my Rapist my Lover

My Rapist My Lover 13

It's been a week since Monde lied to me (yes, I was counting) I didn't ask him anything when he was still in Durban. He was coming back today and I was planning on working till late hours, a woman's gut can never be wrong they say but I refused to believe that I could be cheated on, there must be an explanation for this it can't be he loved me too much. He called later telling me that he was in the CBD asking me if I wanted anything like hell I did.

I was still buried in my work when the receptionist Thandi buzzed me in telling me there was someone there to see me, I knew then that it was Monde he brought me to work every now and then but never got in so it was understandable that Thandi didn't know him. He was soon knocking on my door of which I pretended to be busy when he came in.

"Babe" I looked at him briefly and greeted him.

Wow no hug no nothing for you boyfriend you haven't seen for a week" he smirked.

It annoyed me that I loved the man so much but I refused to let that blind me.

"I am taking you home, I can't have you working at this hour" just then Mr Johnson's got in " I need that article I emailed you earlier, are you done editing it?" he asked without acknowledging my visitor.

"Yes, I will send it to you just now" I replied, he looked at me for a while then greeted Monde.

"He wants to get inside your pants" Monde said as soon as Mr Johnson's was out, I laughed.

"No, he doesn't" he raised his eyebrow and kept quiet. I forwarded the article to the boss then we left. He bought take-aways on the way there was no way I was cooking at that time.

Are you sure you okay" he asked when I gave him his food.

"Let me see....oh besides being lied to I'm doing pretty well" I turned taking the tray to where I was. We spent that night in bed apart no holding each other well it was hot anyway so I wasn't bothered.

I was woken up by someone shaking me roughly in the middle of the night only to find that it was this stupid boyfriend I have.

"What?" he was already up

"Let's talk"

In the middle of the night, really?" I was annoyed.

"Minenhle you called me a liar" really dude you woke me up for that

"Can't we talk about that in the morning?"

"No" why is he getting angry I'm the one who was lied to not him.

I got up and went to wash my face on the en-suite bathroom clearly, I needed to be fully awake for this.

"Okay talk"

"Minenhle I don't appreciate you insulting me calling me a liar" wow.

"I didn't call you a liar I said I was lied to clear you ears need some cleaning" he rubbed his hands in frustration.

Babe what did I do?"

"You still asking Monde? You said your nephew was sick and I know your brother's kids are not even in the country" his eyes popped out and he kept quiet.

"You wanted to talk Monde khuluma ke let's talk isn't that what you woke me up for? I was now annoyed. He scratched his head he was clearly calming down well I wasn't.

"I have a son" what? Oh no!

"What?" he got up from bed and came to stand right in front of me, looking everywhere but my eyes.

I have a son" he said searching my eyes if searching for what we have or had I don't know. I kept quiet I was really hurt not because he lied but because he thought I wouldn't accept his son, what did he take me for.

"Please say something" he begged.

"I have nothing to say" he took my hand trying to stop me from leaving I turned.

"You know what hurts me the most Monde" he looked at me broken

I thought we didn't keep things from each other, I told you about my son from the word go but you couldn't trust me enough to tell me about yours. Do you really think that little of me Monde" I was pouring my heart here.

"Please babe..."

"Don't babe me Monde don't I can't even look at you right now you disgust me" I took my phone as I was leaving our bedroom he said

"I have a wife" I turned to him slowly

"I am married Minenhle" he said quietly.

He was married. I am dreaming I must be dreaming.

I should have seen it, I shod have I mean the late night calls, the fact that he went to Durban almost every week and I couldn't reach him unless he called. I should have seen it but I didn't. I felt like such a fool. I felt numb, bleak is the right word any person would be throwing fit right now, shouting but here I was still waiting for him to say that he's lying it's just some sort of a sick joke.

"You are married?" I asked

I wanted to tell you but I didn't know how to it hurts me too Minenhle because I love you" he was crying. Why is he crying, does this guy honestly think I'm a fool? Nothing annoys me like a guy who does you wrong and then cry expecting you to be touched and forgive him.

"Monde I need you to take your things and leave" he just stood there.

Actually, this is your house anyway I will leave" I could feel tears prickling from my eyes threatening to escape but I didn't want to cry in front of him. I kept telling myself not to cry a thousand times. I took my suitcase on top of the wardrobe and put it on the bed then took all my clothes out he was still stuck there. It annoyed me that I had so many clothes that couldn't fit on my suitcase. He after coming to his senses took the clothes I was packing out of my suitcase which was really getting on the last of my nerves.