I love You, Goodbye

Chapter 3

I didn't realize that my tears were already dripping. I really miss him, I know we can't be anymore. I also know that he is married now. I still keep crying my eyes are almost blurred because of the water dripping on it.

With every drop of my tears I also continued to swallow the alcohol that until now had a bitter taste that ran down my neck before reaching my stomach.

The set up in Chloe's condo was nice, turned off the lights and we used a dance light to look really like at the bar.

As the beating of the loud sounds continued. I saw others jumping and dancing. I danced my head. I danced like, nothing had happened to me. Every time I dance, my tears keep dripping. My head was bowed while dancing pretending I was happy but I felt the pain in my heart. I felt a warm breath in my ear. I just let it go and continued to sip and drinking.

"Are you happy?" I heared a man asking me. I ignored him while I was still bent over.

"Can we talk? Please talk to me," he said

I lifted my head and looked at who is he. My eyes rolled when I saw Andrei's face with a big smile.

"I think we should go." He hold my arm but it didn’t hurt.

" I'll take you home." I just stared at him.

"Please talk to me." He whispered in my ear.

"We don't have anything to talk okay." After I said to him I saw his sad face.

I turned around but he grabbed my wrist and hugged me tightly. I just felt water on my shoulder.

"s**t! Why is he crying? What did I do to hurt him like this?" I patted his back.

Why does it hurt me to see him cry? Is this how he likes me that's why he still crying for me?

I saw a man wearing a leather jacket. He's back look like Travis's. I even wiped my eyes. I was not mistaken that he was really the one I saw.

I continued to dance while holding the bottle. I want to suppress how I feel. I know I love him but why do I keep hurting?

I was surprised when someone suddenly grabbed my wrist. I slowly lifted my head and saw Travis's handsome face.

I felt the butterfly in my stomach again. I removed his hand from holding me. I saw his sly eyes and his red lips. I felt that I want to bite his lip now in my mind.

My head ached when I realized Travis was actually in front of me.

"Wait, why is he here? Did Chloe invite him. Why Chloe didn't say to me?"

I approached Chloe who was sitting while talking with his boyfriend.

"Why did not you tell me?" I asked her

"I don't know what you're saying." Chloe replied.

She said this while staring into his sly eyes. I know she knew my ex was going to be here.

"You're so annoying! Chloe." I whispered to myself.

I heard others say goodbye. So I decided to turned around and slowly walked toward the door. Though dizzy, I forced myself to walk even though I staggered. When I came out of the condo there was no one outside. I forced myself to walk away as tears continued to flow in my eyes.

I walked down an alley. I took my phone out of the bag and it was funny because I had to leave my phone inside Chloe’s condo. I still continued to walk even in the dark. I felt scared but I kept going anyway. Until I felt dizzy so I stopped and leaned against the wall.

I thought about going back to Chloe’s condo. "Wait, where did I go before. s**t! I'm not good at memorizing roads, especially and dark."

I just continued walking. I was afraid when someone pulled a shovel on my wrist. I felt scared so my tears continue to flow.

"Who are you?" I asked to him.

I was shocked when he leaned me against the wall. I could feel his warm breath he hugged me tightly and grabbed me with a kiss. I tried to slapped him but he held my two hands tightly. He raised my hand and just kissed me again. I tried to kick him but he restrain me.

"Don't hurt me babe. I miss your kiss, I miss all of you." He said in a lower voice.

I heard the voice so I tried to calmed down myself. I know Travis is the man I’m kissing right now.

I love him but I want to hate him. He continued to kiss me. I tried to get away but he was strong. He just continued to kiss my lips until his kiss dropped to my neck his hands continued to touches my back.

Even if I wanted to slap him, I couldn't do it as if something was stopping me from stopping him.

I just feel like he picked me up and carried me to his car. He landed me in the front seat.

When he sat down he just staring at me. I sighed as he brought his face close to mine. I just nodded because I felt scared to see his eye. Those eyes is hurting me, this eyes that's is why I loved him. Those eyes fooled me, I still hurt from my the bottom of my heart.

I was shocked when he touched my chin and lifted my head. Slowly he applied his lips to mine but I just stared at him. I was shocked when he took the seatbelt from my side.

Because I was so attached to him. I kissed him on his lips while my two hands were on his shoulders. My eyebrows rose as he stopped kissing me. He removed my hand from my shoulder and pinched my nose.

"I love you, '' he said.