The JOURNEY of DAILY

·         “You want to listen my story?” she asked politely. As if she knew that I am eager to hear, but still suppressing it “If you want to share it…” I smiled. Of course, I can’t force her. “This is my second marriage.” I…was…shocked! Those words just hit me. I know that her husband loves her very much and she was the one who told me it’s a kindda love marriage! (My stereotyped mind started to think of many things.) “Hey girl, stop dreaming…Then make your opinion.” She poked me. I gave her an awkward smile. s**t! She understood my mind! “My first marriage was my choice. How old I was? 19/20? A girl, who just passed by her teenage time. But I was in love! I loved him, I wanted to marry him. And…The funniest thing is, I married him, after going against my family. You know, people say…Love is Blind. But no, Love is not blind. Obsession is blind and obsession always give you the worst. That’s when I realized, he just liked me. But it was too late…, I was carrying his child." she said without any face. "This part of my life is called, forcing. I forced him to bore the baby, I forced him to stay with me, I forced him to stay with me forever...I never wanted to let him go. For me, he was only mine from heart and soul. Soon, I realized, he is no more mine. Still, I kept forcing him…” She just sighed and looked at my face. “Your face is saying that you are bored”. What! Do my face say this much things? “Let’s speak out something interesting” she said and whispered in my ear “That man is now my sister’s husband” my eyes get bigger than an apple. “Still you don’t want to listen? Hahaha…” I pouted at her. “I am just your neighbor. You sure you want to say these things to me?” “Well, well dear…I think I know how to choose person perfectly, right?” hearing this, my face become paralyzed. I was confused what should I react! I asked her, “How did it turn out like this?” “I don’t know… when I realized he was with another girl, I left him. That’s all I can remember.” “What happened to your baby?” I just asked her this question randomly, but it maybe, it wasn’t that random to her. I felt I have stabbed her with thousand knives. Her face turned pale. “Hey, hey, it’s ok…you can skip that part.” “I got divorce when I was 23 or 24. After that incident, I always used to go outside without telling anyone. One day, I met a car accident and I…lost my child. I was living with my parents of course. Because I understood, I have nowhere to go…” she looked at me after finishing this line and realized that I am totally in. “I heard that, my sister found a man who loves her, he is an engineer and have a great job. I wasn’t allowed to attain her any of the function. My parents, didn’t even allowed me to meet her in-laws. Of course, I was a great shame to them. I found that, one week after her marriage ceremony.” “But why?” she showed me a surprised face hearing the question then smiled lightly. “You are still young...” I pouted again. “I was a shameful matter to them, girl. The only thing I could do was praying for my last breath when falling asleep. But, It didn’t work out.” “Then?”, I interrupt. “Then what?” “How did you meet uncle?” she laughed abruptly. “I didn’t choose your uncle. Your uncle chose me.” “huh?” “yeah…” “Then, tell me how did he choose you?”. She started to say, “I wonder how he did! I used to stay in the house, serving my mom-dad, cleaning house, cooking things, washing clothes, finding a way to just pass by the day and praying for death and waking up as a dead body." for a second, she was lost in her old days. "One day, I saw my dad was sweating badly. He was having trouble with his heart. We both panicked and my mom said to go to our neighbor house.” “So, that’s how you met?” I asked her with my sparkled face of curiosity. She replied with a little shyness “Yes, I didn’t notice him at all. But, that day he noticed me and probably…my dad also noticed him.” “Then?” “Then…he started to come our house very often excusing that he want to check-up my dad." "Wow!!!" "It wasn't that big wow for me little girl." "How can be it is not a wow! I have noticed, uncle is a very strict person. So, it is difficult for him to fall in love." "He was very strict back then also." she pinched my nose. "One day, I heard him making proposal for me to my dad.” “OMG! How romantic!” I shouted with my over exciting voice. She pinched me again, “But it wasn’t romantic at all for me. I was embarrassed by his act, I wasn’t in any situation to fall in love again, I wasn’t ready to face any consequences again. But, at the same time, I was chained, I was a burden for my family”. “Shama…” we both heard a strong voice. “I have to go to the chamber right now…” “Yes, I am coming.” The man went back to his own work. We both looked at each other. Of course, I want to hear some more and i don't want to let it go. “I will tell you the rest half of the story another day. okay?” she patted on my head and said good bye to me. But, that another day didn’t came. I was getting too busy with my life and all. I was a HSC (A-level) candidate at that time. When, finally I got the time… I heard the news of her death. 1 hour later, the uncle was also found nearby her death body. Reason of his death was "sudden stroke"!  Somethings, we should let them go…We can’t find every single answer even if we summon.