Chapter Ten
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Aiden’s POV
How can I tell her that I can't transform, I don't have that ability? All of it was decided by someone, someone who thought that it was the only way to protect himself because of all that I had learned about them.
I feel so bad for myself, why does all this have to happen to me. Living like this is worthless, it's better death than all this. I didn't deserve this. All I wanted was to become really strong, great fighter and also acquire education. I wanted to make my late parents proud of me. But someone else had something else planned for me, and it worked. Here I am living like an animal with no place to call home.
Seeing the princess hurt, stirs up something in me. It also shows how invalid I am, I cannot even help her. I am such, so useless. Her cries touch my very soul, it's like I feel all the pain she is feeling.
What's all this? Is it because she has taken care of me this whole time.
or because all the time she is sad? I can literally feel her sadness.
When she says that nobody loves and cares for her, I believe her. My heart and soul, that is, but my mind thinks it's all a ploy to make me trust her. But then my heart objects all the time.
I have so many mixed feelings and I cannot even place them.
All I can say is, I enjoy her company. At least she has been there for me. However, when she said she was leaving, I felt a lump in my throat. I felt as if I would cry. The reason behind all that, I don't even know. All I know is that I don't want her to leave me alone. I have been alone for so long, I just need someone's presence.
I was just glad that the full moon came when she was still around. At least now I can tell her about myself. Not everything, though. But at least I would make her stop calling me Woffy. It's so horrible. I don't like it at all.
I feel how my senses are leaving me as I walk behind Princess. I know my human form is kicking in slowly as the moon is rising. I feel so eager to just speak to her. I have all the way until midnight before I can transform again unwillingly. I feel my spinal cord rearranging itself with each step I take, my legs elongate and becomes straight, my protruded mouth reduces in size, all the fur disappears, and my fore limbs become hands. As I am completing my transformation, princess turns to look at me with a worried expression on her face. Which is immediately replaced by a shocked expression. She watches me as I complete my transformation, her eyes not leaving mine.
She starts walking towards me slowly, her gaze still on mine. I don't know how, but I walk towards her too. It's like an invisible force is pushing me towards her. I am entirely naked by now, but I don't seem to care. All I want is to reach for her. As I walk closer to her, a beautiful scent of a lily of the valley becomes stronger and intoxicating. I see her beautiful blonde hair flying as the wind blows slowly. I have never noticed all the beauty in her. She is beautiful, just like a goddess.
She opens her mouth as if to say something.
“Mate!” We say in unison. She jumps and wraps her hands around me. All my senses feel heightened, I cannot believe it. She has been with me all this time, why didn't I figure it out. Before I can say a word, she breaks down in my arms. She starts heaving up and down as her Sobs grow louder with each heave.
I feel my heart shattering with each sob she makes. I feel her pain, she has carried it in her heart for so long. Who could have hurt my mate this way. I feel my eyes streaming down with tears. She buries her face deeper in my neck, I feel her tears stream down my naked body, from my chest towards my legs.
I hold her tightly against my chest, I swear to myself whoever hurt her will get it from me. I feel strength radiate though me. I lift her and carry her up, she wraps her hands around my neck and lays her head there.
Her Sobs have stopped now, she is breathing slowly around my neck, making me shiver from the intensity. I wonder what made her cry that way, I wouldn’t rush her, though. I know she will tell me in her own time.
I carry her back to my hideout, I sit on a log and place her on my laps. She releases her arms from my neck and raises her head to look at me.
“You are my mate, I found you.” She says in an excited yet sad tone.
I nod, smiling, not believing that moon goddess paired me with this gorgeous woman. She is so beautiful, even after all that crying. She is mine.
But where will she even stay, she cannot stay here with me? I can never do that to her, she deserves the best. And she can never get that with me. I feel as if someone has stabbed me right in my heart. Reality hits me hard, I am just a rogue, a nobody. Even when she learns of the truth, she will reject me.
“Please reject me.” I blurt out.
“What?! Please don't say that, you are my other half. Without you, I can never be whole. I have always wished to find you, and I will never let you go from me.” She says, holding my gaze. Her words are not just mare words to me, they sound like a beautiful, melodious tune in my ears.
But I still feel useless.
I sigh and beg her, “I have nothing to offer you. I live here in this filthy place. Alone. I am a rogue. So please, reject me as I am worthless.”
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