Broken Boundaries

“Damn it I almost had him!” I screamed at my I pad as I hunted monsters for some boss-level rewards. I have been playing this game for six months, surprisingly. Usually, I grow bored and stop playing when they start asking for money and hop onto another game. But this one is different, it’s not a money trap. It pulls you in and makes you work for rewards, but the coolest feature is how I can talk to other people in my clan. A simple sultry character name to go with my sexy character and the men in this game gift me all kinds of things. Speed ups, food, energy, you name it and all I must do is perform the act of helpless female syndrome and boom incoming gifts. I wouldn’t say I am the prettiest fish in the sea, but I have some great quality features. Such as my curves, I am not talking skinny girl that has a tiny bit of fat in some areas. I’m talking dump truck with some serious hips that cause me to go up a pants size. Finding pants is hard enough but being five foot eight with legs that go for days, and a bit of tummy. Doesn’t have me walking into a Wally World or Target being able to grab a pair of jeans without trying them on first. I pull my hair up into one of those messy mom buns and sip on my basic white girl coffee. Its cold caramel taste soothes my horse throat from yelling the past hour at this game. I readjust myself on the couch and wait for the next battle when I get a notification from the clan’s people. Kingpin234 “Hey beautiful how’s your day going?” “Good, I guess” I replied, “What about you?” Kingpin234 “All right wish you would agree to meet up, my offer still stands. I’ll pay your airfare and anything else you want or need if you will spend the week with me.” Cringing as I read this, I consider leaving him on read I reply instead. “ha-ha yeah, I don’t think that will be anytime soon I barely know you, and I’m talking to someone.” Lie, I hate having to lie but, in this circumstance, I’m going to have to as this guy has been on me for weeks about coming to see him. Seeing anyone in real life I meet through this game is a big no for me. I don’t trust anyone because anyone can hide behind a computer screen and easily put on a different vibe. Plus, I watch a lot of thriller movies and don’t see my future as being the basic white girl in the movie running toward danger. Kingpin234 “Really now well it’s not official so how about you give me a chance? I’ll make it worth your while, how about I’ll show you what you’re missing out on.’’ At that point, a notification from Discord pops up. Kingpin234 – a picture I open the chat and instantly regret it. A d**k pic flashes before me titled I need you! “seriously’ I yell as instantly block him and then go back to our clan chat to reply to him. Kingpin234 “I said you would miss out don’t you agree?” “No!” I replied “I don’t agree I told you that’s a major turn-off and doesn’t persuade me even the slightest, multiple times. I don’t think we need to chat any further since this has gone beyond my boundaries” Send and block. Well, another one bites the dust I look at the time. It’s ten thirty already and work starts at seven. I need to get to bed but not before my brownie Sundae. Warm the little cosmic brownie for a few seconds in the microwave and add a scoop of Vanilla ice cream. I top it with some caramel drizzle choo choo straight to my thighs I say as I push the first spoonful into my mouth. Its warm and cool yummy taste coats my mouth in ecstasy. I walk over to my comfy spot on the couch and grab my phone to call my sister from another mister Kadie after three rings she picks up. “What up b***h” Kadie answers in her normal giddy voice. “Not much just eating orgasmic sundae you?” I reply by licking the caramel from my spoon. “Oh, you lucky ass ha-ha I’m not doing anything been chatting in the discord a bit but not anything important everything ok?” I started calling my brownie dessert orgasmic Sundae as it’s practically better than s*x at least the s*x I’ve had. “Oh, nothing I replied just been gaming and had that creep Kingpin234 blocked finally. he asked again about coming to see him and then sent a d**k pic.” “Ooooo send it to me" Kadie’s voice squeals through my phone. I turn and look at it in disgust. “No, I blocked him already," I say back mocking her in the most smart-ass tone I could conjure between bites. “You didn’t save it? Was it big” Kadie!!! I yell spitting ice cream on my demon slayer shirt I got at the premiere screening at our local theater. “What? I would save it and use it as future blackmail” she replies laughing on the phone. “Oh, I’m sure that’s exactly what you would use it for”. I roll my eyes at the thought of Kadie being sent the d**k pick and saving it to use for her enjoyment. “No! I didn’t save it and as far as big I wouldn’t quite say it was small” I chuckled to myself. Look I got to go I’ve spit ice cream on my new shirt I’ll call you back in the morning, ok? “Yeah, yeah sure…. oh yeah by the way there’s a new guy that’s joining our disc……” “Kadie? Kadie?” I say looking at a black screen on my phone proudly displaying a dead battery symbol. s**t oh well she knows I call in the morning, I quickly turn my tv to Netflix and begin my hunt for a show to start. After about 10 mins I decided to start watching an Asian drama meteor garden. I’m instantly hooked, which always happens. I’m a sucker for anime, K drama, etc.; their episodes are long, which I like. Ding a notification goes off on my I pad for Discord. I pick it up and punch my six-number combination pin it’s easy of course my birthday is ten twenty-five ninety-four it unlocks. I go to Discord and click our clan’s chatroom, but I don’t say anything yet. just reading over conversations, everyone is talking about an upcoming boss battle that’s supposed to release some serious resources and gems. Until I see someone, I don’t recognize James Bond007 where the hell did, he come from? who the hell let him in? And what’s with names are we