Why

Chapter 1 my heart beat Beep beep beep where is that sound coming from beep the closer I move to it the farther away I get but the less pain I feel what I would give to not feel pain anymore.... "Ali your my half to my whole" "Actually Alex im your whole to your half ...wait what that made no sense" they started giggling "Awice where arwe youuuuuuuu" called out 6 year old Ali "Im RIGHT herwe wil sis iw awase be here fow you cuz I wuv you" stated alexandria "I wuv you to sissy" "NO STOP IT" she was starting to cry"That's not nice please don't ill go and tell if you don't stop" "NO YOU WONT" he yelled your going to sound like a liar and a baby and no one will like you do you want that to happen" "N-n-no" she stuttered "Now be a good girl and stop squirming" "Hey guys um can I play with you I have no one today my brother said I could play with you though" "Sure Ali you can always play with us" "Thanks jakey" "No probs" "She such a boy no wonder no one like her shes literally one of the guys but her brothers so hot wonder what went wrong" Why why do they hate me I did nothing to them why why why "Ali did your guys cat get in a fight with you again" Jake asked she rolled down her sleeve "Um yeah I tried giving her a bath and as you can guess that didn't end very well" she force a chuckle "Hey Alex next time you give that cat a bath Jake said" "NO STOP IT THIS IS THE LAST TIM" "Your getting to old for me anyway remember your dead if you talk" "Oh hey ben you looking for my brother?" "um no I was looking for you follow me?" "Umm sure" "What are we doing behind the school Ben are you ok" "Yeah Ali just making sure no one was here ..." Blood everywhere it wasn't even an attempt "Ali your my half to my whole talk to me I love you" "Ewwww shes so fat well we all knew she was skinny for attention but now she tryna be fat for it ugh what a waste of air" "Ali eat please baby sis i need you to eat i dont want you passing out again during volleyball" "Ali EATTT" "No JAKE I cant.. "she broke down crying "Ali pls just eat" "Ali why do you hide behind those clothe sis" "there comfy and it not hiding its being lazy" "Happy birthdayyyyy tooooooo youuuuuuuuuuu oh my lord ALICE YOUR KILLING ME" "It got real silent" end of dreams and flashbacks** ************************************************ Now here we are Beep beep beep There was sniffling somewhere on the background "Alex ,Alice Wheres mom?" "ALI" they both said at the same time "Wheres mom and dad where am I whats happening oooww" "Ali don't move your arms k baby sis Alice" said "Ali youre in the hospital the mental ward ...again" "Why?" Ali don't you remember "No I mean why am I still here why she said in a barely audible whisper" Alex an Alice looked at each other with tears in hie eyes "Ali im going to get mom and dad they need to talk to you" yeah i would think they would want to talk to me "Jake and some of the clan is waiting to hear from us you've been in a coma for over a month they were helping us watch you taking shifts and such they wanted to see you when you woke up is it OK if I tell them?" She didn't answer "Alright Ali Ill tell them tomorrow" truthfully she did want to see them just not today thank god for twinethapy Alex knew when they could come but she wanted to see Jake sooner to apologize...again "Ali" Alex said "Jake has a shift today can I tell him to come over and the rest can see you tomorrow I know you might want to see him first ..." "Yeah Alex sounds great thank you" "no problem sis" She could hear the phone on speaker outside of the room she was in they were crying ...she never thought people cared enough to actually cry like that she felt so ashamed ******************************************************* Flashback "Ali what happened why are you in here" "Jake please go i dont feel like talking" "Ali dont tell me to leave dont push me away you've done that for to many years already" "Jake please your making this to hard for me i love you and you wouldn't love me anymore if i told you , you would think was disgusting and dirty i cant even love myself " "you can tell me anything ally you know that I love you so do your siblings your parents may be hard on you but we all love you. Don't ever hold something like that back ever again promise me?" "OK Jakey ill tell you promise you wont hate me pinkie promise?" she asked holding out her finger "I could never hate you lee your just like my little sister i promises you "he said while hooking his pinkie with hers Ali wake up mom and dad here here with jake who do you want to see first she didn't even have to answer him never mind ill let Jake in first "ALI" he shouted and I whispered "Wow jake you look terrible" "Well ITS YOUR FAULT" 'Im so sorry jake" I tried to get out while sobbing 'No no no no Ali I didn't mean it like that please don't cry your my best friend your like my sister" "Im so sorry jake I said I would try to stop and I woulnt do it again I just couldn't help it your my brother from another mother and I broke the promise that's like me braeking a promise from my other half Alex im so sorry" "No Ali don't cry I forgive you please I don't like seeing you cry" "Jake ,Ali, mom and dad need to come in now with the doc" "Ok ill talk with you later ok Ali " "ok,Hey jakey thank you" He just gave a sad smile Alice brought in my brother and mom and dad I said hi and mom was distant and dad was crying I know they bot love me or I thin they do but its so hard to tell sometimes I men we used to be super close but I really don't know what happened... Flashback DADDYYYYY MOMMY GUNNA GET ME HIDE ME HIDE ME " IM ALREADY HIDING ALEX IN MY RM WHERE DO I HIDE YOU IN YOUR ROOM WITH ALEX DUH she said like it was obvious OF COURSE I COULD I BE SO DUMB OF COURSE DADDY HOW COULD YOU BE SO DUMB by then the mom saw what was happening and was recordin them argue A/N so sry for typos i really dont have time to review and edit but once this month is over i will go over every single chapter written so far and edit typos