Milena (COMPLETE)

It is not easy to find your true love. Once you find it, you must fight for it. No matter what. ---------------- After so many years, my heart still breaks about the past. Maybe I remember the charm of those eyes, the taste of those lips; the touch of those cheeks --- and everything else about that girl. Or maybe, I still love her. "Can we still love those people who wronged us? Can we forgive them even if we've been hurting for several years? Or can we just forget them?" Those are my thoughts a long time ago. People would say 'forgive and forget.' And I would say 'do forgive but don't forget.' I think hurtful words and deeds can be forgiven. And it depends on how deep we love those who made us hurt. But even if many years have passed, there are some pain that can be hardly forgotten --- perhaps a note to us: please don't suffer again. So, when we get deeply hurt by loving somebody, we must forgive and remember. I remember it's been ten years since she broke up with me. I remember the good old days before she left me. And I remember I hate her for hurting me. So, I've tried to look for someone else; fall in love again; and move on --- just to forget everything about her. But I always fail. And I keep coming back on loving her. I know my heart still calls for her name. I know my love for her has never gone. I know it's still here, now stronger than ever. And I know I'll do better... because I remember my story about me and her. My story is about a simple teenage love bloomed at a school ground. It has that love-at-first-sight kind of moment --- a cliché that we often read or hear from (what I used to call) fairy tales. It's something that I don't really believe at all. But whenever those eyes of that girl meet mine, there’s so much magic that I feel. And I feel complete with her. The first time our eyes met happens to be the first day of school year for sophomores. And she's one of my new classmates. Inside the room, one could see that many guys and girls look stunned by her. Maybe they haven't thought that a goddess like her exists... or that they would be captivated by her charm. And that includes me. So, I have a new girl crush! Yeah, I have some boy crushes but I'm also having crush on girls. And yet, those are simple admiration for a sister... until I met her. Is this love at first sight? Well, I love my family and my friends. And I know I'm surrounded by people who love me too. But this one feels kind of special. And that girl is somebody I just met at school. I've never even seen her in my dream (before). But when our paths crossed, there is joy. I remember my mother’s words: “You may like either a person who likes you back, or someone who doesn’t.” And I'm pretty sure I won't be okay if she rejects my feelings. So, I know it's something more special than a simple admiration for a sister. And I know it's love --- for what she is, her flaws and all. She's the one who made the first move. A shy type person like me won't do that. And in our very first exchange of words, I've felt so real with her, like she really knows the real me. Most of my friends couldn't tell whether I'm happy or not. Maybe it's because I always hide my true feelings with a smile. And I just don't want to make them feel bad too, for I'm their happy pill. But that girl is special. She’s the first girl who confided her feelings for me. She likes writing me love letters so sweet and giving gifts so cute. And she keeps doing those things for me. And I feel special. I’ve never thought that a girl like me, would love another girl, like her. But now, I long for her. Will I ever be able to find true love?