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Seraphina POV

Seraphina POV

I walked out our room and I found my dad walking down the hall and I asked him if Luciano was still in his office and he said yes, he was. He asked me if I was okay and I told him no that I am not, and I have a lot to think about right now. He said to not make any rash decisions yet and to talk it out. He told me that this is all new for him as well and I told him really, so you are going to tell me that he has not been making any decisions this whole time that he has been gone? My dad looked at me and he said this is his rightful place but, in the beginning, he wasn’t making the decision because he was still young and wasn’t of age at the time. He was still mourning for his family and his head was not in the right place. He told me that his place was supposed to be second in command and that during that time he was still having to look for me try and figure out who took me. He said that everyone was going through a lot at that time and everyone lost someone. He told me to please go easy on him and that Luciano has a huge weight on his shoulders and that he is going to need someone by his side who is just as strong to be there for him. I looked at my dad and I nodded my head at him, and I walked away. My dad gave me a lot to think about and I know that Luciano and I both lost a lot in our lives and I am not being fair to him. The first time we are being tested in our relationship and I am ready to jump ship just because it seemed hard. I felt like s**t and I went up to his office and I knocked on his door and I heard him say come in and I walked in and I looked at him and he said hey how are you. I stood by the door and I could feel the lump in my throat, and he got up and he walked towards me and he pulled me into his arms, and I wrapped my arms around him and we just held each other. Neither one of us not wanting to say anything and I finally cleared my throat and I told him that I am sorry. He told me that he is sorry too and he said that maybe I am better off not being with him so that at least me and the baby will be safe away from him.  I looked up at him and I said is that what you really want? He said no but maybe it’s for the best so that at least we will both be safe and have a good life. I looked at him and I could feel my eyes tearing up and I told him so that means that you are allowing me to walk away from him and another man can come make love to me and take me away and raise his baby? He looked at me and I could feel his hands tighten on my arms. He looked at me and he said no that no matter what I am still his and no other man will ever take what is his. He said that he will kill that motherfucker before he takes what belongs to him and no other man will ever raise his child. I smirked up at him and he looked at me and rolled his eyes at me and he said what the f**k am I going to do with you Seraphina. I told him that he is going to love me and take care of both me and his baby and that we are not going to go anywhere. He looked at me and he said really, and I nodded my head at him and smiled. He pulled me into his chest and hugged me hard, he said that I should be punished for even thinking about another man taking what belongs to him.

He clicked a button on the desk, and I heard a click and I told him what was that sound and he said that he locked the door so that we will not be disturbed. He smirked at me and he bent me over his desk, and he lifted my dress up around my waist and got down on his knees, he reached into my panties and he started to rub my c**t and he slid his fingers into my p***y and started to fingerfuck me and flick his tongue over my c**t. I started to moan against him and once he got me wet he stood up and he unbuckled his pants and slid them down with his boxers and he pulled his c**k out and slipped deep inside of me and he started to f**k me hard and fast. He spanked my ass, and I screamed, and he said that was for my talking about another man making love to me. He spanked me again and he said that is for trying to say that another man is going to raise his baby. He spanked me again and he said that is for even thinking of walking away from him. He f****d me hard and fast and he held on to my hips and he was hitting my g-spot over and over. I was screaming so loud and I told him baby I am going to c*m and he leaned forward, and he sucked on the side of my neck and he told me c*m for me baby now. I screamed his name and I came all over his c**k and he thrust into me three more times before he stilled behind me and gripped my hips hard. He leaned forward against me and he was breathing hard against my neck. He pulled out of me and he sat on the chair and pulled me into his laps and held me in his arms. He said that he loves me and to please never think of leaving him again. He said that he could never live without me and he said that he would rather die then live without me in this lifetime. I looked at him and I told him that I couldn’t live without him either. I started crying and he asked baby why you are crying, and I told him that I just don’t want anything to happen to him or to our baby. He said that he will never let anything happen to us and he would protect us with his life. I told him that I would do the same thing for him too. I told him that I want to learn how to shoot and to be trained as well. He looked at me and he stayed quiet for a little bit and he said well you know how to kick ass already so he said that he will teach me how to shoot as well. He said that I have to promise that I will be careful at all times and that my first priority is our baby. He said should anything ever happen that we are in danger that I am to leave him behind and protect myself and the baby. I looked at him and I was going to say no, and he said Seraphina I am being serious. He said you have to promise me! I looked at him and everything inside me was screaming at me to say no but I knew that he was being serious with me and I had to tell him that I agreed with him. f**k I hate this s**t and I told him that no matter what anything should ever happen to him I would kill everyone in my fuckin path. He leaned his forehead against mine and he said I know baby and I would do the same for you too and our baby. He kissed me and held me in his arms.

