Unwanted she-wolf

chapter 6 part 2. secret's and plan's

addiction. that's what the mate bond feels like. being in the same room as Alpha Caine, is like taking a hit of a bong being on a high. his scent is in my blood, in my veins, my lungs are drowning this is what i was trying to avoid. already i can feel my train of thought derailing. it's paradise. my heartbeat raises i manage to look at him he is standing behind his desk staring at me, or should i say more like through me he's in deep thought with his wolf Balthazar, i am quite thankful i can't hear that discussion because Caine look's angry with his tight clenched jaw. he's wearing a white shirt and grey suit trousers. i think he's been in his office for a while he looks pretty hot like really really...okay "that's not the time for this" i thought to myself

"I need my phone" i said.

he just stood staring right through me still in deep conversation with his wolf. i could hear his heartbeat it was beating fast.

i looked at his desk and seen a shiny purple case .."my phone"

"Alpha Caine?" still he didn't answer

i slowly approached the desk keeping my eye's on my phone, i lifted my gaze and looked at Caine whilst using my hand to reach for the phone, i took my eyes of him just for a second to pick my phone, i instantly regretted taking my eye's off him because soon as i touched my case he grabbed my hand his eyes focused right on me looks like his conversation with Balthazar was over

"Hi" it's all i could say the rest of my mind went blank i don't know if it was because of his gaze or because the shooting electric tingles from his hand being on mine

his mouth formed into a smile. ive never seen someone look at me with such love in their eye's it was new it felt right it was confirmation that he was feeling what i felt. but unfortunately good things don't last he quickly took his hand off mine and cleared his throat,

"couldn't you have sent your fiancé for it?" his tone was cold his stare was cold.

i picked up the phone off the desk, i smirked at him i wasn't going to give him the satisfaction

 "I think your WIFE is looking for you" i smugly said before walking off. 

i made sure i slammed the door on my way out i wish i never did it sometimes i just don't know my own strength it was enough force to take the door knob off and the bottom of the door was cracking "s**t" i threw the door knob down and quickly ran to my room i could alpha caine was swearing i even heard "your father will fucken be getting this added onto the bill" i could hear him shouting

i made my way back into my room closing the door i could hear opaline

"why do you get him angry? she asked

"he's a jerk that's why"

"why are you defending him?"i asked, i couldn't believe her she was making it out my fault

"he's our mate, he completes us"

"he arranged a marriage for us to marry his cousin's kid..he's clearly not mate material" i continued

"plus he's the one that married and expecting a pup were not homewreckers opaline"

i could feel myself and opaline getting angry. this isn't what was meant to happen. i know these day's finding your other half is extremely rare but still Caine could of tried. he could of waited longer. sitting on the bed i held out my phone and stared at it, I was going to phone my parents but instead i phoned my grandmother.

i laid down on the bed with the phone still up to my ear, ring..ring..ring

On the third ring she answered

"Natasha Darling.. how's my favorite granddaughter"

i couldn't help but smile at the sound of her voice

"Im your only granddaughter nana"

after asking how she was, and asking about the weather i decided to catch her up to speed on everything that has went on. she was furious at my father

"That son of a b***h!" she ranted on and on about my father, she's never actually liked him it was like adding fuel to the fire she had that was already burning. Hatred.

i was stalling. apart of me didn't want to know but i knew i had to ask

"why was a Lamiae conjured for the curse?"

the phone went silent.

"Nana?"

"i..don't know what your on about"

"lAIR" i couldn't help myself. i hate being lied to.

"let it go natasha please it doesn't matter" my grandmother pleaded.

i managed up until now to avoid telling her who my mate was. when i told her on the phone i was expecting more swearing about my father.. but she didn't she started crying telling me how sorry she was that she was forced to conjure it. I hate people crying especially Nana, my heart tightened.

"it's okay nana we will sort it, just tell me what to do and how to catch it"

"Catch it? it's impossible you won't be able to see it my darling"

"nana..ive been chasing it piratically since i got to this hell hole"

"THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE" she declared.

"well it is" i said.

she stopped talking i could hear the sound of objects clattering at one point i thought she might of thrown the phone or worse even injure herself after all she was blind.

"Nana?" i called her name repeatedly.

"did you know in france and italy the church used hybrid wolfs to hunt demons before claiming the hybrids were demons themselves?" her voice trembling.

"that's a great history lesson sound interesting but what's that got to do with it nana?"

"not all hybrids could see or hunt demons, they were picked by your moon goddess, they went extinct"

i could hear her taking a breath in like she was growing inpatient with my lack of knowledge

"when the church hunted them and killed them all, demons became more and more they took credit for lots of exorcisms and hidden the truth" 

"well okay nana but listen i dont have a lot of time.."

"your a Church guardian Natasha, you need to use both your wolf and magic the human side to you needs to be repressed long enough to kill the demon"

"your not serious, no way in hell im risking it!"

"well your bloodline is mine, you can simply break the curse doing it the old fashioned way!"

I hung up the phone in disgust and threw it across my bed. two choices i had both i didn't want to do. i could get closer to caine break my own heart in the process and break the curse the normal way or i could use my magic lose my human side stay a wolf forever i would lose my empathy everything and probably get hunted by the church and not to mention the lycan king it would also expose my mother and brother and live everyday running in fear and killing everything in my path. i curled up into my pillow. 

"it shouldn't be this hard" my final thought before the sound of my door knocking.