BUTTERFLY

messenger

I decided to ignore the request because I didn't knew anything about him. But also I think I should because I just agreed to be friends but it didn't feel right to just accept it now. If things go wrong I can always say that I am not so active on social media. And with that thought I retire to bed . 

Next morning I wake up late like usual. I didn't have time to walk home so asked my sister to drop me . My sister is a year ahead of me and goes to high school. I reached the school gates and was greeted by Millie and just as she saw she came striding towards me and looked angry??

"What I mean why didn't you accept his follow request" I asked . Becky looked at me confused and I gave her look which meant 'I will explain later' . "I didn't see it" I lied very easily. Becky looked even more confused and if there wasn't so much tension in the air I would have been laughing at her. "Okay just accept it later he made it difficult for me to even breath" she said and I nodded telling her that I will do it later

The classes went so slowly today as if the time was passing away at a speed of a turtle . In lunch I was looking for a empty table to sit at when Alex waves at me and asked me to come sit with him . I nodded to go sit with him . He told the guy who was sitting beside him to move and gestured me to sit there . I went and sit there without saying a word. 

" hey" I said . Everyone looked at me as if judging me and then went back to do whatever they were doing .

"So what did you think about the party this Friday" one girl who I didn't know spoke up. And then they were talking about random stuff about partying, clubbing, drinking, and other stuff I didn't care about. Alex also doesn't actually seem to care that I was present there . I was feeling out of the place . All my life never have I been to a party , neither did I drink so at that moment sitting there with all of them I really felt like I didn't belonged there . Cause maybe I didn't. I couldn't even remember that why was I here in the first place . I knew that maybe I can Alex my friend but I will always be very different to him . 

I quickly finished my lunch and got up to leave not even sparing a balance back at them . As I was about to exit the cafeteria Millie stops me " he wants you back there why did you leave"

I was really not in a mood to have a conversation with her about why did I leave " why can't you just stop being a messenger of Alex it's not like he is paying you or something and nobody wanted me there so I think it was for the best" 

Hearing this her face fell and she looked towards where Alex and his arrogant friends where . I didn't like his friends. But who was I to say something on that 

"I am trying really hard to fit in you know." She said I knew what she was talking about. Back at the table no one seemed to be interested in her too. It was as if she was just there because she wanted not anyone else. "Then you should not hang out with them. You should not hang out somewhere you are not wanted" and with that I turned on my heels and left

Later that evening I went to my sister she was typing away on her laptop. She was always all work and no play . I had to take her dinner to her room because she was busy. She looked up from her laptop when she saw me come into her room. All these she was my only friend I shared everything with her that happened in my life which wasn't much anyways. 

"You have explaining to do" she said obviously talking about what happened earlier in the day. I took a seat next to her . "I had told about this guy so he just sends Millie instead of coming himself and last night I got a request from him which I ignored because I don't know him that well"

After hanging out today I can say the same because we actually didn't get any time to talk not that I actually wanted to but still isn't that what you do when you want to make new friends. 

I sighed. Becky knew there was more but she didn't ask but I still decided to tell her "when in lunch called me to his table none of his introduced themselves to me and neither was he talking to me. I really felt out of the place well the thing is that I knew that I don't but having it all practical was a bit too much" she chuckled. She was just like me in school but she seemed not to mind it anymore whereas I sometimes felt like it would nice to have someone to hang out with in school. I guess time will fix that . 

I gave her dinner and talked a little more to her about literally anything that came into my mind . Then finally went to my bed

Next day Millie was again there at the gate but today I decided it's better if I don't involve myself with her and walked past her but she came running back towards me "morning" she wished. I looked at her her hair were really long and also very brown which looked really good with her blue eyes "good morning" I said . And then we went together to first her locker and then to mine to get the books we will be needing and all the which she kept talking as if there was no stop button to stop her from talking.