Secrets

I want you

Freddie's POV

'Freddie? Are you in here!?'

Oh.my.god. f*****g Roger. Someone is sucking my d**k. Bash is still deepthroating and I'm trying really hard not to moan. I ignore Roger.

'Freddie? I know you're here.' f**k, why doesn't he go back to that girl? Bash looks up to me.

'Ignore him' I say, without making any noise.

'Freddie.' Roger is now standing in front of the cubicle Bash and I are in. Bash pulls me out of his mouth. I gasp. I need f*****g more.

'Freddie, are you allright?'

I was before you stormed in saying my name.

'Yes, please go away.' I didn't mean to sound this angry.

'Are you in there with someone?' I can hear the little b***h giggle.

'I said go away!'  I'm getting really annoyed.

'No, I need to talk to you.'

'Roger! We can talk later.'

'No, NOW.'

'GO.AWAY.' I don't want to hurt him or anything, but my c**k really wants Bash right now.

'I'm waiting here.'

'Jesus Christ!' I sigh loudly. I can't f**k Bash when Roger is standing there. I put my boxers and pants back on.

'I'm sorry...' I kiss Bash one last time and then open de cubicle. Roger smirks when he sees Bash, who quickly runs out of the toilets.

'What the f**k Roger?'

'Oh get over it, you probably didn't even know his name!'

'He's called Bash, and he's actually really nice. You could've met him, but you were too busy with that girl you probably don't know the name of.'

Roger is quiet and looks a little hurt. f**k, I can't stand it when he is sad. I shouldn't have been so angry at him.

'What did you wanna talk to me about?' My voice softens a little, and I walk towards him.

'Can we go outside? It's too crowded here.'

'Of course Rog.' We stare at each other for a moment. I drop my eyes to his lips and suddenly get an intense urge to kiss him. His lips just look so soft and kissable. I can't do it and I know it. But there's no fighting this feeling. And he already cheated on Dominique anyway so...

I gently press my lips against his. Nothing in my whole entire life had ever felt this right.

Then I realize what I'm doing. I pull back quickly and start to panic.

'God I'm so stupid! I'm sorry...I...' had to. Roger is silent. He stares at me and then down at his feet. I don't know what to say.

'Please come with me..' he then says quietly.

'O-Okay...' my voice is shaky. How the f**k did I let myself do that? I KISSED HIM. He'll never look at me again.

I follow Roger outside. I feel like I could faint any moment. Because I'm still freaking out, but probably also because I'm still f*****g drunk. 

What the f**k is Roger doing? He'll probably just punch me in the face outside but didn't want to do it inside cuz people would see it. I feel like a f*****g little kid that is gonna be yelled by a teacher. Roger pulls me into an alleyway next to the club.

'Freddie...' I can see him swallow. There are f*****g tears in his eyes. And it's my fault.

'I'm so scared to tell this.' Wait... is he talking about the kiss or not?

'It's okay Rog.' He grabs my hands. A warm sensation spreads through my body.

'The reason I don't love Dominique anymore is because...I....' a tear runs down his face.

'Shhh...you can tell me' I softly squeeze his warm hands.

'I don't want to be with a girl. I want a man this time. That's what I wanted to tell you.' What???? His big blue eyes full of tears stare into mine. 'Freddie, I'm bisexual. I want you.'