A shadow came to love me

Suffer but never let him in - begins within

There as I was standing with my eyes opened wide ,I was thinking maybe this shadow is a p*****t because some can be different even though none found their character completely. I was getting to feel weak inside again , “why do I feel so weaker than before ?” . “It means you know me better then you know yourself so you're not afraid when you met me first and you didn’t experiment me after you met me the second time so you know me already deep inside you just don't realize it. Suddenly he picked me up , he carried me to the shower room and I was asking what is he doing and he didn't respond at all so I started to squirm away from him and he was giggling that I was trying to escape from him and he told me that it’s cute so I stopped my squirming an he just opened the tab and filled the tub with water and he threw me in it I was feeling out of breath and I can hear someone from inside me whispering to say, “feel… feel the pain.. feel the pain... you are feeling right now without any air to breathe you already had this pain before do you remember”. After that voice spoke I closed my eyes and started thinking , I tried to remember something but then I saw in the far far away side there was light beaming towards me I was standing in front of it and then suddenly it went dark then I could feel that I was saved by someone it’s simple realization that someone saved me but I don’t know what the situation or what was going on that time so I woke up and I saw William was with me with his arms around me I felt so comfortable and very protected but then I remember how horrible a shadow can be so I pushed him away and told him, “you can't touch me whenever you want ,don’t touch me and leave me alone if you show up the next time I won’t show mercy to kill you”. I walked away from him trying not to look back but I can feel a sadness coming from me deep within I didn’t realize what it was. Then suddenly he came behind me pulled my hand and bit me in the neck, I screamed with great agony then I saw Jenny coming, running to me and asked me if I’m alright ;l told her what was going on with me with William then after the talk drake came with fire extinguisher “help is coming for you!”. Jenny and I laughed when he said that and how fast he came after all the fuss was over then I patted his head “you came late helper”. After that we went back to sleep with smiles in our faces and I forgot the situation which led tension ,then in the morning me and drake went to our club and gave the information I collected and the photos I took before from my camera I went back to the art room to pick up jenny for lunch but she was still doing her art work so I was waiting for her at the corner so I won’t disturb her. Suddenly my hand lifted up on its own started painting on the wall my hand was going up and down “jenny! Jenny! help me!” the professors were so shocked that I even took a brush without their permission “I should not be doing this I’m an Exemplary student and professors you know me very well I won’t do this kind of stuff ” .They all were starring at me like I was giving them a show ,then one professor started smiling and said “ah.. ohh you are interested in arts right so you are proving us what you can do so you could join the team” after that another professor joined him “I knew it!”. I was thinking how I ended up like this and how is this even possible then I remembered yesterday night I pissed William off and he is pushing me in a difficult position so I will say yes to him but I murmured “Don’t ever think I will give my love to you, besides I love arts so I won’t have a problem with it whatever happens I won’t let you stay by my side ever!” then I stopped drawing and I turned around, everyone was standing stunned like Statues and I turned to the wall and I saw a painting of me and William dancing but my eyes were closed in it. Jenny came running and asked me “I never thought you could draw join with me then we will have so much fun” as she was saying I saw Ms.Kathy was watching me with a stirred face then I remembered the whole situation between jenny and her then I said no to her without any thinking then after a moment I announced “I will join professor howler's class”. Jenny looked at me very worried because I know that class taken after eve time but it’s a prefect time for me to talk to my professor about William. After thinking I smiled at jenny and she got some relief back then we stepped to cafeteria that we like with drake . “it’s a stupid idea and only three students are going for that class and who knows if they are humans or not and if you are insisting on doing this then we will come too even if jenny won’t I will” drake said with a upset face jenny gave a grin look to drake that looked like she was about to fight with him ,with a high fast mood without a pause I was distracting her but she was very Occupied with the thought of drake saying bad about her then when drake looked her way she gave punch like she never ever gave before because she never punch anyone in the face ,clearly she was very angry for being told a bad friend. Drake and I were so stiff like dolls and she grabbed my hands ignored drake without even looking. We came to the park; after a moment ,jenny went to play with the dogs ,this the right time to talk to drake so I took my cellphone and called drake “she is now okay and don’t worry I will talk to her and be ready you are going to talk to her after we get home” and drake replied okay then we hung up quickly as soon as I saw jenny coming. Jenny said she wanted to eat ice cream so we sat down to eat the yummy ice cream and jenny was saying how much she becomes serious when it comes to friendship and how much she cares about me suddenly I felt someone tickling from my back trying to make me giggle few seconds later I couldn’t control myself and as been a hell for me I was starting to sweat, the pressure in my mouth was tight I could not even listen to what she is saying but I know she is saying something sentimental so I can’t hurt her by laughing, a little longer I can hold it (as I thought)but so little that I known it would last forever as time goes by hours while she talks, when she was about to cry I started giggling so so hard “omg I’m sorry jenny hahahaha omg I’m sorry ….I can’t I can’t stop! Hahaha!” that point she blown off like a volcano in her head has split open and she run away but I didn’t sit to wait . I ran after her and said what happened ,jenny believed me “when is this going to end for you because what you did right now really hurt me …so much and she started to cry and I hugged her thinking that “I’ll never forgive you for what you did today you wanna do it your way then… so be it game on" . Drake was waiting us at home so we took a cab and went straight home; jenny and drake sat down talked for almost three hours so I packed my bag for my class and slowly came out of the back door without disturbing them somehow I felt uneasy coming out alone but I thought it’s no big deal so I came back to campus I came to class early so I was walking around the black board with sudden pain