WIFE SERIES : Silent Scars [Tagalog]

Chapter 14

The white ceiling greeted me the moment I opened my eyes. I looked around and noticed that i was in a hospital bed. Ang sakit ng ulo ko. Pati ang buong katawan ko. I felt so weak.

Something flashed back. Nanlalaki ang aking mata habang naalala ang nangyari. I hurriedly touched my tummy. I was frozen. I couldn't feel anything.

My tears started to fall. My hand started to tremble.

"M-My baby.... No..." I kept on touching my stomach. Trying to feel the life inside me. But nothing. I couldn't feel anything.

Narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pinto. Napalingon ako doon. I saw my mom holding a cup of coffee. Her eyes widened and ran towards me, panicking.

"Oh! God! You are finally awake!" My Mom said with a tears in her eyes. She look so worried.

"Ma...W- Where's my baby? Why can't I feel it inside me?"

Napatigil siya sa tanong ko. She held my hand and squeezed it lightly. "Denima. I'm sorry."

Parang gumuho ang mundo ko sa sinabi niya.

"No! Don't look at me like that, Ma. No! My baby. Buhay pa ang baby ko di ba?Ma!"

"I'm sorry, anak. I'm sorry." Iyak ni Mama. Napahagulhol na ako nang malakas. Ang awa na bakas sa mukha ni Mama ang siyang mas nagpaiyak sa akin. The way she looked at me said it all. She was saying sorry for my loss.

My baby was gone.

I started to become hysterical.

"Huminahon ka,anak. Please. Makakasama sayo."

I ignore what she said. I couldn't stop crying. I kept on thinking about why I didn't die too. It would be better if we just die together. Why am I even alive?

The doctor and nurses were suddenly rushing inside the room. They restrained me. Hanggang sa may maramdaman akong itinurok sa akin. They inject something in me. And the next thing I know I already fell into slumber.

***

The next day came. I was already awake. But this time, I was so quiet. I shut myself out from everyone. I felt so empty.

Sinubukan nila akong kausapin. Pero ni isa sa kanila ay di ko sinagot. Nakatulala lang ako lagi.

They were all worried but I didn't have the heart to care. I just didn't care anymore.

The doctor said that I was fine. I didn't have any serious injury and I could go home anytime.

"Anong gusto mong kainin? We will buy anything. Just tell me what you want," My dad said while smiling at me. Hindi ako natutuwa.

I glanced at him and his smile faded right away. "I want to be alone. Can you all go out?" I said coldly.

My Mom was on the couch with my brothers and they were all looking at me with a worried and at the same time pity expression. I hated it.

Narinig ko ang buntong-hininga ni Dad. "Okay. We will go back tomorrow," sabi niya sabay naglakad palabas ng pinto. Sumunod naman si Mom at ang kapatid ko.

Humigi ako sa kama at tumitig sa kisame. Napakatahimik ng silid. Nakakabingi ang katahimikan pero mas gusto ko ito.

My mind suddenly flew to Nicholai. Napangiti ako ng mapait. Habang nandito ako sa hospital ay ni isang beses hindi ko nakita si Nicholai na bumisita. I will be discharged tomorrow. Pero wala atang balak magpakita ito sa akin.

I was startled when the door suddenly opened. Napatingin ako dito at yung taong iniisip ko ay nasa harapan ko ngayon.

Nicholai was in front of me while looking at me coldly.

"The doctor said that you can be discharged," diritsong sabi niya.

Ni hindi man lang ako kinamusta kung okay lang ba ako. Ano ba ang aasahan ko sa tulad ni Nicholai? He looked at me like he didn't even care what I was going through.

"I've been here for three days, ngayon ka lang talaga nagpakita at yan lang ang sasabihin mo? Wala ka talagang pakialam ano?"

"Cut the bullshit, Denima. Aren't you happy now? The baby is dead. That's what you really want, right? You get rid of my baby so you can get rid of me!" He said in gritted teeth.

"A-Anong sinabi mo?" I was flabbergasted. I just couldn't believe what I just heard coming from him.

"You think I didn't know that you planned it all along? How could you kill my baby just for you to get back with your f*****g ex!" sigaw niya.

"Are you insane? It's not just your baby! It's mine too! At anong pinagsasasabi mong plano? What the f**k are you talking about?!" ganting tugon ko sa kanya.

I was confused. Hindi ko alam kung anong pinagsasabi niya. Plan to get rid of the baby so I could get rid of him too? He was insane! I was not thinking of any of that.

"Quit acting like an innocent woman because you are not. I didn't know that you are that desperate. You are already busted! Stop pretending now. We are the only people in this room." He kept on pressing.

Bakit ba pinagpipilitan niya na pinlano ko ang lahat? Nahihibang na ba si Nicholai? Where did he even get that idea? How could he even say that so easily as if I never cared for our baby?

Did he just come here to accuse me of something I didn't do?I love my baby more than anything else. Kahit alam kong bunga ito nang pagkakamali. Hindi ko pinaparamdam sa baby ko na isa siyang pagkakamali. I even married him for the sake of my baby tapos ang dali lang sa kanya na sabihin na pinlano ko ang ma-aksidente at makunan? What the f**k was wrong with Nicholai?

Napahilot ako sa aking sentido nang bigla itong kumirot sa sakit. May benda pa ito dahil tumama ang basag na salamin sa ulo ko. Thank God I didn't have an internal bleeding.

I looked at Nicholai and sighed. Pagod ko siyang tiningnan. I was still mourning for my baby. I know it was my fault that my baby died. I was so reckless. I didn't take care of myself. But it was too much hearing from him that I planned it. Because God knew that I didn't.

"Stop it! Hindi lang ikaw ang nawalan, Nic! Ako rin! It's my baby."

"Shut up! I will not fall again to your lies!" sigaw niya sabay tapon nang kung anong papeles sa mukha ko. Nanlaki ang mata ko nang makita at mabasa kung ano ito.

It was an annulment paper.

I looked at him with a confused expression. Ano ito? Bakit may annulment paper na nagsasabi na gusto kong makipaghiwalay kay Nicholai? I didn't ask for this!

I winced when he suddenly grabbed my jaw. He stared at me with so much hate and hunger. "If you think killing my baby will make me sign that f*****g annulment paper and set you free, you are f*****g wrong," sabi niya sabaw bitaw sa akin. He picked the annulment paper and tore it in front of me. "You can never escape from me."