untamed feelings

16

MAYRA'S POV

" Vishal, please tell ."

I said in a curious tone but by practically ignoring me, he hopped on the couch and started checking his cell phone.

"Barbie doll, just go and get ready because I am not going to utter a single word."

He stuck his tongue out. I smiled and  shook my head at his childish reaction.

Stepping inside my room and after taking a deep breath, I changed my clothes into black denim and simple white shirt.

I grabbed my hair into high pony and with that I walked back into living room where to my surprise I found vishal 

sleeping on the couch.

With tip toes, I get closer and started tickling him. He jumped in shock but soon started tickling me back.

" P-Please s-stop."

I yelled but instead of stopping his action, he pulled me on the couch and repeated his action.

" Say that, I am the most hottest specimen alive on this earth."

He shouted with a evil laugh and winked at me.

" I am t-the most hottest specimen alive on this earth."

I said in between my laugh and winked him back.

" So funny."

He muttered sarcastically and grabbed my both hands. My stomach ached due to laughter and I tried my level best  to get away from his hold but all in vain.

" Am I disturbing something?"

Suddenly someone's strong voice dragged both me and vishal out of our little tickle fight and after looking over the direction of that voice, we instantly get up. 

I saw pair of dark orbs staring at me with  no emotions. I gulped down slowly and started avoiding my gaze with him.

" Rehan bro. No no, you are not disturbing anything."

Vishal said to him playfully.

"I am waiting outside."

Rehan locked his jaw in annoyance.

When he stepped outside, I turned towards vishal with curious look. 

" Why he's here?"

"Barbie doll, you were asking for so long right, that what's special today. So that special thing is your dinner date with your fiancé Rehan."

He winked and my mouth instantly hung after listening to him.

Dinner date with Rehan?

I bite my lower lips nervously. How am I supposed to go with him? I mean, I am nervous. It's not like I will be alone with him for the first time but A DATE? 

I closed my eyes shut and Rehan's face appeared inside my mind and a smile instantly dropped on my lips.

" Now please go before he will change his mind. I had tried real hard to make him ready with the idea of going out with you on dinner."

He cleared his imaginary sweat from his forehead and sighed dramatically.

I smiled at him nervously and went outside.

There he was, occupying the driving seat in his car with a emotionless face.

I grabbed a seat and slowly pulled the door shut. After that I started adjusting the seat belt with my trembling fingers but after several attempts, the result was all vain. Suddenly his arm reached towards me and he locked the seat belt with so much easiness that it was one of the simplest task. The smell of his intoxicating Cologne found it's way through my nostrils making my senses numb.

I was this much struck in my thoughts that I almost forgot that was already driving.

My eyes fell on his strong, rough fingers which were tightly wrapped on the steering wheel.

" Are you angry?"

I don't know how these words slipped out and second next I started regretting.

" I am sorry."

I whispered softly and looked at him but he just maintained the blank face.

Something is definitely wrong.

He was behaving strange today. He was not yelling neither staring at me like usual. 

Should I ask him? 

I instantly dropped the idea of asking him anything and turned on the music player, "Thousand years" of Christiana perri  started blasting and I smiled surprisingly as it was one of my favorite song.

I started mouthing lyrics and turned my eyes towards window.

The Day we met. 

Frozen. I held my breath.

right from the start. 

I knew that I found a home for my heart beats fast.

Colors and promises. 

How to be brave ?

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

But watching you stand alone.

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer.

I have died everyday waiting for you.

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you.

for a thousand years 

I'll love you for a thousand more.

A soft knots formed inside my belly and there was something about this song this time that forced me to think about Rehan.

It was not like I heard this song for the first time but definitely for the first time I have a feeling of some strange emotions connected with this song. 

What's happening with me?

Suddenly, Rehan turned the music off and when I looked up at him, I found something painful in his eyes.

But after few seconds, once again he returned to neutral look.

" A-Are you fine?"

I questioned him weekly and instantly his face snapped towards.

" Don't put these shitty love songs in front of me."

His eyes were clearly reflecting some dark emotions like pain, hurt, anger but was it actually or I was just hallucinating?

I blinked in confusion and curiosity but it seemed like he had realized that I was trying to read his face, so he fixed his face on the windshield.

I sighed. 

