CHAPTER 2
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I opened the door and I saw kio... Wasted. I held him immediately on my shoulder. Tinulungan ko siyang makapunta sa may kama at bumagsak siya roon, hinayaan ko na lang magpahinga muna. I stared at him. He's so handsome, gosh. Kinilig ako.
but when i tried to kiss his cheeks i saw a hickey on his neck.. Wha-what? i am f*****g shaking right now. Is he cheating on me? Tinulungan ko siya para tumagilid at mas makita pa, and i saw.. I saw a hickey. Three hickeys on his neck.
"putangina"
ng mahimas masan. Pinagwalang bahala ko nalang, dahil baka kamot lang? baka hindi niya magagwa yon, kamot lang yon. May tiwala ako kay kio.
pero aaminin kong nagsimula na ako mag conclude. Nakakatakot.
"Love, sinong kasama uminom?"
"sh-sha" "shabn" he's trying his best to say his friend's name.
"shan" he said. "What? only shan? I curiously asked.
tinulak niya ako "tangina napakarami mong tanong" he shouted. "W-what?" i'm so scared.
He stepped his feet and slowly walking toward to me holding my shoulder, both. "Pikong pikon na ako sayo, letche ka eh" his eyes were darker this time, iba siya, ibang iba ngayon.
"Kio ple- please... Nasas- nasasaktan ak- ako" saad kong umiiyak na. Napaka higpit ng hawak niya sa braso ko, nasasaktan na ako. Till my back touch the wall he suddenly talk "talagang sasaktan na kita dahil hindi na kita mahal, nagtitiis nalang ako sayo, tangina ka" sabay bitaw sa braso ko at lumabas ng pinto, halos matanggal ata ang mga frame na nakasabit sa wall ko sa sobrang lakas ng pagsara niya sa pinto ko.
pakiramdam ko bumagsak ang tuhod ko sa sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko. Gustong gusto kong bumagsak ngayon, gustong gusto ko mahimatay nalang. Hindi ko ineexpect labat ng mangyayare tangina" fuck... f**k gago" tanging bulong nalang para maibigkas ang mga mura ko. Sobra ang hagulgol ang gusto kong gawin. Walang kayang magpaliwanag gaano kasakit ang nararamdaman ko.
"la-lasing lang naman sha- siya no'n di- diba??" tanong ko sa sarili ko. "Tangina, pagod at lasing lang siya. Naiintindihan ko yon. Pagod lang siya."
nagising akong sobrang sakit ng mata ko. "8:02am na pala" nakatulog na pala ako sa kinabagsakan ko sa sobrang pagod kakaiyak kagabi hindi ko alam saan mag uumpisa at babangon, basta't ang alam ko, pagod lang siya kaya niya nasabi yon.
to: lover
mahal, nasan ka? alam kong galit kalang. Usap tayo.
i messaged him hopefully that he would reply to me saying sorry for what he did last night.
from: bb
oo galit lang, sensya na.
to: lover
okay lang loveeee, I understand po. Really understand. I love youuuuu?
after that message parang nabuhayan ako puta. It feels like im a teenager na naghihintay sa boyfriend ko. Feeling ko naman he really didn't mean all the things he said last night. He's just drunk and tired. I understand that. Bumangon ako agad at nag dumiretso sa banyo upang maghilamos.
I forgot everything that happened last night and just focused on what I have to do today. I don't have any school work to do so I'll just clean the condo.
"So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying im sorry for that nighhhttttt!" hiyaw na kanta ko habang hawak ang vacuum. "And i go back to decemberrrrr" "tananan tananan tananan hmmm" i laughed by my self.
my phone rang. "oh?" sagot ko habang ang telepono ko ay nasa tenga ko at ang mga kamay ay abala nag huhugas ng plato. "san ka? kain tayo" calvin said
.He's Calvin Achillies Ferrer. 3rd year Civil Engineering Student 23 years Old. 6'1
My childhood best friend. "amp pass" "passundo!" i shouted. "HAHAHAHA oo sige, sunduin kita jan. Samgyup tayo!" anak nang puta tinawanan ako.
"okey pre" i said then ended the call immediately.
After i clean the condo, naligo lang ako. I wore a square neck crop-top na red and denim high waist short. I also put some neck lace and rose gold watch. Hinayaan ko lang lumugay yung hair ko. It's color dark brown and wavy, makapal and kaunting kulot. I heard a knock on the door na so i immediately went sa door para buksan.
"napaka tagal amputa" bungad niya. "Walang hiya ka, nagreklamo kapa talaga. Sandali lang." Kinuha ko lang slippers ko then nilocked na yung door.
