Fighting Temptations

Chapter 4 "Our Birthday Month"

After a good nights sleep with a whole lot of cuddles I wake up and go to the bathroom. I brush my teeth and she once again stares at me through the mirror. " Are you happy?" she asks and I smile with a question mark.. "Am I?" I shake my head and continue brushing my teeth.

After I'm done I get in the shower and turn on the tap. The water rolling down my face and body I sense a figure behind me. "Mind if I join you?" he asks. I look around and invite him in. He grabs me around the waist and pulls me closer, "I love you Mrs Johnson." I look up at him and suddenly I feel a knot forming in my throat. I start crying and he pulls me closer holding me tight.

I'm at a loss for words cause I'm feeling a flood of mixed emotions.. Does this man think this is a game we're in whereby he can just take the joystick and play with my feelings like this. What has our marriage come to. I'm consumed by all these thoughts with the man making me feel this way here infront of me.

I try to push him back but his grip tightens and my whole body just let's go and we both go down eventually sitting on the floor. He turns the tap off and holds me in his arms. After about ten minutes I feel it starting to get chilly and he signals to open the water again so I nod. We finish our shower and get dressed.

I go downstairs to prepare breakfast and prepare my baby's lunch for his daycare. I go upstairs and wake him up. My poor sleepy head was still half asleep when I gave him a tickle and he jumped out of bed. "I want to sleep some more, mommy." I look at him giving him a peck on the lips "You can't baby boy, mommy and daddy are going to work and you need to go to daycare and learn all your ABC's and 123's," I chuckled. "Okay mommy, I will just for you." "Ncaaaaw that's so sweet my precious boy, I said in a squeaky voice.

After dressing him we go down and have breakfast as I had already prepared everything.. When Aiden finished his breakfast I kissed him on the forehead and got up to get my bag. Just as I was about to go I feel a warm hand pulling me back and bumping against a broad muscular chest that is so inviting. "Have a good day at work wifey," he says and gives me a peck on the lips.

What a good way to start my day. I question the events of the previous day leading up to today. Strange I think to myself and give a naughty grin.

I'm opening the bar and as usual I do what needs to be done.. I make myself a cup of green tea as I need some healing whether it be spiritual or emotional, but it helps calm me.

The day has been quite busy and I haven't had a chance to take my lunch yet. It is past three and I take a seat to just relax a bit and then I smell it. His scent arrives even before I see him. Cyp is here and I'm conflicted as to how I should behave when we come face to face. I need to clear my mind of what happened because it was a mistake. My husband loves me and is willing to work on our marriage.

As I lift my head up our eyes make contact. I suddenly feel the need to avoid him but when I get up he's already at my table.

"Please have a seat, I would like to discuss something with you."he says. I look at him and say shoot. He starts off "My birthday is coming up on the 12th of next month and I would like to host a party in your bar. I want to book it for the day." he says.

I look at him and with excitement tell him that mine is on the 4th of the coming month. "So we share our birthday month and also same star sign," he smirked. This was a very interesting development to our so called "ship" whatever ship we're in.

I however look at him and c***e an eyebrow and tell him we do not host such events. He looks at me with piercing eyes and says "There is always a first time for everything!"

I nod and say it's fine to avoid any struggles in our conversation. I'm struggling to think straight and need this guy out of my sight because I now feel like I need him like I need air.

He looks so smart in his navy chino pants with a white t-shirt and white converse. So fresh, so crisp and so clean you would swear he is a OCD freak. Uurrgghh he smells delicious if that is even possible. He looks yummy to eat. I look at him and smile and tell him I need to get back to work. I stand up and he smiles at me. I turn around and start making my way to the entrance of the counter. I feel his stare on my back cause damn it's burning holes in me. I feel my body calling out but I fight the urge to go back and make small talk with him. I know that one thing will lead to another so I go into the back office and wait there till he leaves.

It was about an hour later when I came out and was greeted by his back as he was exiting the building. I felt a huge sense of relief but somehow felt a little heartache. Was it maybe that I came across as cold after we had such a steamy intimate session the day before? My mind is running away with me and I just want it to stop.

I'm in an uncomfortable position and it it feels as if I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I never expected things to get out of control but I just couldn't help myself. Cyp's masculinity was just on overload and was oozing everywhere which made me a sucker for his love. I have to face the consequences of that by guilt tormenting me. Will this feeling ever go away?? Do I want it to go away???