That's not who I am!

Chapter 18

LIAM'S POV

I wake up the next morning when I feel Jane stirring in my arms. Greatful to be in my bed as its way more comfortable and her room is still airing out.

"Baby girl don't run away" I say not letting her go.

"Don't you have work?" Jane asks and I open my eyes and look at her. "No, actually we plans today" I say "What do you mean we have plans today?" Jane asks I tuck her hair behind her ear as I say "You trust me don't you baby girl?" "Of course I do, but what do you mean we have plans?" Jane asks.

"It's a surpise, let's get ready" I say then I kiss her forehead. "Ready for what?" Jane asks "That would ruin the surpise. You said you trust me so prove it. I promise you be okay, your be with all of us and I won't leave your side" I say

"I" Jane goes to say but then she stops herself saying anything and has little frown lines. So cute I think. Then I decided to get up before I kiss that frown away, that wouldn't be good my baby girl isn't ready for that yet.

A hour later everyone's in the kitchen and Jane's pacing no matter how many times I've guided her to sit down she has gotten back up and started pacing.

"Okay, you love Christmas right baby girl?" I say she stops pacing and looks at me "Yeah, why?" She says "Great were going Christmas shopping it's nearly Christmas after all. Everyone's going Christmas shopping" I say and my baby girl goes wide eyed but looks scared.

"Don't worry Sissy, I'll keep you safe" Luke says pausing to wrap a arm around her on his way to the sink to place his empty cup.

"I can't wait, your love it" Layla says trying to sound hopeful. "And we haven't been shopping in forever. I know having these three will be annoying because there complain how much we buy but it will be fun" My mum says.

"And I'll be by your side every step of the way I promise to not complain. Trust us" I say.

"I don't know" Jane says

"Jane, your out numbered. You have three Mafia men plus servel dozen more that will be about. Your be safer than the royal family" My dad says

"It's time, time to show the world you are not afraid of them anymore" My mum says

"But I am afraid of them" Jane says "We know, but you have us" Luke says

"Excaulty your all become targets as well!" Jane says which makes Luke place his cup on the counter then he holds both of Jane's arms as he says "Look at me Sissy" and she does. "Right now listen, We are the biggest Mafia in the UK. We are the Mafia Kings. We rule this place. We own the damn shipping mall. We own most of Liverpool! We can't be defeated for a reason. We don't hide and your not hiding anymore. You will be with us and you will be safe. We understand your scared but you don't be scared for us. We ain't scared okay"

"Your all be sorry when this bites you on the ass" Jane says "No, your be surpised when you realise it's really going to be okay. Trust me I was you once honey.. There not lieing" My mum says "I trust them.. if I didn't I won't allow this" Layla says

"Are I'm excited to shop for once so let's go" My dad says.

"Urgh, I hate you all right now" Jane says

"we know" We all say at the same time and Jane rolls her eyes as we all get up before Jane changes her mind.

JANE'S POV

"I can't do this" I say standing infront of the shopping mall. "Yes you can baby girl" Liam says pulling me into a hug. "What you going to do when it hits the papers I already see one person have there phone out looking like they took a photo or video" I say

"I'll keep you safe" Liam says so confidently but I ainy confident at all.

"What when the reporters rock up outside your house?" I say "They will be turned away" Liam says

"Urgh, let's get this over with. I want to go home" I say and Liam smiles as Layla says "I'm glad you see it as home. That's a start"

"It's a figure of speach" I say moving out of the hug I wish I could stay in but I can't not here. Liam is crazy people will turn on him. There turn on all of them. They have no idea what it's like I think. Liam takes my hand and Layla loops her arm in mine. "Your all so stupid, your become targets" I say

"No we wont" Luke says "I'm confident in the security I have with these lot" Layla says gripping my arm harder as I try to shake them all off as we walk inside the shopping mall.

"I hate you" I say nudging Layla and she just laughs as she says "I love you to" "It's a good job I love you otherwise I'd beat you off me. I have half a mind to for your own stupidity" I say

"Just relax, this is ment to be fun" Cara says

"You think I can relax, you should know better" I say "I do, that's why I say it's okay" Cara says.

"So why does all your police friends advice to keep low don't poke the bears. This is poking the bears Cara. Last time I went shopping it ended in a black eye and that was food shopping!" I say

"Your entilted to shopping just like anyone else you didn't do anything wrong" Aaron says

"I know that, if I had done something wrong I'd understand it. But I didn't but the bears don't see it like that no they have claws and they want there claws in me" I say

"They can't claw you I won't allow it" Luke says "And I'll defeat any bears that try" Liam says as we enter the first shop. Lush. Figures I think it's Laylas favourite shop.

