there I rest my bike against a picnic table and sit down on the table top watching the river in front of it and just taking in the view. Well it was peaceful until someone's voice breaks the silence "so your name is Sa5m what's with the five in your name anyway". I turn to see who the voice belongs to it's the same guy in the blue suit with messy blonde hair what is with this guy. "What your stalking me now is that it" he sits beside me on the table and looks at me trying to figure me out like he knows my soul but he doesn't. "You didn't answer my question" I laugh as I say "well you didn't answer mine so I guess were even" I pull out my rolled up joint I was saving but now seems like a good time to smoke it. We sit in silence as I light it up and start smoking I look towards him as he says "are you smoking w**d right now" I shrug and say "yeah why's that you want some too". He looks at the joint in my hand then shakes his head in a no so when I've finished it I toss it on the ground and step on it. When I take my seat again beside him he is staring straight ahead "so really I want to know why the five is in your name and no I'm not stalking you". Why does everyone ask me about the five in my name maybe my name really is fascinating to other "the five is silent and what's your name that's only fair right". This guy runs his hand through his already messy blond hair "my names Rory and I said no to the joint because drugs are not really my thing". Well he must surely hate hanging out with me because I take a lot of drugs but I don't tell him that and I don't tell him why maybe I'll get clean one day. "That's fine by me Rory" we sit there and talk for awhile about random things until I turn to leave and say "see you around Rory" and he yells as I ride away "see you soon Sa5m" whatever that means to be honest I really don't care I just can't wait to go home and relax. Xxx