Every day I look down at my hand. It feels surreal. It feels like a dream when I think back to the moment we got engaged. It feels like a haze. I am happy, I am really happy, but I am confused. So very confused. Maybe I am just conflicted. I wish I could stop all these feelings from bubbling up in me. I want to be with Jacin and I’ve wanted to marry him for so long, but this was too fast, we were hardly back together. I said we should take this slow. Now it seems that he just wanted to pick up where we left off. It’s not like I would have said no to him, not in front of all those people, and especially not if I wanted this relationship to continue. Not that I even thought about saying no, my yes came automatically, it had happened before I even knew it. I haven’t told Jacin how I feel and