"Just shop already and enjoy it" Aaron says

"I'll shop because I have to but I assure you I'm not enjoy a second of it.

And I don't. I rush around the shop faster than anyone else. I fill the basket with random gift boxes and head straight for the checkout. I'm then stood by the door Laim and Luke next to me waiting on Cara and Layla. After five minutes I get inpatient and head straight for them.

"Can you please hurry up otherwise I'm going back to the car and you won't stop me!" I say waving my own shopping bags in my hand to show I'm done already

"Okay, we're head to the checkout now. Just calm down no ones even looked our way" Layla says and Cara squints her eyes as she says "oooo"

"What planet are you on! I heard two women talking about me. I've seen three people pointing in my direction and at least one person took a photo I'm pretty sure Chase is paying her off now to delete it since I can see them right outside"

"Okay, I didn't think you would notice" Layla says giving a opposie face. "I notice everything my eyes are everywhere.. I'm going to die of stress in a minute" I say

"Well that's a little extreme but I understand it feels that way, come on Layla let's go pay for what we got already in our baskets" And with that they walk away and I turn around to go back to Luke all the while Liam right by my side.

"Chase is paying the lady off your right" Laim says "Fool save your money" I say

"I don't care if its one less photo then it's worth it for your peace of mind baby girl" Liam says

"Peace of mind, stupid" I mutter and Luke gives me a hug as he says I can cause a distraction you know moon them"

"Yeah cause that would be great" I say rolling my eyes. "It's worth a try be funny at least" Luke says "Keep ya trousers on. I don't care about the pictures I'm use to it by now" I say

Tye next few shops go by roughly the same but then I can't help myself when I see the Christmas shop. I end up filling three baskets up and it's Cara and Layla waiting for me this time.. I try to ignore people but there grating on me. There ruining my fun. This shop is fun.

"f*****g cheek Christmas shopping when a girl actually died if you ask me" I hear a women say and that's when I lose it. I pass my basket to Luke since Liam already has one and won't let go of my hand then I yank my hand free and march straight up to the women.

"You wanna know what the cheek is?" I say and she looks surpised.

"I tell you what the cheek is you know what spread the word tell the papers and new reporters I don't care. This is the first time since I left the house. I didn't kill anyone did I? no but guess what I was nearly killed by four people. With weapons. I nearly died I wish I had, I even went to kill myself I've begged people to let me kill myself less than two days ago. Why because of people like you. But they won't let me. So yeah I'll Christmas shop why because I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't kill anyone! So until you have lived my life. until you been raped then nearly killed for someone else's sins and then find out that monster is the reason you were raped you don't get to f*****g judge me for shopping. People like you don't get to judge me. People like you don't get to keep coming at me with threats, hurting me attacking me and expect me to just disappear because trust me I'd rather disappear than live in a world where people like you are. So if you don't like it I'm shopping how about you f**k off out of this shop you mindless t***s" I shout then I turn around and head back to where I was looking at as I hear people start clapping "You tell them love, it makes me sick how people have treated you. Shop all you want" I hear some random women shout out. I turn around to see if I can pin point the women but I don't but I see the women hurrying away.

"Thats gonna be on the six o'clock news" I say before picking up some gingerbread wrapping paper.

"That was epic! I didn't know you had that in you" Luke says but we then hear Layla shouting "I dare you to say that to my face I'll rip your face clean off" And we turn to see Cara and Aaron are holding Layla back from the women who was clearly saying s**t as she left not expecting layla to be at the ready the women start running and I don't know if I should cry or laugh.

"Yeah definitely on the six o'clock news" I say then picking up some blue wrapping paper with silver snow flakes on.

"Don't worry about it" Liam says

"Okay I think I'm done" I say and head for the checkout.

"I'm so done with this bullshit can we now just enjoy shopping?" Layla says joining me at the checkout.

"You know what I am to and I want some new clothes" I say smiling "Thats a girl, let's get new wardrobes" Layla says smiling "Okay" I say smiling back but I'm no where near confident as Layla shouts out "Were not done we got clothes to buy Cara"

"Well let's expect the reporter to show up in the clothes shops since you just announced that" I say

"Oh s**t, sorry I didn't think" Layla says

"There won't be reporters were have closed the doors to the public only people can leave now. Unless there's already some lurking around but we should spot them a mile off in which case there be told to leave" Luke says

"What, but that will just make you lose money. Open the doors fools. I can't have that" I say

"You sure your ready to keep conquering everyone?" Liam asks

"I'm sure, I'll have to one day anyway" I say