ten? I jump in the chat when krkitty200 and warriorgod24 are asking about different stat levels on characters in the game. “Hey guys how’s it going?” I pop the question into the chat room as I head down the hall to my room. Tossing the I pad onto my bed I start to change out of my now sticky demon slayer shirt. krkitty200 responds first “Hey all good here how about you greenenvy221?” greenenvy221 has been the username I have always chosen for usernames since high school. Green is my favorite color and well envy is said to be green so why not. “Good” I reply shrugging my shoulders as if they could see me behind the I pad. I quickly pulled an oversized shirt out of my dresser and pulled it over. The soft /silky material mixture gliding over my skin feels cool and relaxing. I relish the feeling for a moment before tossing myself onto the bed grabbing my I pad to reply. “Anyone get any good loot from the last boss round?’’ “Yeah, I did get some sick armor to put on my hero for the next kingdom vs kingdom event. And some badass monster power-ups for the monster kill event on Thursday,” replied Warriorgod24. “No way that’s impressive, screenshot me the armor you got if you don’t mind, I might go buy it with the gems I got from this boss round.” Warriorgod24 “Sure, I don’t mind by the way great job in the kingdom boss round I’ve seen you place third that’s badass.” “thanks” I reply I’m getting ready to tell everyone goodnight when I see his username pop up again. Jamesbond007 “So you’re that serious of a gamer can’t wait to play with you the next boss round.” I stare a couple of minutes contemplating if he was being a smart ass or not before replying. “Yeah? me too… do I know you? and…. You do know you got to be in the top five to do the next boss round. so, I don’t think we will be able to play in it together maybe once you’re at my level.” At that, I shrugged coming off a little bitchy maybe, but I don’t want some newbie coming on to my tuff thinking already that he owned the place. I suddenly see three images pop up in the chat and a message under the last that reads. Jamesbond007 “How about you get on my level instead.” It was screenshots of his account, my jaw hit the floor and the rest of me was stupefied. This ass hat was the top player as in number uno and was one of those big players. probably a whale in gamer lingo meaning this guy dropped some cash to get where he’s at but is he game smart? I’ll have to test him out later. Deciding to drop it and not respond I turn off my iPad and plug it up. I walk to the kitchen and put my now empty bowl into the sink. On my way back I go to the bathroom to do my daily skin routine. My bathroom is spacious and clean, the walls have neutral tiles that give a spa-like ambiance and the floor features glossy porcelain tiles. The large mirror is framed by dimmable LED lights that can be adjusted to create the perfect mood setting that I may be feeling. The tub and shower area are separated by a glass partition, allowing for seamless flow. I replaced the shower head recently with one of those rain shower heads, which was a wise purchase on my behalf it has been useful many times in getting me out of my panic attacks with the rainfall experience. The toilet and sink are made of porcelain, but the sink countertop is marble giving that extra classy touch. I’ve put clear shelves on the wall to hold my vine plants that now climb up the side of the wall with help from the little plant clips I bought. I’ve made sure that each part of my apartment is dedicated to relaxing me and keeping calm “Little happy zones” is what my best friend Kadie calls them when she comes over. After fifteen minutes I walk out patting my face dry feeling clean and fresh as I enter my bedroom. My bedroom is my safe space. It cozy and intimate space that excludes warmth and softness and tranquility the perfect refuge for my bad days. The walls are painted in warm calming hues of pale grey and lavender, that create an ambiance of relaxation and comfort. The focal point of the room is my four-poster bed, adorned with cotton bedding, plush cushions, and a fluffy duvet. The bedding has intricate lace detailing flowers that add vintage glamour and elegance. The bed is flanked by two romantic bedside tables adorned with delicate lamps and aromatic candles that emit a subtle, soothing scent. The room is lit with dimmable lights that cast a warm, amber glow that compliments the overall décor. The windows are adorned with plush velvet curtains that can be drawn to create an atmosphere of privacy and seclusion when needed. Soft clingy drapery adorned with delicate lace enhances the overall elegance of the space. The floors are lined with plush, soft carpets, which create a warm inviting feeling underfoot. A stylish yet comfortable chase lounge adds a touch of luxury to the corner of my room. Soft fur blankets and plush pillows are tossed atop it. The overall room impression is one of serenity, romance, and relaxation – a perfect space for someone with trauma like me. I have my bath and body moonlight candle burning on top of my dresser scenting the room in a calming scent to relax me. I walk to the bed and pull back my sheets on my king-size bed excited for the warmth and softness of the covers to wrap around my body. I don’t need a king, but I love the extra space I have just to roll all over the bed at night. I plug my dead phone up by my nightstand, then head to my main light switch to turn off my ceiling light while blowing out my candle. I make sure to put the topper on, so my fire alarms won’t go off. They are super sensitive and don’t need to have that irritating sound disrupting the calm atmosphere I’ve created. I climb into the bed pulling the extra pillows all around me to hug my body to sleep and grab a hand full of my soft fluffy covers over me. Already sleep is taking over I can feel my exhausted body giving in, one last half-lidded glance around the dimly lit room and then I’m out.