Taylor
It felt like facing a big chaotic battlefield that I couldn’t pass through with victory. Ignoring my feelings for my brother was too damn hard.
I acted like a total jerk in front of William last night and he probably thought of me as a heartless person. But later I realized that maybe it was for the best that we were having this gap for a time. I would eventually reach out to him, because I couldn’t lose him as a brother.
I was gradually losing my sanity and reaching my limit and I needed time to heal before I could start again on anything with him. I perceived William’s silent treatment towards me as anger, I feared for him to have another outburst in front of me. But I have much worse fear of the thought that he might suddenly try seducing me again. I couldn’t resist him anym