my head was spinning suddenly my professor came by the door “if you are not feeling well don’t come to class” some people laughed( though I couldn’t see any funny statement there) I was getting fed up with these cheap tricks of his (William) so I called the club members and gave them the information about my situation then they said they will help me ,after my first class I was waiting for professor howler to take me in to his class a moment later I got a call from prof howler saying he will be late to class and none of the students will come except me so I have to go to class all alone by stairs it’s not frightening but there are so accidents taking place in this campus while climbing staircases, unfortunately taking the stairs was never frightening for me without my friends at night but today I m having some chillness behind my back without even thinking I called William for accompany and I know it’s not good idea for me but he never came that’s not new and I m relieved too ,after reaching the top floor without any startles my heart was still beating a bit faster after climbing the stairs and the hall way was too dark so I tip-toed till I reached the classroom but I saw something was strange the benches were lined straight like a bed when seen from afar it looked like a death bed for ghosts . I went near to place them in correct order so I turned around every single one of the benches then suddenly I smelled roses so I turned around to look, startled has I ever been the benches started to stand up-straight with a firm position after a minute later, they all surrounded me one by one when I tried to run away a gravity wire or something pulled me inside again I covered my ears with my hands and started praying but I felt they were coming closer and closer to me then I knew who might be behind this catastrophe so I sat in the center of all of this chaos and simply started to read my book for my class. After a while I heard the professor coming from the hall so I sat in my place for a good art lesson ,an hour later my class got over and I think I learned so many new things I greeted my professor good night and then went back to home without even looking behind but I was laughing in the inside because how William’s face would have been when I gave no any attention to the creepy standing benches , “it would have been a good show for you” William whispers into ears (I forgot that he can hear my inner voice)and asked me , “so will you let me live with your love or still you wanna have a spirit to fight for your love ?” my face was getting weirder and fed up from hearing his nonsense “keep on dreaming”, I replied. With furious in his eyes William was floating behind me ( somewhat like a balloon he looked if we see from afar) without thinking it through I made him mad even more ,his face was so pale and I tried to look sleepy as if I’m tried so stepped little bit further away from him, by tiny steps without altering him and I walked away as if nothing happened but he went crazy when I did that and did some noise that sounded like crying dogs with a forceful grip he held my wrist and he started to press my upper body to his side ,I was starting to feel pain coming from my chest, my books fell out of my hand and I could feel the heat raising from my body, then he didn’t care but to bring even more pain then I started to scream and cry at the same time but he didn’t leave me and he did not have any idea of how much misery I’m in . I looked at him without any word and he calm down a bit, I whispered to him “you are hurting me so let me go" then he came back to his old self and he let me go with a very depressing face then I walked to home and I can feel he is still following me but didn’t want to touch at all after I reached home he was gone (maybe he went to the ghost mount). I laid my head to my pillow , while I twisted and tossed in my bed thinking about everything happened today. After a few minutes ,I heard drake coming in with a plate of grapes in his hands he sat down next to me saying , “can I sleep here with you tonight ?” so he sat down next to me and gently placed his hand above mine and we started chatting a little bit. I always have a comfortable sensation when it comes to drake even when we want to talk about private life we never feel awkward with each other ,I really am grateful and thankful to God for giving me a great friend like him . We slept in the same bed facing each other and held hands , a little while later I heard something weird( cracking door ) so I opened my eyes ,my heartbeat dropped as I saw William in the ceiling starring like a demon who is ready to kill then I saw drake if he was still there but he was on the floor with his hands and legs tied up but he was sound asleep it was like he was under a spell or something then knowing he is okay I turned around to William he was next to me in my bed ,I was really mad after knowing he pushed drake down from my bed so I turned around to sleep so he can go away then suddenly I can felt something under my shirt slowly coming up to my chest when it came close I stopped it with my both hands and it’s William’s hand then i turned to his side and said, “are you trying to make me kill you or torture you huh huh jeez” . William was looking at me very strange after I said that , he got off my bed and took drake out of my room then he came back with no expression in his face and he locked the door. “Hey! Why did you lock the door ,you are shameless!” I shouted but he was so quiet with no emotion in his face , after that time I became silent too because I know what will happen if I made him angry and situation says I should keep quiet if I wanna live but I was getting worried about drake so turned my head back and forth to look from my window then William shook his head telling me he is alright and he showed me that he was in the hall ,sleeping. I didn’t say anything but when he locked the door my eyes popped out but being silent I can save myself so I covered myself up with three to five blankets , he was just standing before me ,I thought he was going to see me sleep but that’s where I was wrong ,without even taking out the blankets he just turned like a fog entering . I felt so warm and he lifted my head, wrapped me around his arm and started to take off my shirt's button one by one ,I couldn’t keep still and started to scream , “no-one will hear you right now I blocked the noise from your room and there is no-one to save you this time” said William. That sounded so awful to me and I had that disgusting feeling that never came before. Making my spirit with full power of confidence I looked at him without any fear because I know I have to be strong to face him then the fact him being a p*****t remained me but too late. He rushed towards me biting my every side of my neck when i was unable to bear it he put his hand to cover my mouth, my breath was not normal what could have possibly happen. My head was tiring me up and I felt so dizzy like I was given drugs or poison, it was really saddened me because I never sensed love from him , no idea what is he trying to do …I…will….never ….( out of breath)

To be continued..