First Heartbreak

Chapter Thirty-Seven - Sorry Not Sorry

Zen POV

Idiot! I mentally slapped my forehead. Sam heard everything that Vanessa and I were talking about. It crossed my mind that Vanessa might've set it up so Sam could hear it herself. Sigh. There was nothing I could do. The girl of my dreams, the girl I've been crushing on for so long, the girl I've ever laid eyes on, was now running away from me. To make matters worse, she said she doesn't need me anymore.

It's as if those words were rolling out of her mouth, not caring about what I would feel. I felt like the whole world crashed on my shoulders. My chest feels like it's about to explode.

I knew from the very beginning that all I needed was her. Why did it became so hard for me to break up with Melody? Why was I making it easy to give up on her? Why was I such a jerk?

After Sam turned to run, I looked at her until her shadow disappeared. I hated this feeling. When I turned the other way, I saw pretty boy Rome who just got out of the clinic.

I wanted to punch him hard in the face again. It was all his fault! Remember, you were at fault too. You were so stubborn and full of pride when she rejected you! You could've just waited for her instead. Once again, the voices in my head were nagging me.

I took a deep breath and walked out of the building and dragged myself back to the classroom. Sam never returned. For sure she went home. Earlier she looked like a lioness ready to pounce and bite my head off!

The lessons were boring as always. Good thing Melody wasn't around, she was at band practice. Otherwise I would've been very distracted. Once dismissed, I was still at my seat covering my face with my hands. I tried not to cry.

"Having a bad day, are we?"

Still in the same position, I answered, "Not now Dee. I'm not in the mood."

"Looks like it too!" Sarcastic. She took a seat beside me. "I heard what happened at the cafeteria earlier." She placed her hand on my back, comforting me.

I didn't answered.

SMACK!!! My eyes shot open! "WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM DEE! I TOLD YOU NOT TO BOTHER ME BECAUSE I'M NOT IN THE MOOD!"

She crossed her arms on her chest and simply said, "That..." Pointing at me. "Is my problem." I stood there confused. She let out an irritated sigh. "That right there is my problem Zen! That attitude!"

I was still confused. "Instead of sulking over your mistakes, why don't you do something to correct them?"

"Wow! You smack the back of my head just to tell me that! And what do you suggest I do, huh??"

"You could start by correcting the first ever mistake that you did." I raised an eyebrow at her.

"What would that be?" She was about to smack me behind the head again when I noticed, I was able to block her hand. "HAH!" She just rolled her eyes.

"You could start by correcting that mistake..." Pointing towards the door where Melody stood, smiling from ear to ear.

Sigh. It's now or never, Zen! I nodded at Daisy and approached Melody. This is it.

I won't go into further details on how I broke up with Melody. All I know is that there was a lot of swearing, a lot of gestures and hands whipping all over the place, and most certainly I big, fat, red mark on my face from the impact on Melody's hands. It stung. I deserved that. I was a jerk.

"How did it go?" Daisy was sitting by the benches, reading a book

"How did you think it go?" She looked up and gasped at the mark on my left cheek. She chuckled. "You enjoy mocking me, don't you?" She just laughed.

"Well, at least your now free as a bird!"

"Yeah, free." I took my backpack and started to turn around. "Hey! Where are you going?" Daisy asked.

"Home. Obviously there's no need for me to stay in the school." She looked at me as if I was missing a cue or hint. "What?"

"I thought you were planning on correcting your mistakes today, bud?"

"I just did!" She still looked at me as if I had a big question mark on my head.

But she only said one word. "Sam."

Right. What would I say to her? How would I explain to her? would she still listen to me? How am I going to start? Moreover, where is she and how would I apologize to her when I don't even have a slightest idea where she's at!?

"Done day dreaming, bud?" Daisy snapped her fingers infront of me.

When I shifted my focus at her, she went back at reading her book. Without looking at me, she said, "I heard Sam was heading to Vanessa's."

Of course she's there! Where would she be!? She couldn't possibly go home yet, her mom would sure wonder and she could get in trouble!

"I learned earlier that she took off to Vanessa's home. I over-heard Rome and Vanessa talking hush-hush by the back building." She then looked up at me and smiled.

Damn! What would I do without my loyal best friend! I gave her a thankful look and my knees almost weakend from hearing where Sam was.

As I was about to head to the gate, she reached for my hand and whispered in my ear, "Go get 'em tiger!" And winked. I gave her a friendly peck on the cheek. "Thank you, thank you, thank you Dee!"

I was running towards the gate and couldn't feel more happy. My lungs were filled with excitement. I just had to tell her that it was her all along! My heart had been longing for her. I was just clouded by my stupid judgement and pride! I was selfish.

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It didn't took that long before I reached Vanessa's house. That freaking hanging bridge didn't scared me anymore. I was more scared of losing the person I love the most for good. I couldn't let that happen! Not now! Not ever!

I banged the door so hard so she could hear me. So Vanessa would let me in right away! I just had to see her. I had to tell her everything! I couldn't let the moment pass by.

Finally, Vanessa opened the door. "Where's Sam?" Was my immediate question.

"Ugh, well, hello to you too Zen!" She sounded sarcastic, I could tell by the way she rolled her eyes at me. She crossed her arms. "I'm sorry. Sam isn't here." She then stepped out and closed the door. Hmm.. If Sam wasn't there, then she should've just stayed at the door while talking to me. Something's telling me she's lying.

"I'm asking nicely Vanessa, where's Sam? Why are you keeping me away from her?" I furrowed my brows.

She shrugged. "I told you, she's not here! Now, get going before I call the cops to haul you off of my property!" Woah! She's giving me an attitude.

"Okay, okay. Fine, I'll leave." I raised my hands. As soon as her guard fell, I swirled around her a couple of times, making her dizzy and went in! I immediately locked it from the inside so she wouldn't get in. I had to find Sam. I was now breathless from all the running and swirling.

When I entered the living room, I noticed a sleeping figure on the sofa. I went to the side to see who it was. And there laid my sweet and adorable Sam. She sleeped soundly. I wanted to pinch her nose, but I resisted the urge to do it.

As I was looking down at her, observing, I couldn't help but notice how her eyes were puffy. She must have been crying. A pang of guilt spread from my heart until it reached my fingertips.

I slowly lowered my head. I also noticed her lips. Her mouth was slightly ajar. She wasn't snoring or anything. She just looked tired. I'm sorry honey. It's all my fault. I'll make it up to you, I promise. I cupped her face even if it was upside down.

Then a strong feeling washed before me. I kissed her. She was shocked for sure. Her mouth were closed. What surprised me was that she didn't even pushed me! She just laid there, her eyes were still closed, she had steady breaths. I felt a little guilty for kissing her roughly. So I softened my kiss. It wasn't long enough that she responded. My mind exploded and the butterflies were disturbed, they went on flying out and about!

I cursed mentally when both she and I were running out of air. I ended the kiss. She sat up, her hair falling on her face. She was touching her lips as she was gasping for air.

She slowly turned to my direction. Her eyes widen in surprise to see me. "Zen?" I never thought I'd ever hear her say my name again. Coming from her it just feels so right.

I came here to explain. So I know that whatever I did just now, I didn't feel sorry at all, not even a teeny tiny bit. And yeah, I’m smug as hell about it!