There was something strong and painful which he was hiding deep inside him.

"We are here."  I realized that we had reached our destination. 

So, I stepped out after him and to my surprise I found that he had brought me to one of the best restaurant of this city.

He intertwined his fingers with mine and just like that a weird sensation hit my skin.

We walked inside and I tried my best to avoid the pair of eyes which were fixed on us.

" Welcome sir, welcome ma'am, please have a seat."

A beautiful girl stood smiling to us whilst gesturing towards the special table.

I mouthed thank-you to her and sat across Rehan.

As i shifted my eyes in the surrounding, I found everyone giving the aura of high class. Then it hit me that I am here in my jeans and shirt. 

I bite my inner cheeks in embarrassment and looked at my cloth over and over again.

" You are perfectly dressed at lest not like the revealing clothes you use to wear."

He blankly said, going through the menu.

I don't know why but every inch of my insecurity went away.

" I had no idea that we are having a dinner otherwise I might have dressed appropriately.

" I don't like to repeat myself, I said that you're perfectly dressed, right? Now stop roaming your eyes and order something, I am famished."

I nodded with a light laugh.

After that, once again our environment turned into awkward silent.

" So tell me something about you."

He asked out of blue and catch a look at his platinum wrist watch.

But before I could reply anything his facial posture changed, making my words to die in my mouth.

"What the f**k were you doing with Vishal on the same couch?" 

I flinched at his sudden change in tone.

His mood swings!

First he asked me something out of blue than this? Why he's so confusing?

"We were-" I paused than added " I am sorry."

Pulling my bottom lips in between my teeth, I hesitatingly looked up at him and to my surprise he was looking at me back.

" Do you have any boyfriend?"

He stressed the boyfriend word bitterly. 

I smiled at his silly question.

"If I have boyfriend than do you really think, I would be here, with you?"

I gestured towards our table.

" Do you have any girlfriend?"

I asked him nervously and he let out a humorless sarcastic laugh.

" No."

" Why?"

" Isn't it obvious that now I am going to have a wife. So having a girlfriend would be crime."

" Yeah, if you will than definitely vishal will kill you. He has more soft corner for his sister than for his best friend."

And don't know why but for few seconds, it actually felt like we had know each other already. Maybe.

But than something unusual happened, he started laughing really hard and for the first time I got the pleasure of watching his real smile which revealed his cute dimple. 

My eyes went wide, witnessing the twinkling spark in his eyes. 

This is the date, to remember.

Soon as if he remembered something and again that plain, dark and arrogant look returned to his face. 

My heart clenched a little but quickly I composed myself as I know that something harsh is going to follow up.

" I don't have girlfriend but that doesn't mean I would not have s*x after marriage."

Tears stung to my cheeks as his word registered completely.

Why his word hurting me? It's not like we have any relation in reality.

Next we ate in silence and I didn't even dared to look up at him again.

But I am happy that he had a genuine laugh tonight. I smiled with a hope that in future, I will witness more of his dimple revealing laugh.

"Can we leave now?"

I asked him after finishing my food but he kept quite.

Why he is so difficult? 

I closed my eyes and let out a small breath.

" When are you planning to marry me?"

I dig my nails on my thigh and after gathering lots of courage, I finally asked him the question which was running from so long in my mind.

He shot up his eyebrow.

"Desperate, are we?"

"I was just curious."

I replied in a blank tone and he let out a dark chuckle whilst throwing his head back.

" I have to attend a seminar and for that I will be out of the country- "

But before I can complete my sentence, he suddenly grabbed my wrist and stood up and than started walking outside the restaurant towards his car.

I looked at him with a questioning look but instead of saying anything he directed me to sit inside the car and after that he started driving in rash speed.

I decided to keep quiet and just fixed my eyes at him in a hope that he might say anything about sudden change in his behavior.

After 15 minutes, we reached his house and he placed his arm around my waist, pulling me closer to his side.

" Just walk."

He said calmly. I nodded and stepped inside his house.

My jaw automatically dropped in awe after having the huge and beautiful interior of his house.

" Close your mouth, you might catch flies."

I pressed my lips together and he grabbed a seat over his couch after removing his hands around my waist.

He took out his cell phone from his pocket and dial someone's number.

