Finding me

Hey yeah it's me Oh I am so foolish Where are my manners Let me introduce myself My name is..... why don't you give me a name and that's how we'll go.. I don't need to know your real name and so do you Let's just get to know each other Nah scratch that You need to know me to know me But I don't really know me Right now I am just a person like everyone else that breathes and eats and sleeps and repeats. Have I achieved something in life.. Well some say I've achieved loneliness. You see even that loneliness in me is nothing special Every other soul experiences it so why is my loneliness a problem. Let me be Lonely Depressed Sad Socially awkward... no well yes Aah I don't I mean I try to be confident And you know what no one knows that it's just a facade. Mask.... Yup I have got a name for myself... Let's call me Faces... Yeah like all the different faces of me you'll get to experience. Sounds fun doesn't it Give me a face A gender Well why would you.. oh give if you want to.. and don't if you don't. Now where were we.. yup my name it's not faceless. It'll be Faces I still wanna go out there and be something even if it's just a face I have always been invisible or well that's what I consider myself to be because not many remember me I have never been able to leave a big enough impact in someone's life that they'll remember. They'll mention my name.. they'll never mention my name because it's unimportant, and mostly irrelevant to their conversation Oh and don't get me started about my broken confidence. no no I have never been bullied. never tortured nothing why would I ever go there all in all my life should be termed as a bliss but why am I not happy Or rather what should I do so that I stay happy. Well an empty room to fill my thoughts, my favorite food and a warm blanket in the chilly winter, a movie of my liking and if not then scrolling through funny videos on social media makes me happy. Oh but I was told that's not happiness but rather a protective bubble that I have created around myself that gives me an illusion of happiness.. big words damn. Oh and there's one more form in which happiness comes to me a calming walk with headphones on and it becomes even better if I don't find someone known along the way.. pure and sheer happiness I say People especially the ones you know tend to often ruin a good day just by existing.. oh oh just telling. you can have different thoughts. or help me change my thoughts. well I am stubborn so mine won't change as easily. Then there comes this different angle. should I tell about it now? I mean I'd have to at some point. Yeah nope ok here it is .... ... ... ... you pressured me into telling so don't you date make fun of me. well I haven't ever had desires.... yeah so no sex no self pleasuring aah I've watched porn but I just watched it.. just seeing.. ...nothing else, so my complicated mind has never experienced that kinda relief either and to be true to myself I don't know if I want that relief? I am happy the way I am Asexual... don't know will we be talking about it?? Don't need to it's not about my s*x life sex is an overrated concept you do it if you want to and don't if you don't. why make it an issue. do it with whoever you want and however you want. but don't expect everyone else to be as s*x crazed as you yourself are has been my motto. well we kinda deviated from the topic. But what was the topic? There's none yet we'll get a topic to talk about once we actually have a background information. oh so what is it that you can know about faceless the character. Oh ok well first off faceless is also genderless so choose your own. Faceless is gonna be a character of medium height. A little chubby because faceless doesn't do anything. Faceless is also jobless...Haha Hah ha h.. Yeah faceless is... kinda useless You know the emoji that came with useless was ??? Faceless is not that no we are not going there Faceless is a proud person... well even if it's a facade faceless has a proud face. If that makes any sense It does it does let's hope it does. Well faceless is caring likes to prove that it's strong likes to write because it wants to be heard but hardly ever reads Faceless is scared of faces but faceless is not scared of heights or small rooms or congested places. Faceless has a beautiful voice Faceless likes to sing and when it does faceless forgets it's worries Faceless likes spicy and sour but not sweet it has a particular preference for sweet either that or no sweet Faceless is an Overthinker but was never an overachiever... oh faceless poor faceless Faceless does like to dress up but would be happy if it doesn't have to do that on it's own Faceless likes to look good but doesn't want to get ready Faceless hates bugs It wasn't the case before but it grew a fear of insects as it grew up. Well I am tired of writing. Let's meet later