"tara na" i casually said. Nakita ko siyang tumitig sakin "ganda ah"
"tangina mo para kang adik na nang cacat call hayop ka ampanget mo" he laugh at me lang. Baliw na tao amp.
"table for 2 please, thank you" he politely said to the girl. "here po kayo, maam" I smiled at the girl. She's so polite and I love her!
"anong nakain mo at ambait mo ngayon ha" i asked him while nakapamewang. "Nakakahiya ka, umupo kanga, tanginang to ikaw na nililibre talagang bumoboses kapa" binatukan niya ako.
I pulled her hair a little so that other people wouldn't see. The ones that will be used for cooking and the vegetables and meat have arrived. "ampangit kasi talaga ng lasa ng kimchi puta pronise huhu" I said while looking at the kimchi with disgust.
"masarap nga 'yan. Ito tikman mo oh" sabi niya at nilahad ang meat na may kimchi and lettuce
"ayoko nga gago, diko talaga gusto lasa promise" tas lumayo ako kaunti sakaniya dahil baka isubo bigla!
"bilis na kasi, isa lang!" pamimilit niya. "ayoko nga please gago naman nito eh" It's a good thing that the sounds of the restaurant are loud and you can't hear people arguing here. I took a bite of the food he was feeding me. I choked and my face was close to tears.
"tangina mo! gago kasi tangina naman eh, ayoko nga kasi ampangit ng lasa talaga hindi nakakatuwa, calvin naman kasi eh" paiyak na sabi ko. Ang Pangit talaga ng lasa kasi nakakaiyak hindi ko ma explain lasa niya huhuhu.
"sorry na" natatawa siyang sabi. Kanina pa siya tawa ng tawa simula nung mabulunan ako dahil ampangit ko raw. Tangina talaga:)
"hayop ka talaga, iiwan kita rito" tumayo ako at dumiretso sa cr para magmumog dahil sa lasa ng kimchi. Pagbalik ko marami na siyang naluto. "Yeeyyyy!" at pumakpak pa na parang bata.
"taena, dikana nanga nagluluto talagang inubos mo pa mga niluluto ko" saad niyang may halong galit na dahil nakakunot na ang noo.
kumuha ako ng tong at tinulungan siya mag luto. After makuha yung mga meat at nilagay sa plato dinikit ko sa balat niya yung tong
"mainit?" I politely asked.
kinurot niya ang bewang ko. "gago ka talaga eh, alam mo yon?" at ngumiti siya ng sartakisto kaya i laughed so hard. Nag vavibe rin ang tugtugan rito dahil neneng b ang tugtugan nila kuya HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA tawang tawa ako.
Kinuha ko yung meat niya dahil antagal niya mag luto kaya masama niya akong tinignan.
"HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA sorry na, ito na oh!" nilagyan ko siya ng meat dahil sasabog na sa galit ang itsura nitong pangit na 'to.
"tangina ang baboy mo calvin" tawang tawa kong sabi dahil binubulsa niya ang mga tirang meat na naluto dahil hindi na kaya ng sikmura lunukin.
"napaka baboy mong tao letche hahahahaha"
"kesa naman magbayad ako bobo, palamunin kanangalang talagang nag iingay kapa" sabi niya at tumawa rin. Tarantado kang lalaki ka ah.
"tara na, pagod na ako" at hinila siya palabas sa restaurant para maglakad na.
"talaga lang ha, saan ka napagod? e halos hindi kanga gumalaw sa kinauupuan mo. lamon kalang ng lamon ako luto ng luto. Baka oo napagod ka kakanguya mo" sabi niya at tumawa
"oh bakit sino nag aya?!" aambahan siya ng suntok "oo na sige na, ako na ako na wag kanang sumigaw" at tumingin sa paligid para ngumiti sa mga tao dahil sa pagkaka sigaw ko. Nakakahiya tuloy bigla
Hinatid niya ako hanggang sa condo. "salamat ah, bait mo sana masarap ulam mo araw araw sa isang linggo hehe" And i smiled at him:). He just smiled at me then wave his hand at me.
Suddenly my phone rang.
Lover is calling…
"yes?" I answered. "napaka landi mo no?" I'm so shocked because.. I didn't expect his word?
"what are you talking about?" I curiously asked, my tears are ready to fall any moment
"nakita ka ng kaibigan ko, hinatid ka raw ng lalaki sa condo mo. Napaka landi mong babae ka rin eh. Kating kati pepe mo talaga no?" sigaw niya mula sa pangalawang linya.
"anong pinagsasabi mo riyan?!" I ended the call immediately. I'm so hurt right now. Hindi ko alam, ansakit marinig sakaniya yon.. o baka naman lasing lang nanaman siya? baka naman talagang lasing lang at pagod lang siya ngayon.. kaya niya nasabi yon?
from: bb
tangina mo napaka landi mo talaga
from: bb
talagang nag pahatid kapa sa lalaki mo? babasagin ko ulo niyang hayop nayan tandaan mo.
from: bb
huwag kang magpapahuli sakin!