A few weeks have passed, and I am getting familiar with how things operate around here. All the guys that came with us have stayed here and were trained to be bodyguards and I am happy that they stayed. They are like my brothers and some of them are now my personal bodyguards and it is easier on Luciano because he knows how they feel about me and that they would do anything to protect me and our baby. When we announced that I was pregnant to everyone all of them congratulated us and they were so happy, and I am proud to say that our baby will have a lot of overprotective uncles. They have all settled in with ease and for the first time I feel like I have a huge family now and I feel at home.  Tomorrow is our introduction to the mafia world, and we will also be introducing me has the next Donna and our engagement. I am hoping that everything will go off without any drama. I have been so busy with ordering supplies, dealing with different food vendors and place settings. We are going to be expecting at least 450 people and it will be held outdoors in the back of our home. It feels so weird to say our home when this place is like a freaking castle, but I love my home so much! Luciano and my dad have been handling all the security measures and weapon checks. I have not been able to really spend any time with Luciano except in the nights and that is when he is mine. I was with my mom going over the planning for the party when we heard a knock on the door, one of the maids went to open it up and some girl walked in like she owned the place and I lifted my brow at her and I asked her if I could help her. She said that she is looking for Luciano and I asked okay and who might you be? She said that she is his girlfriend Liliana, and that she has been waiting for him to come back all this time. I snorted and I told her well I am his soon to be wife and the mother of his child. She looked at me up and down and rolled her eyes at me and she said under her breath not for long. I heard this b***h loud and clear, and I was going to walk towards her, and my mother pulled me to the side, and I looked at her and I asked her is she is telling the truth. My mom looked down and then up at me and she said she is telling the truth, but this family is dirty in their dealings. I looked at her and I told her I will be damned if this b***h thinks that she is going to take my man from me. My mom looked at me and she said for me to be careful. I looked at her and I said okay I will.

I went back out to the living room area only to find that she is not there, so I hurried up the stairs and went to Luciano’s office and I was outside his door and I could hear giggles and I opened the door only to find this b***h with her arms wrapped around his neck and his arms wrapped around her waist. He looked up at me and pushed her away right away. I looked at him with the evilest glare that I could give him, and I told him oh please don’t stop what you are doing on my account. He told me it is not what it looks like and I told him that it was not what it looked like to me. She smirked at me and she said that I might as well walk away and leave them to catch up on old times and I walked up to her and I told her do not test me b***h! I will beat you beyond recognition and you will not walk out of here. She looked up at Luciano and she said are you going to let her talk to me like that? Luciano looked at me and he just shook his head at me, and I looked up at him and I felt so betrayed by him. I looked at her and she just smirked at me and she said yes that is right b***h know your place. I turned around before I would say something stupid and I might regret it. I walked to the door and I heard her say how much she missed him, and I looked back at him and he was looking down at her. I opened the door and slammed that b***h on the way out. I was in a rage and my mom was standing out there and I looked at her and walked past her going to my room. She called after me and I ignored her because I couldn’t bring myself to talk or say anything at this time. I didn’t trust myself to open my mouth and I was seriously considering on going back in there and putting a bullet in her f*****g head. All the s**t that Luciano was saying that he would kill any man that comes near me and he is doing some double standard bullshit right in front of my eyes and he took her f*****g side and let her talk to me that way. By the time I got to my room I was shaking so bad and I started throwing s**t all around the room punching the flat screen tv with my fists, throwing his clothes out of the closet. I got my suitcase and threw all my s**t in there and packed it up. I punched the vanity mirror with my hands and broke all the mirrors in the restroom as well.

By the time I was done my hands where dripping blood everywhere and I screamed so loud because I was furious with him. I hated him so much right now and I felt so betrayed by him. I didn’t want to be here at all, and I wanted to leave. I was sitting on the floor bleeding all over the place and I was crying. I heard him curse under his breath and when he walked into the restroom, he saw me bleeding and he called my name and he said Seraphina you are bleeding. He ran towards me and I told him if you come near me, I will f*****g beat your ass. I told him to take a good look at me because this is the last time you will ever be this close to me. I told him that he could go back with his old b***h because he will not have me or his baby! He looked at me and he closed his eyes and he said that he doesn’t want her that he only wants me, and I put up my hand and told him to stop I don’t want to hear it. I took the ring off my finger and threw it at him, and I told him that I don’t want to marry him either and that I am leaving and going back home. He said please don’t leave him and that he loves me. He kneeled down in front of me and I told him, you know what is f****d up is that I wasn’t sure if I could live this life that you are living but I stuck it out and was trying hard. The first time our relationship is being tested by some b***h and you wrap her in your f*****g arms. I looked at him in disgust and I told him that I can’t do this anymore. I got up and I was dripping blood all over the place all down my arms. I started to feel dizzy and when I walked out, I swayed to my right and started to fall and I could hear Luciano yell my name and he caught me before I fell and blackness welcomed me in its arms.