Goodbye Highschool Life
The air smelled of sharp alcohol and cold metal, like everything human was being scrubbed away.
There was constant beeping in the background, like a countdown I couldn't understand. Voices whispered in clipped tones, and somewhere near my feet, a cart rolled past with a soft metallic rattle. The beeping lingered, steady and indifferent.
A voice floated above me, quiet but clear:
"Ray, hold her hand tightly. Press it. Keep her awake," said a woman's voice.
"Yes, Doc," a man responded, and I suddenly felt a warm hand pressing mine.
"Weak pulse rate and BP 60/40, Doc," another woman said.
"Go get the surgical tools ready," the doctor commanded, her tone sharp and focused. Everything was still unclear to me, but I knew three things:
She was a doctor.
They were talking about me.
And I was in a hospital.
Wait. Hospital? Why? What happened to me?
The last thing I remember was going to school, even though I'd had a fever for three days. I didn't tell my family. I didn't want them to worry. I went to the school comfort room because I felt so sick, like I was going to throw up, but I slipped on the wet floor and hit my head on something hard.
Then... everything went black.
"Make sure she's still with us, Ray!" the doctor said again.
I heard soft footsteps, the curtain sliding closed, the snap of gloves being pulled tight. A monitor to my left kept beeping, cold and mechanical.
"I got it, Doc," the man replied, pressing my hand again. This time with a strange gentleness. As if his touch could anchor me here.
"Hold on. Everything will be alright. Don't worry. I'm here. I won't leave you," he added.
His voice was soft. Steady. Soothing. I assumed those words were for me and I couldn't stop the warmth that bloomed inside me.
Then my heart beat faster.
"She's prepped," someone said.
I wasn't sure if they meant physically or mentally.
Because I wasn't ready.
Not even close.
But his touch...
His voice...
His words...
They felt like a spell.
I vaguely felt something injected into my arm. But instead of panic, a strange calm washed over me.
The pain faded.
The heat in my face rose.
And then, everything went black again.
* * *
I heard footsteps echoing on linoleum floors. The air smelled too clean, like bleach and cold metal mixed with something sharp, like the sting of rubbing alcohol. Whispers floated around me. Soft voices grew clearer.
"It's been three days, but she's still unconscious," a man said, almost like he was complaining. I was sure it was the same voice from before. I couldn't forget his voice. The guy named Ray.
"You're acting like you're not the Raymond Vergara we've known for months. You've lost your cool, young man. What's gotten into you?" a woman replied. I was right, it was him. I'd definitely remember his name.
"Nothing. I'm just wondering why it's taking longer, that's all," he answered quickly.
"Maybe you're worried because your internship ends the day after tomorrow and the girl still hasn't woken up?" she said, mocking him.
"Or maybe he's worried she'll still be asleep by the time he flies abroad next week to continue his master's?" another woman teased. She seemed to have just entered the room. Her voice matched the doctor from earlier.
Ray didn't respond. Just silence.
Was it true? He's going abroad?
I didn't know him, but still, I felt an ache.
"Don't worry. She's okay now. The operation was successful, Ray. In fact, she's recovering faster than most cases like hers. And by the way, I'll tell you her name before your internship ends, just in case you haven't checked yet," the doctor added teasingly.
I wanted to see them.
Especially him, the person who showed genuine concern for a girl like me, a complete stranger.
I wanted to say thank you... but I couldn't.
My mouth was too dry. Too weak.
I couldn't even move it.
If what the doctor said was true, that she'd introduce me to him, then maybe this heavy feeling in my chest would lift a little.
And just like that, I felt sleepy again.
Days passed...
The sunlight slipped through the thin curtains and stabbed at my eyelids, reminding me that today isn't just another ordinary day. My shoes are already polished, my uniform pressed and waiting on the chair, almost as if it's mocking me. I'm not valedictorian, not salutatorian, just one of the "top students" but for me, with this body that betrays me too often, that feels like a quiet victory. My chest ached faintly, the old reminder of my body's stubborn frailty, but it was drowned today by a quiet pulse of triumph.
Downstairs, the house was already alive, voices colliding loud enough to reach my room.
"Cyra, your hair looks like a bird's nest!" Aunt Anne's laugh bounced off the walls.
Of course, Cyra didn't let it pass. "It's called effortless, Mom. Not everyone has time to waste taming dead protein." Her sarcasm carried the same sharp edge as always, and somehow, I smirked even though I couldn't see her.
Queenie's voice followed, soft as an angel. "Ate Cyra, let me fix it for you. Mama will worry if you go like that."
I could almost hear Cyra's dramatic eye-roll. "Worry about what? That I'll scare the crowd?" But she would let Queenie fuss over her hair. She always did.
Then came Annica's little shriek from the dining table: "Dad, you're eating too much pandesal! Please save some for us!"
Uncle Felix answered with his usual arrogance, words blurred with food. "It's called energy, Annica. You'll understand when you're older."
