When Hate Loves

I OPEN MY EYES TO WHAT LOOKS LIKE A CEIELING. A FLASH BACK APPEARS ,ALMOST LIKE A VIDEO PLAYING ON THE WHITEBOARD I SILENTLY HOPE THIS IS DEATH AND I’M IN HEAVEN AT LAST…OR MAYBE HELL,I WOULDN’T KNOW BUT WHATEVER IT WAS IT COULDN’T BE WORSE THAN BEING ALIVE.MY CHILDHOOD WASN’T THE BEST BUT I DON’T REMEMBER MY TEENAGE BEING ANY PERFECT.HOW OLD AM I?...YOU MAY ASK,WELL I’M ONLY 20 BUT HELL IT FEELS LIKE I’VE BEEN ALIVE SINCE THE ERA OF THE DINOSOURS. I DON’T REMEMBER A DAY I WENT TO SLEEP FEELING MY LEGS,IT’S LIKE I SPEND THE ENTIRE DAY CUTTING  PIECES OF MY LEGS OFF AND AT DAWN WELL MISSION ACCOMPLISHED ,I SLEEP REGAIN MY LEGS ONLY TO LOSE THEM THROUGHOUT THE DAY AGAIN. I’VE BEEN LIVING WITH THE JOHNSONS FOR OVER FIVE YEARS NOW,THEY’VE BEEN REALLY GOOD TO ME,BY BEING GOOD OF COURSE I MEAN THEY’VE PUT A ROOF OVER MY HEAD SINCE I LAST  LEFT HOME .WELL THINGS HAVEN’T BEEN ALL RIBBON AND ROSES …OKAY LET ME BE HONEST IT HAS BEEN WORSE THAN HELL COULD EVER BE BUT NEVERTHELESS I’M STILL GRATEFUL OH WELL AT LEAST I’M STILL ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE WHO STILL KNOW HOW TO COUNT THEIR BLESSINGS BESIDES THE CIRCUMSTANCES-HALF A LOAF IS BETTER THAN NOTHING AT ALL.AS I’M CARRIED AWAY BY THESE MEMORIES SUDDENLY IT HITS,I’M IN WHAT FEELS LIKE A BED AND I’VE BEEN STARING AT THIS THING THAT LOOKS LIKE A CEILING AND IT SEEMS LIKE A VIDEO PLAYER …NARRATING TO ME THE STORY OF MY LIFE AND THE DECISIONS I’VE MADE BUT STILL NO PART OF THE MOVIE I’M WATCHING SEEM TO EXPLAIN HOW I ENDED UP IN THIS PLACE…IT’S A MYSTERY …COULD THIS BE JUDGEMENT DAY?IS THIS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE,AM I BEING REMINDED OF HOW I’VE LIVED MY LIFE SO AS TO BE GIVEN MY  FATE.THAT IS EITHER HELL OR HEAVEN OF COURSE.I HEAR SOMEONE SAY DOCTOR SMITH OVER WHAT SOUNDS LIKE A SPEAKER.IN SHORT INTERVALS A NURSE OR A DOCTOR IS CALLED TOO AND I REALISE ….OH FLIP!I’M STILL ALIVE AND THIS IS A HOSPITAL.   A couple of minutes later a man rushed in,he looked like he was on his early forties,tall dark with a smooth skin.He looked like an ideal family man with four gorgeous kids yes two wonderful sons and two very beautiful talented baby girls and an intelligent wife of course!You know how the saying goes right,the saying about successful men and the women in their lives.   “Are you okay?” Asks a  husky voice which I percieve to be that of the man who just rushed in.Just as I was trying to figure out  how to answer that question a doctor rushes in. "Mr Heasons she has suffered a lot of shock and she will need a lot of rest , her medication and healthy food to recover,there may be some side effects which we may not be able point out at this point of her healing process but with regular check ups we may figure it out." " Is It safe to take her home now?" asks "Mr Heasons"  "Yes definitely" Answers the doctor Home ?what home? I say but the words never leave my lips.