" Vishal, I want you to arrange my wedding in next 2 days."

I blinked once, twice, thrice. 

Deep breaths.

" Wh-hat are you s-aying?"

He gave me the void look but stood up and  pushed me into the wall, trapping me their with his body. My breath get hitched up.

" Are you scared of me?"

He asked me with a smirk and my body shivered

" N-No."

I stammered and after listening to me his signature smirk disappeared and with a flat look, he started  bringing his body, dangerously close to me. 

Now in this chilled temperature also, sweat  flashed over my skin and I squirmed my shoulders.

" Tell me, are you scared of me?"

He repeated his question, once again. 

And this time my tongue rolls out the "yes" word.

" You should be Maiyra because you are getting married to nightmare. Accept the fact that you can never be happy after this."

He completed his sentence in a painful tone which only reminded that he was holding so much dark inside him. 

He turned his gaze away from me and started looking over his shoulder. 

somehow a small smile crept on my lips.

" I will be happy as long as the nightmare whom I getting married will be happy."

I whispered softly whilst holding my gaze with him and after listening to me, he twitched the corner of his lips into smirk and let me go.

" You are not going to attend any seminar in fact your are going to resign working in hospital as psychiatrist after marriage."

He said casually making my mind numb.

My job is my life. I love treating patient, I love helping them, I love making them move away from their traumas, I love giving them new hope but he is saying to stop that all?

I can't. I can't say no to my job.

" No I will not, I love my job."

I opposed him sternly but he just chuckled in response.

" You are getting married to me, married to Rehan Malhotra, the billionaire, so why do you need to get money from your so called job?"

Tears gathered in the corner of my eyes after hearing his words.

How can I explain you Rehan that everything is not always related to money?

" I don't do my job for money."

" Is it so? No problem dear fiancé, you can continue your job."

" But only after you'll get spare time from doing household works."

He said with a smirk and I just nodded in a agreement.

So, two days. I smiled nervously.

In next two days, my life will be changed completely. In two days I am going to marry him.

I inhaled air sharply and started looking here and there.

What I am supposed to do next? 

I took my cell phone, catching three messages from Vishal.

Vishal: How's your date going barbie doll?

Vishal: oh, so you are busy with your fiancé so much that now you are neglecting your friend, huh?

Vishal: what happened between you two that Rehan just called me to arrange your wedding in two days?

Me: curiosity kills the cat.

Vishal: You two kissed or not?

Vishal, you are really stupid!

I said to myself and after placing my cell phone on silent mode, I looked over Rehan who was busy in drinking alcohol.

"Sit."

I followed his words into action.

" Who are you?"

He asked me rapidly and I  bite on my lips in nervousness.

" You know, staying with me means playing with fire. Aren't you scared of getting burned?"

I lifted my eyes up to meet his but there was no trace of emotion reflecting from them.

" You were also agreed to marry me."

I said in frustration. His words were not making any sense.

My body stiffened that maybe he was going to be angry with my reply.

" But I want to be near you."

He whispered softly leaning closer to me, leaving me in the state of complete shock.

I gulped down slowly and tried calm the pace of my heart.

" You want to know why?"

Once again he whispered, leaning more closer to my ear. 

I nodded after keeping my eyes shut tightly. 

" Because I -"

He started but he left his words hanging in between. 

I can still sense his presence near my ear and his warm breath which were tingling all over my neck making me, impossible to open my eyes.

" Because I also don't know." 

He added in disappointment and pulled himself back to his initial position.

My eyes went open and I saw him scratching the back of his neck. 

Relax Maiyra, he was not in his senses. 

I tried myself to calm down but the eruptions of thousand of butterflies inside my belly were hard to ignore.

How can he has such a strong effect on me?

Breath in. 

Breath out.

"Rehan sleep, it's almost 11:30 already."

I tried to change the subject but a frown crossed his face.

" I can't."

" Rehan?"

" I want a break."

I raised my eyebrows at him in a gesture to elaborate what he had said.

" I never remember anything next morning after drinking. I want a break from you. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE."

I just nodded and with that I left his room.

My mind started replying all his conversation from the starting and it was really strange of him to act like that.

I am becoming unable to interpret the emotions from his eyes.

It's like, he was a complicated part of that puzzle who's end and start were missing.