I stared at those text for hours.. Gosh. Ansakit taena kahit naman siguro lasing siya hindi niya dapat sinasabi sakin yan.
crying was my thing for hours. I spent my hours crying because of that.
I decided to take a bath kase i don't really know what to feel anymore. I love him so bad but i'm so drained.
I just turn on the shower and let water touch my body. It's relaxing. Ayoko na muna siya isipin. I am so tired.
After taking a bath, I put on my skincare na, and prepare my things because I have class and it will start at 7:00am. Malayo layo rin ang byahe. It's 8:01 pm and I decided not to eat dinner. I don't have any appetite.
from: bb
I'm sorry sa nasabi ko kagabi:((
to:lover
ayos lang po, sorry rin.
For me, A relationship would only work out if you would never let your ego and pride bigger than your love. A long lasting relationship needs a lot of Patient, Assurance, Acceptance, Respect, Understanding. Kaya hangga't kaya ko intindihin, hinahayaan ko dahil mahal ko siya. I want to be best girlfriend for him. Give everything he want. Kaya kahit maubos ako, para sakaniya, para sakaniya kahit manlimos pa ako, gagawin ko.
I woke up around 5:00. After taking a bath, I wore my uniform and id dahil baka makalimutan ko pa nyeta . I just let my hair down and put on my shoes. I also apply light makeup lang, and get my bag ready to go.
Dumaan lang ako sa Starbucks to order my frappe. Ito nalang breakfast ko at dumiretso na sa class. As usual, puro arguments and napaka raming readings. Kanina muntikan pa magkapikunan yung dalawa dahil sa pinaglalaban nila sayang nga eh, mahina ayaw lumapit choss. normal lang naman yon. But if they're letting their emotions win. Ligwak beh
After class, pumunta ako sa library para aralin yung case na pwedeng pag aralan bukas. For 2 hours ako nagbabasa roon at nakita ang tropa ni kio na may kasamang babae at kinakausap. Damn, in that face? seriously he still can get girls? I doubt, binablack mail niya yan. bulong ko sarili ko at umirap. Wala naman akong pake, pero yan ang promotor pagdating sa cheating.
Me and Atashia have a plan na mag study together and of course to catch up narin. I haven't seen her for a week.
My best friend Atashia Ynnares 2nd Year, F.A Student. 22 Year Old. 5'8
"I miss you, gago ka!" sabay sabunot sakaniya.
"tangina mo beh, kung hindi pa kita ichachat talagang hindi mo ako kikitain ha" she pulled my hair too and we laugh
"sorry ha, sobrang daming readings! at sobrang busy" I rolled my eyes.
"ayos ka lang?" I badly want to tear up after she asked that.
"I am proud of you" She said in a soft tone. Atashia knows me. She really does. She's aware when I'm Struggling, Hurting, Happy, Moving, Stuck. She really knows me, even if I don't tell her. She handle me so well. I am so blessed to have her and have my other circle of friends.
"anong nakain mong paminta, may sakit ka bang gago ka? immediately put back of my hands to her noo and neck.
She slapped my hands using her hands "gagong to amputa, tamis mo talagang kaibigan ah!" I laugh namiss kotong gagong 'to
"pre, paano yon malalaman kung yung kliyente niyo is inosente o nagsisinungaling?" she curiously asked.
"wala naman akong pake sakaniya" hindi ko siya tinignan.
she slapped my legs so hard?! "Tangina mo" She whispered.
"putangina ansakit?!" reklamo ko habang naka ngawi puta ansakit mama huhuhu. Tinignan ko siya ng masama
"Of course, kung sila ang client namin, they have to be honest with us, even at the smallest details. Because our only job is to defend them as best we can using their Statements, Actions. And in fact our judgment isn't counted nor important. The judge's judgment does, b***h" sabay irap.
"e pano kung-" i cutted her off
"pag hindi ka nananahimik sasalpakan kita ng kuto sa bibig" She looked at me with disgusted face. I laughed so hard. The people around me looked at me and atashia looked at them to give them an apologetic smile. Both of us were quiet again to study
"tara na, maaga pa bukas eh" paalam ko sakaniya.
"okay, see you, babe!" she kissed my cheeks. Pinunasan ko yon at pinakita sa kaniyang nandidiri ako. "tangina germs!" tumingin ako sakaniya at umaktong nagsusuka.
"oh talaga pukingina mo madapa ka sana!" We laughed and sabay na lumabas ng restaurant. I kissed her din sa cheeks. Baka magtampo pa tumbong neto eh char
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