The tap-tap-tap of Grandfa Tony's cane echoed next, impatient but steady. "Fidel, go get a cab! We cannot be late. My dear eldest apo graduates high school only once!" His tone made me roll my eyes and smile at the same time. Demanding, yes, but the way he said dear eldest apo made my chest feel warm.
"Leyanne, anak!" Mama's voice cut through everything, sweet but trembling. "Come down and eat something. You can't go to the stage with an empty stomach." She's always like this, too emotional, too worried, but that's Mama Viola.
Papa, quieter, softer, spoke from behind his newspaper. "She looks beautiful already. Don't pressure her." I closed my eyes for a second at those words. Papa didn't say much, but when he did, it landed right where my heart was most fragile.
I breathed in. My chest tightened the way it usually did, but today I pushed past it. I may not be the best, but I am here, breathing, standing, dressed for a day my family was making bigger than I ever imagined.
When I stepped out of my room, every eye tilted toward me.
Cyra smirked. "Look who decided to grace us with her ice-queen presence."
Queenie's gaze glowed. "You look like a star, Ate Ley."
Annica, blunt as always, tugged at my sleeve. "Your face looks nervous."
And Mama, her voice cracked before her tears could fall. "My daughter... my graduate." She hugged me tightly.
As if I were going to the moon or something.
But I was only graduating high school and there were still more challenges ahead in college.
I don't usually smile. Not in moments like this. But the corners of my lips betrayed me, lifting into something small, something real. For once, I let it stay there, because even if I don't deserve all this pride, my family has already wrapped me in it.
* * *
The air smelled faintly of fresh paint and cut flowers. The gymnasium had been scrubbed clean, but no matter how hard they tried, there was still that lingering scent of varnished wood mixed with sweat from years of assemblies and P.E. classes.
Everywhere I looked, colors clashed, the sea of togas and caps, girls in heels wobbling on the stage stairs, boys tugging awkwardly at ties their mothers insisted on. Bouquets of roses and sunflowers bobbed in the crowd, some wrapped in shiny plastic that crinkled every time someone shifted in their seat.
The sound was chaos. Teachers calling names, parents shushing restless children, relatives shouting "picture, picture!" even when the ceremony hadn't started. Cameras clicked, flashes burst like tiny lightning, and cellphones stuck out in every direction. The microphone squealed now and then, followed by a collective groan.
Some students were giggling in the corner, tossing their caps in practice, already careless about the formality of the moment. Others sat stiff and serious, clutching their programs as if the paper itself meant a future.
When the school band struck the opening chords, the brass blared sharp, bouncing against the high walls of the gym. The national anthem rose next, voices uneven but earnest, until everyone's mouths stumbled together on the higher notes.
And beneath all of it, the whispers, parents boasting about medals, cousins comparing who looked prettiest in uniform, little brothers tugging at sleeves asking if it was almost done.
For me, the atmosphere felt like a storm of pride and noise. Too bright, too loud, too much. Yet somewhere in the mess, I could feel the weight of it, how endings always sound like beginnings when wrapped in applause.
I didn't know how long I'd been unconscious in the hospital, but now I was back at school, attending my graduation ceremony. Nothing too special, just the usual moving-up ritual. Only this time, I was heading to college.
New school.
New environment.
New people.
"Bhest, what's up? You've been quiet since you came back," a familiar voice asked casually.
It was Jake Abella, my boy best friend. People often assumed he was my boyfriend. My family liked him too. But to me, he was just like a brother.
"Nothing. I was just thinking... maybe my family was right. I should stay here and study at the island college," I said, my voice low with resignation.
A week before the accident, Jake had tried to convince me to apply for a university scholarship. He even brought two copies of the form, one for him and one for me, so we could go to the city together. We filled them out completely. But before I submitted mine, I asked for my parents' permission.
They refused.
They told me I wouldn't survive in the city without them.
It broke my heart... but I didn't argue. I hated it when they were angry at me. So I dropped the paper into the trash bin and never looked back.
When I told Jake, he was sad too. Not long after, I got sick. A fever that lasted for days. And then the accident happened. Everything spiraled so quickly.
"But you know Architecture isn't offered here on the island," he reminded me gently.
I sighed deeply. He was right. Only a few courses were available here, and my family had always wanted me to become a teacher.
"Ley, chasing your dream is what matters most while we're young," he said seriously.
But I had no choice.
The moment I threw that paper away was the moment I buried my dream of becoming an architect.
"It's okay, Bhestie. I'll be fine. I wish you all the best for chasing yours."
As I said those words, I wondered what mine would have looked like. The thought stung, and I smiled bitterly.
He patted my head with a small smile in return.
I was lucky to have a friend like him. I hope this bond lasts forever. He's been with me since my first year in high school until now. He's always treated me well. Being with him is like having an instant brother, best friend, and partner-in-crime all in one.